38. Torus
Torus never wanted this to end. He could barely breathe—but he didn’t give a damn. Gods, she was sweet—her honey right from the source was even more delicious than he’d thought it would be. He loved the way she squeezed him with her thighs and bucked her hips, grinding her open pussy against his seeking mouth so eagerly, as she tugged his hair to keep him in place. He also loved the helpless moans and cries she made, giving herself completely to the pleasure.
And as he felt her orgasm through the TET link, he began to come himself. Helpless to stop, he barely had time to reach one hand down to free his cock from the confines of his flight leathers. And then he was shooting spurt after spurt of hot cum against the side of the bedcovering, baptizing it with their mutual pleasure.
“Gods, little bird—you taste so sweet!” he groaned through their link.
Molly’s answer was a long, breathless moan and for a moment her thighs tightened against the sides of his head even more. Then she collapsed, panting, her legs parting bonelessly as she melted into a satisfied puddle on the bed.
“Oh, Torus,” she whispered weakly. “That was amazing. I never knew it could be like that!”
Torus couldn’t help the surge of satisfaction he felt. It was the pride of a male who has pleasured his Mate well and thoroughly and knows she is sexually fulfilled.
“I’m glad you enjoyed it, sweetheart,”he murmured through their link. “Now let me just clean you up a little…”
He gave her a gentle tongue bath, lapping the last traces of her honey from her thighs and outer pussy lips. He wished he could dive in and taste her some more—her flavor and scent were damn near addictive. But he could feel her need to recover for a few minutes through the TET link. So he contented himself with just cleaning her and then climbed onto the bed beside her.
“Torus…” She came to his arms immediately and Torus held her close, loving the feel of her soft, curvy body pressed against his own much larger form.
They lay there for a little while, just catching their breath.
“Thank you for letting me taste you, little bird,” he murmured, stroking her back.
Molly gave a breathless little laugh.
“After all that, you’re thanking me?” she exclaimed, looking up at him. “Torus, I’ve never come so hard in my life. And that includes back when I used to use, er, toys on myself,” she added, her face going pink.
“Why did you stop pleasuring yourself?” he asked, looking down at her. “Was it just because of that video your ex-Mate sent out? Or was it because of the way you were raised?”
She’d had a very restrictive childhood and had been raised to be ashamed of her own sexual urges—he’d picked that much up from the thoughts she unwittingly sent him sometimes and the few things she’d said about her family.
Molly sighed and looked down at her hand, which was resting on his chest.
“A little of both, I guess,” she said. “I was raised to think that ‘girls don’t touch themselves’—or ‘only dirty girls do that.’ You know?”
Torus nodded and made a rumbling sound of agreement. He just wanted her to go on. It seemed to him that while Molly had suffered a lot of sexual trauma at the hands of her despicable ex-Mate, many of her problems stemmed from her earlier upbringing.
“So anyway, I was ‘good and clean’ until I went to college—and that’s where I rebelled,” she continued. “It’s also where I met Zach. He was so popular—everybody wanted to be with him. I couldn’t believe he chose me.” She sighed. “Now I think he singled me out because he could sense how weak I was—how easy it would be to manipulate me. Like a lion going after a lame antelope.”
Torus didn’t like this idea…but he couldn’t deny it either. If Molly’s strict upbringing had left her vulnerable—he could well believe that a predator like her ex-Mate would pick up on that.
“Like I said, in college I was in my rebellious phase,’ she continued. “And I decided to try everything I wasn’t supposed to do. Drinking…smoking…pot—you name it. Zach was one of those things. And er, touching myself, was another.”
Torus shook his head.
“I still don’t understand why you were raised to ignore the needs of your own body.”
“Well, I didn’t ignore them in college,” she said dryly. “I had a roommate who was a free spirit—she encouraged me. Well, I guess I should say we encouraged each other—we went to a sex shop and bought our first ‘toys’ together. Vibrators, you know,” she added.
“Like the one I saw you using on yourself in the vid?” Torus asked.
She winced and he felt her deep embarrassment through the TET link.
“Yeah, like that.”
“I’m sorry, sweetheart.” He squeezed her shoulder gently. “Please don’t be ashamed. You’re beautiful when you give yourself pleasure. Go on—tell me more, please.”
Molly sighed.
“Okay, so I didn’t care for drinking or smoking or drugs but I did find out I had a really high sex drive. I mean, I guess I always had but I’d been repressing it for years, you know?”
Torus nodded.
“So I got quite a collection of toys and I really enjoyed, uh, using them on myself,” she went on, her cheeks getting pink again. “But when I got together with Zach, he didn’t like it that I used them. He thought that he should be enough for me—no toys needed.”
Torus gave a snort of derision.
“What? When he refused to even taste you?”
She shrugged.
“Yeah—well he did…other things.”
“What things?” Torus asked softly. He wanted desperately for her to come clean with him—to admit how her ex-Mate had abused her. It seemed to him that if she could acknowledge the abuse, she could begin to heal from it.
But Molly only shook her head.
“Never mind. The point is, he wanted me to throw my toys away. But I hid them instead. Even after we got married—which only happened because I had a pregnancy scare—I kept using them.” She laughed bitterly. “Of course, that’s how he got me on tape. I never knew that he was recording everything and watching me do…what I did to myself.”
“Don’t make it sound dirty,” Torus said, frowning. “You were giving yourself pleasure. And why shouldn’t you? It doesn’t sound like your ex-Mate gave you any!”
“He didn’t.” She shook her head. “But I had never been with anyone else. I lost my virginity to him, you know? It, uh, wasn’t very nice, but I thought that was just because it was my first time.”
Torus caught a glimpse of her memories then—he saw her crying in pain as that bastard of an ex-Mate forced himself inside her.
“Just loosen up, babe!” he was panting as he shoved harder, despite Molly’s tearful protests. “It’ll feel really good if you just fucking loosen up! God, what’s wrong with you anyway? Why are you so fucking tight? Stop whining—it doesn’t hurt that much!”
Torus’s hands curled into fists and he felt the Rage start to rise in him. Gods, he should have broken the worthless male’s neck rather than just his arm and leg!
How could Zach hurt such a soft little female? He had been given a gift—Molly’s first sexual experience had been laid in his hands like a precious flower and he had crushed it with callous disregard, only interested in his own pleasure.
The Kindred didn’t set a great store of importance on a female’s virginity, but they did believe that if the Goddess granted that gift to a warrior—the gift of a female’s first time and her sexual innocence—it was incredibly important to make certain it was a pleasurable experience for her. The fact that Zach Wyndham had used and abused Molly and ruined her first time made Torus so angry he was literally seeing red!
But he knew that Rage wasn’t what his Mate needed right now—she needed compassion and someone who would listen to her. Taking a deep breath, he forced the furious anger down and away.
“He hurt you, didn’t he?” he asked in a low voice.
Looking down, Molly nodded.
“Well, yes. But part of me thought…thought that maybe I deserved to be hurt. Because we were ‘having sex out of wedlock’ that’s what they called it when I was growing up,” she added. She looked up at him. “That’s why I don’t feel bad about you and I doing…er, what we’ve been doing. Because even though we’re going to go our separate ways after this is all over, we’re technically married—at least for now.”
“Go our separate ways?” Torus repeated, frowning.
“Well, yeah. I mean, we’ve already established that Bonding is impossible for us…” She trailed off and he felt a deep sadness in her—a regret that she wasn’t able to take his shaft into her body, to give him what she thought he needed.
“Hey, little bird.” Reaching down, he tilted her chin up with one finger and looked into her lovely hazel eyes. “You don’t have to feel that way. You’re what I want—what I need.”
“But we can’t Bond,” she protested. “I’ve heard so much about how important a Soul Bond is from my friend, Lana and from all the other girls who have Kindred husbands. They say that there’s nothing like it.”
“They may be right, but the TET link seems to be a pretty close second,” Torus said thoughtfully. “It lets us hear each other’s thoughts and feel each other’s emotions. And since neither of us has ever experienced a Soul Bond before, we wouldn’t even know if we were missing anything—which I don’t think we are,” he added.
Molly looked up at him uncertainly.
“What are you saying? Do you want to stay together after the court case is over? Even though we can’t Bond?”
“Bonding isn’t everything,” Torus told her. “I used to believe I could never be with a human female because you’re all so small and fragile—and I was convinced that I would never fit with one.”
“Well, you were right about that,” she pointed out.
“But that doesn’t matter to me now,” Torus went on earnestly. “Because of you, Molly—you’re the one I want. I know our sizes are mismatched, but our souls fit together perfectly. So yes, I want to stay together even after the case is finished.”
“But…that would mean you’d never get to have sex again!” Molly protested.
Torus frowned.
“What do you call what we’ve just been doing, sweetheart?”
“That’s not what I mean—you know what I mean,” she exclaimed. “You can’t fit, er, inside me, Torus. And I just don’t think it’s fair to ask you to give that up forever.”
“I’m not giving anything up,” he said, frowning. “Your pleasure is my pleasure, little bird—I come every time you do. When I feel your orgasm through the TET link it’s so strong I can’t help myself.”
“You mean…?” She raised her eyebrows delicately and nodded down at the end of the bed, where he had been kneeling as he tasted her.
“Mmm-hmm, afraid so.” Torus made a face. “I’m going to need to run this bedcovering through the cleaner later on.”
“Wow…” She shook her head. “I don’t know what to say.”
“Say you’ll stay with me, sweetheart. Even after all this is over,” Torus murmured. Stroking her cheek, he looked down into her eyes. “I want to be with you, Molly—even if we can’t fit together the regular way. None of that matters to me—what matters is you.”
She nibbled her lower lip—a habit she had when she was nervous or uncertain about something, he’d noticed.
“I want to say yes, but I’m not sure I should,” she confessed at last. “I don’t know of any human guy who would be willing to be with a woman he couldn’t, er, fit with.”
“Human males are worthless—I thought we established that,” Torus said and the growl was back in his voice.
“Not all of them,” Molly protested.
Torus thought of the cowardly bodyguard who had known that Molly was being abused and did nothing. And even worse, her ex-Mate who had hurt her again and again and kept on hurting her emotionally even after she was out of his reach physically.
“I have yet to meet one who proves me wrong in my opinion,” he said coldly. “Anyway, I don’t care what a human male would want. I am a Kindred male and I want you.”
“Let me think about it, okay?” Molly asked softly. “It’s a big step to take.”
“No, it’s not—we’re already Joined,” Torus pointed out. “All you have to do is stay with me.” He stroked her cheek. “Stay with me and love me and let me love you, sweetheart.”
Her hazel eyes grew wide and he heard her thinking,
“I can’t believe he used the L word!”
“Why—is that a dirty word?” he sent back through the TET link.
“No, it’s just…a lot of human guys wouldn’t say it because they’re scared of commitment,” Molly sent. She still sounded stunned.
“Again, I’m not human—I’m Kindred. And I don’t fear committing to you,” Torus told her firmly.
And he pulled her closer, cradling her close to his chest and hoping his Bonding Scent would work on her. Now that he had admitted how he felt for the little human, there was no going back for him. He didn’t care if they couldn’t truly Bond—the TET link was good enough for him. It allowed him to hear his Mate’s thoughts and feel her emotions—he didn’t think he was missing anything by not having a Soul Bond with her.
As for the two of them not being able to make love the traditional way, that didn’t bother him either. In fact, he would be perfectly happy just tasting her until both of them came forever. The TET link provided such an intense pleasure loop it was like nothing else he’d ever experienced—not to mention the fact that he was already addicted to her scent and flavor. She was delicious and he wished he could taste her again right now…
“Do you really mean that?” Molly asked in a low voice. “You want to, uh, taste me again?”
“Oh, did you catch that? Sorry, sweetheart.” He leaned down to kiss her softly on the mouth. “But yes, I would love to taste you again—if you’ll let me.”
Molly shifted on the bed and he noticed she was pressing her thighs together. Through the TET link, he could feel her growing desire. She hadn’t been kidding when she’d said she had a high sex drive. And it was clear she needed more of what he’d given her earlier. Her soft little pussy was aching to be licked again—to be tasted and explored thoroughly with his tongue.
“You want me to taste you, don’t you?” he growled softly, stroking her cheek. “Look at me, Molly.” When she looked up, he caught her eyes with his own. “You want to be my good girl and spread your legs to let me in, don’t you?” he asked.
Her freckled cheeks went pink with embarrassment but she nodded her head.
“Yes, Sir,” she whispered.
“You want to feel my tongue inside you—fucking your sweet little pussy while you come for me?” he went on, knowing that she loved it when he “talked dirty” to her.
“Yes,” Molly admitted. She was panting now, her eyes half-lidded with desire.
“Then come here,” Torus ordered. “And let me taste you again.”
She went to him willingly and he tasted her all night long.