Eighteen
I ’d definitely lost my mind, and I was dicing with death, but fuck it. I couldn’t stop thinking about her, and I didn’t want to fight my feelings for her any longer. She was a temptation I just couldn’t resist anymore, and why the hell should I?
So Stitch would hate me? He already seemed to be halfway there. The club would fragment if we fell out? Again, we were already there, and the club seemed to be just fine. Why the fuck was I sacrificing Elise’s happiness, and my own, for something that already seemed to have happened?
I shoved the door open outside, and there she was, huddled in the shadows, covered up with way too many dark clothes, her golden hair hidden away. It made her look even younger and more vulnerable, and I felt a twinge of guilt for letting myself get caught up in my desires, when I should be stronger and able to fight them.
“It’s too warm for all these clothes,” she hissed as I stepped up beside her.
“It’s not for warmth. It’s to keep you safe while we’re riding. I’d rather have you in full leathers, because damn… you’d look sexy as fuck, and you’d be even safer.”
She lowered her eyes, but her hand was suddenly grabbing at mine.
“I’ve never been on a motorbike before, Has.”
Another first I can introduce her to. Perfect .
“I’m gonna take all your virginities, babe… starting with this one. Okay here we go, this one here is mine. You’re gonna wrap yourself tight around me, and hang on like you never wanna let me go, okay?” She blinked wide eyes up at me, as she nodded slowly.
“Is this wise?” I shrugged as I helped her into a helmet, and checked it was secure.
I led her to my bike, and helped her up on it, making sure she was holding me like a fucking limpet, before I started her up, and coasted to the gate.
“Hey, brother.”
I nodded at him. “Get the gate, man. We’re taking a little spin.”
“Who’s that with you?”
I just stared at him for long enough that he took the hint, backing up and getting the gate.
“Not a fucking word to a soul. You haven’t seen me, okay?” He nodded, watching us leave with a frown on his face. Finally we were out on the road, just the two of us, away from everyone and everything. With every metre we put between us and the clubhouse, I felt another heavy weight lifting from my shoulders. We weren’t doing anything wrong. We were just two unattached adults spending time together.
I’m not gonna lie, being out on the road, with Elise wrapped around me like that, it felt like some void inside me was filling up with something and I never wanted it to end. I never wanted to stop moving. If we could have just kept on going and never stopped, I’d have been content, just to keep her with me. Because she was mine. She belonged with me, and only me.
Elise
I never expected it to feel so thrilling, being on the back of a motorcycle, but it was. It was scary and exhilarating. The best part, though? Being wrapped around Has-Been. Having to be touching him so closely and intimately, feeling his warmth and his strength. The way his powerful body so effortlessly guided the motorbike around bends and turns.
Finally he slowed down, and I held on tighter as we came to a halt. I looked around us and we were in the middle of nowhere.
“You okay back there?” Now the engine was silent, I could hear him a little more clearly. He helped me off the bike, keeping a tight grip on my elbows until my equilibrium returned.
I struggled with the strap on the helmet, and Has-Been grinned as he helped me out of it.
“How was your first ride, babe?”
I was still trying to wipe the huge smile off my face, because I loved every second of that!
“Wow… that was… why did I wait so long to try that?”
Has-Been rested the helmet down by the bike and cupped my face in his hands.
“You’ve waited way too long for too many things, babe. I want to give them all to you.”
His blue eyes were practically burning with desire, and they kept lowering to my lips, and then he suddenly laughed.
“You can’t stop smiling, can you?”
I turned to glide a hand over the sleek design on Has-Been’s motorbike, the gorgeous phoenix in gold on a black background.
“I’ve never had something so big and throbbing between my legs, Has.”
He groaned, and stepped up behind me, catching both of my hands and pressing them on the bike seat.
“Keep them there, babe. Let me tell you about the big throbbing thing that I want to put between your legs.”
I was already feeling too warm in these clothes, as my body heated at his words, and my legs were trembling slightly. It could have been from being on the bike, of course, but I think it had more to do with the fact that we were somewhere where we finally couldn’t be interrupted, and he was talking dirty again.
He pressed in really close, his body lining up behind mine, and his hands still covering mine on the bike, as his lips lowered to my ear. His warm breath tickled my skin, making me shiver slightly, despite the way I was overheating.
“There are so many firsts for us to explore together, Elise. First time I suck on those perky nipples of yours, first time I spread your legs wide, and feast on that virgin pussy of yours. I know you’re gonna taste sweet, because everything about you is sweet. So many firsts, babe… a lesser man would want to race right to the finish line, and get his cock deep inside you, breaching that little barrier of yours.” Oh god… I pressed back against Has, and he moved his hands to my hips.
“A lesser man would be rocking his hard cock against this pert ass of yours, picturing it disappearing deep inside you. You deserve to experience everything though. You deserve for every one of these experiences to be worthy of you, and even though I’m not, I want to make them amazing for you.”
I tried to turn, to argue with his declaration that he wasn’t worthy of me, but his grip tightened and he held me in place.
“Stay.”
“Stop putting yourself down then, because I want you. You’re all I can think about, and if you keep putting yourself down, then really what you’re doing is judging my taste in men, and my ability to make adult decisions. Is that what you’re doing, Has?”
He nuzzled my neck, his lips touching down briefly, sending tingles along my spine.
“You’re a wily one, babe. Get this though, no matter how much I know I’m not worthy of you, I’m also enough of an asshole to know that it won’t stop me having you. Not anymore. You were meant for me, and I’m through depriving myself of what I need. What we both need.”