Six
I finished the whole spray job because I spent all fucking day out there working on it. It was that or risk going into the clubhouse, to bump into either my VP, or his baby sister, yeah, the woman I was desperate to deflower.
Did that sound wrong and distasteful? Yeah, of course, and there was a good reason for that. It was. I was too old for her. At twenty-one, she should be looking at guys her own age, and not me. I was a few weeks away from turning thirty. While it wasn’t a huge age gap, those years meant a lot to someone who’d missed out on so much already.
“Hey, brother, you gonna take a break, like ever?” Torch stuck his head into the spray room and inhaled deeply.
“Oh yeah, that’s the good shit. Makes my balls tingle .”
“You sick fuck, will you get out of here?” The bastard could always make me laugh, and maybe I needed that right now.
“I’m heading into town tonight, gotta find me some pussy. You down?”
The mere thought of any woman other than Elise was a hell no, but I couldn’t let on, could I?
“I’m definitely not some pussy, so no. Get some with someone else.”
Torch laughed, coming over to inspect the parts I was spraying. It was a wraparound design for a motorbike not belonging to a club member. It was a good way to bring in extra money, and honestly, I was enjoying the work. The guy was an online poker player, and did pretty well at it, so the design had the winning hand from his first game, and a wraparound Joker image, because that was his online handle. Joker69, because… well, sometimes we’re all a little juvenile.
“I like that, man. You should do this shit for a living.”
I’d already removed my protective mask as I sat back, so I took the time to let my face cool down after sweating away in that damn thing.
“Are you gonna fuck off so I can finish this?”
Torch smirked, reaching for one of my spray cans, and laughing when I slapped his hand away.
“Not until you agree, no. You know I have a better chance of getting laid when you’re there. You draw them in with your babyface, and then I show they’d be better off with a bad boy. Feeling like really getting nasty tonight though. You wanna share someone?”
A few weeks ago, I’d have said yes to that question, and gamely flirted my way into some girl’s underwear with him. A few weeks ago, life was easier, but it was also emptier.
“I have to be careful, man. We still don’t know who’s getting these videos of me online. They’re not all with the same woman now, so someone’s actively videoing me with others, or I dunno… enlisting others to trap me. I’m tired of seeing my junk online.”
Torch laughed. “I wouldn’t mind if they did it to me. I’m not ashamed of what I’m packing.”
“You know it’s not about that.” It wasn’t. Maybe it had been before, not shame, but humiliation. It’s a violation. It’s others seeing me the way I hadn’t planned for them to see me. Now there was an additional problem though. Elise. If she saw those videos, she’d never want me. She’d never trust me. She’d see me as a man-whore, not worthy of touching her sweet innocent body.
“Dude, I like you, but not really keen on you getting a boner around me when we’re alone.”
I shook myself free of my thoughts.
“What?”
Torch started laughing. “Okay, who is she? You’re thinking about some bitch, and you’re getting a fucking stiffy. I wanna know. Is she hot? Oh, wait, are we gonna share her? I’m feeling like assfucking someone until they scream tonight. Or is it a guy? If so, dibs on his ass.”
I stood up, shoving him hard, and knocking one of my beautiful, finished pieces onto the concrete ground. Fuck. If I’d just fucked up my hard work, I’d blame him for that too.
“Okay, I get it. She’s off limits or he is, whatever. I’m easy. So that’s a no to being my wingman?”
I showed him a middle finger as I crouched down to retrieve the largest fucking piece of my day’s work.
“I’ll see if Micro’s up for it then. You know he likes any opportunity to prove his name’s ironic, or at least he tells us it is.”
I didn’t even acknowledge him, because I was staring at a scuff mark that was gonna set me back hours. What a fucking nightmare.
Elise
D espite my chat with Seth, you know, the part where it was going so well, and he was actually listening, it ended frustratingly with another spat, and me telling him to get lost. It seemed that even if he was willing to butt out of my life so I could make friends, he was still declaring all of his brothers off limits to me, and I was so tired of him laying down the law like that.
I spent the rest of the day alone and bored, and went to bed early. I took my kindle with me, and my third glass of wine. You see, we ladies who aren’t getting any… we let our fingers do the walking, and it almost always goes along with whatever smutty things we’re reading at the time.
As a frustrated virgin, who’d spent way too much time getting herself off, and wishing anyone else would want to touch her in that way, I had a massive collection of books at my disposal, all with plenty of filthy sex scenes in. I’d even bookmarked my favourites for when I really needed to get off.
It wasn’t my only method though. My other dirty little secret was that I enjoyed watching online porn, and getting off to that instead.
When my book wasn’t doing it for me, I always went for my phone next, and scrolled through graphic hardcore videos, looking for something arousing.
Imagine my surprise when I saw, among the ‘new uploads’, references to a baby-faced biker . You could say that was definitely my type, and I hadn’t seen that as an option before, because believe me, I’d tried searching for someone who could turn me on like Has-Been.
There were three videos with that tag, and from the first few moments of the first one, I realised what I was looking at, or more accurately, who I was looking at… A tremor ran from my head to my toes, as I recognised the man of my dreams. Has-Been . I hated the fact that he was touching another woman, but wow… I’d expected hotness under his clothes, but he was next level hot.
He was tall, wiry, strong, so strong, and as he pushed the brunette woman face down on the mattress, with her hips angled up for him, I finally caught sight of it. Oh god, it was big. It was a little scary, but watching him stroking his dick as he fingered the woman… wow, my fingers slipped between my legs, so I could pretend it was me he was touching like that. I couldn’t push them inside me like that, because my hymen was literally still intact, and that was how I knew that his dick, that huge thing he was now dragging back and forth between her legs… that was really going to hurt if we ever got that far.
I teased at my clit, wishing I could have brought my vibrator with me, but I hadn’t wanted to get caught with it when Has-Been took me to get my things that day. The video ended rather suddenly, and I stopped stroking my clit while I awkwardly selected the second video.
Oh my god, this video… in this one he was fucking her, and… well, he’d warned me he wasn’t a gentle guy. The sounds she made, with the tiny amount of volume I’d risked selecting, they were almost pained sounds, like he was hurting her. Her face was scrunched up and she kept fisting the bed covers as she took each thrust. I could hear their bodies slapping together as he kept fucking her so ruthlessly, and then the camera angle changed.
My orgasm came suddenly and without enough warning, and that’s when I realised I was watching his dick plunging, not into her pussy after all, but her ass. He was fucking her ass that hard . For a moment I was shocked, even as my orgasm still lingered, sending last little tingles through me. He was into anal. Why hadn’t I considered that? Seth had said before how depraved bikers could be, and was it really that depraved? I came hard watching it, and I finished the video, watching him use a toy to get her off before he finished, tugging his hard cock out of her ass at the last moment, and jerking it, painting her ass with his cum.
I shouldn’t have watched that. I shouldn’t have invaded his privacy like that, because I knew him. But that tiny voice in the back of my head kept reminding me that if he didn’t want it seen, he wouldn’t have let it be uploaded to a porn site.
I decided to save the third video for another night, but I saved them all to my favourites list, so I could find them again. I had no idea Has-Been was a porn star, but I knew I’d watch those videos again and again until maybe I had a chance to experience the real thing. Suddenly my biggest fear was that this would be all I’d ever have of him.