Chapter 35 Ramsay
Lying in bed, I stared at the ceiling, trying to sleep and failing.
Akiva, sensing my turmoil, had her head on my chest, comforting me. I stroked her head and tried to close my eyes again.
As soon as I did, I saw Silver in the pub. Looking at me with such pain and betrayal and hatred.
My eyes flew open, and I cursed under my breath.
Despite having left the disappointed folk singer outside the rental she was staying at with the band, I couldn’t shift my guilt. I hadn’t slept with the redhead. After seeing Silver’s face in the pub, I couldn’t do it.
There was this pressure, this unpleasant sensation, crushing down on my chest.
I’d thought I could fuck a random woman and send a message to Silver. So that she wouldn’t feel bad about things ending between us. She’d feel like she’d made an escape. That somehow, we’d all move on.
But seeing her face and realizing I’d done that to her in front of everyone …
What a cruel fucking thing to do.
And more proof I didn’t deserve her.