Chapter 26
Ryder
Without looking at Maddox or anyone else, I push through the crowd with Penny hanging over my shoulder.
The guys are hollering after me to come back, to share her with them like I’m supposed to, but I keep walking to the front of the bar.
Tank, our bouncer, gives me a questionable look when I pass him, but doesn’t make a move to stop me. Thank fuck. He is nicknamed Tank for a reason, after all.
I hurry around the side of the building where my truck is parked and deposit Penny in the passenger’s seat. I’m halfway around the truck when I see Maddox approach. Fuck.
“What the fuck are you thinking?” he snaps at me. “Have you lost your goddamn mind?”
“I’m leaving,” is all I say, grabbing the handle of the door. Before I can pull it open, Maddox shoves me away from the truck.
“Do you even realize what you just did?”
“I know exactly what I did. It’s you that doesn’t realize the mistake you made,” I spit back at him, shoving against his shoulders. “I told you! I told you, I’d fucking handle it, but you had to step in. You had to make sure you got your way.”
I’ve known Maddox for five years, and I can count on one hand the time I could see any kind of emotion written on his face. Right now, there is no doubt about what he is feeling. Utter shock. He is absolutely shocked by my words.
“When did I ever not stand by my word? When did I ever not deliver? In five years, not once, not one single time, did I give you a reason not to trust me, and still, you had to go against me on this.”
“I do what’s best for the club,” he says, a little more composed now. “That’s all I care about.”
“Maybe that’s your problem. I care about the club too, but that doesn’t mean I can’t care about something else along with it.”
“Are you saying you are putting her before the club?” Maddox points to the cab of my truck.
“I’m saying I protect what’s mine. That goes for both the club and her.”
“You are blind. She is nothing but some broad who fucked you over once. She is going to fuck you over again, and this time I’ll let you rot in jail.” Maddox turns away from me.
“Fuck you.” I open the door and climb into the truck. Turning on the engine, I watch as my best friend walks back into the bar without me, and I can’t help but wonder if I just made the biggest mistake of my life.
We drive in complete silence, which is a good thing because I don’t trust myself to say anything right now.
I pull up to a motel on the other side of town and put the truck in park. When I get out, Penny follows me into the run-down lobby.
She stands close behind me as I pay for a room.
Grabbing the key card from the counter, I turn and walk down the side road until we get to our room. I don’t have to look back to make sure Penny is following me. I can feel her, even though we’re not touching. Even though I can’t hear her footsteps, I know she is there.
Stepping into the shitty motel room, I flip on the light and sit on the bed, letting my head fall into my hands, running my fingernails over my scalp. I feel like pulling my fucking hair out.
I fucked up. I really fucked up today, but what choice did I have? It was this, or watch the guys fuck Penny in front of me. The thought alone renews my anger. My muscles vibrate, my arms shake, and all I want to do is punch something. Let go of this anger.
The door closes, and I hear the deadbolt being put in place. Other than my ragged breath and my heart beating viciously against my ribcage, the room is silent.
I feel Penny move in front of me, her small hands cautiously touching my forearms.
“Tell me what I can do? What can I do to make you feel better?”
Her question catches me off guard. What can she do? Nothing. She takes me by surprise yet again when she gets on her knees between my legs.
“Ryder, please, tell me what I can do? I’ll do anything.” Her voice is laced with emotion, and I know how much she means what she is saying.
“Unless you want me to let my anger out on you, you need to step back right fucking now.”
“Do it then… do whatever you want to. Hurt me. Let it out. Do whatever you want with me.”
I let my hands fall from my face so I can look at her. She is on her knees, but her head is held up high, her eyes determined, her shoulders stiff, and her back straight. If she is scared, she is not showing it.
“Do whatever you want with me?” I echo her words. “You don’t know what you’re saying. You don’t want me to take you up on that offer,” I warn, but her resolve doesn’t falter.
“I do. I can take it, and I trust you not to go too far.”
Lifting my hand, I wrap my fingers around her slender throat like I did earlier. She doesn’t flinch, doesn’t move, or even blink.
“Are you sure, little owl? Are you sure you can handle that side of me?”
“Yes.” She nods slightly, her eyes never leaving mine. I can feel her pulse racing beneath my touch, but I’m not sure if that’s to do with fear or excitement.
In one swift move, I move us around so she is lying on the bed, and I hover above her.
Never taking my hand away from her throat, I use my free one to undress her.
Her chest rises and plunges, but she doesn’t fight me.
Her arms lie motionless beside her body as I rip her clothes off until she is completely naked beneath me.
Like an offering, she’s lying on the bed. Giving me her complete submission, she surrenders her body to me in every way. She is giving me all the power, which is exactly what I need right now. Regaining a sense of control.
I can feel the anger draining from my body, leaving the intense urge to fuck her senseless in its wake. Fuck her any way I want to.
Leaning down, I take her taut nipple between my lips, running my tongue over her soft skin before sucking it harshly. She stifles a moan, and her back arches slightly, pushing her tits further into my face.
Raking my teeth along her tender flesh, I bite down gently, just enough to cause a little bit of pain. Penny whimpers but doesn’t move or push me away.
Trailing my free hand down her stomach, I shove between her legs, teasing her folds apart with my fingers. She is already wet, making my two fingers slide into her cunt with ease while I continue teasing her breasts, biting, sucking, and licking anywhere I please.
Releasing her tit, I lift my body so I can see her face while I finger fuck her. I expect to see at least a trace of fear by now, but all I find is her cheeks flushed, her lips slightly parted, and her eyes unfocused.
I tighten my grip around her throat and add a third finger into her tight channel. Her eyes flicker to mine before she closes them. Her hands grabbing the sheets next to her, like she needs to hold on to something.
“Regretting your offer yet?”
She shakes her head but keeps her eyes shut. “Do your worst.”
I don’t know why she is pushing me right now. Neither do I understand why I want to push back. Why I want to test her limits. I just do.
“Turn around,” I order, pulling my fingers from her pussy and releasing her neck. “I want you on your hands and knees.”
She obeys immediately, turning around, she scrambles on all fours.
“Spread your legs more. Ass in the air.” Again, she follows my instructions without question. Her legs are spread wide, her ass is jutted out, giving me a full view.
I strip out of my own clothes in record time. My dick is so hard it’s painful. I get on the bed behind her, grabbing her ass cheeks, I spread them apart even further.
Leaning down, I drag my tongue all the way from her clit up to her puckered asshole. She tenses but doesn’t say anything.
I keep teasing her there, dipping my tongue into her tight ring of muscle until I can feel her relax again.
Straightening up, I take my cock into my hand and guide it to her cunt. Running my engorged mushroom head through her slit, I gather all the moisture before lining up with her entrance.
With a groan, I bury myself deep inside her, filling her pussy in one fluid thrust.
Fuck… She feels so good. My head swims. I could get lost in this feeling, get lost in her.
I pull out, just to plunge back into her, over and over again. Each thrust making her body bounce forward.
Sprawling my hand out between her shoulder blades, I push her down, flatten her upper body against the mattress while keeping a tight grip on her hip with my other hand. With the newfound leverage, I fuck her the way I always wanted to, hard and fast.
I don’t know how long I fuck her like this. Minutes? Hours? I have no clue. I lose all sense of time while rutting her into the mattress.
Only when I feel my orgasm building at the base of my spine, do I slow down and loosen my grip on her.
This feels too good for it to be over so soon. I want to make this last all night if I can.
“You still with me, little owl?” I ask breathlessly while running my hand up and down her spine. She shivers but pushes her ass back into me.
“Yes,” she murmurs with her cheek against the mattress.
“You said I can do whatever I want,” I point out while running my finger down the crack of her ass.
“Yes.” She gasps when my thumb circles her backside.
Grinning, I continue massaging her puckered hole all while lazily fucking her. When I know she is relaxed enough, I pull out, so I can gather her wetness from her cunt and spread it around her ass.
She whimpers when I push my thumb into the tight ring of muscle, but once I pump it in and out a few times, she moans into the sheets. I knew she would like this.
Pulling out my thumb, I replace it with the head of my cock.
“Stay relaxed, don’t tense up,” I warn before I slowly push inside her. “Fuck… you’re so tight.” So tight, I don’t think I can do this without hurting her. Not like this anyway.
Wrapping my arm around her middle, I pull her up and against my chest. My other arm snakes around her as well, my hand going between her thighs, finding her swollen clit.
“Come for me.” I breathe into the shell of her ear while rubbing her clit relentlessly. “That’s it, let me in.”
Her head falls back against my shoulder, and I use this new position to trail open mouth kisses over her neck and shoulder.
She relaxes in my hold, and my cock slides in an inch, making her moan. Her slender fingers wrap around my wrist, not to push me away but to hold me close to her.
I dip three fingers into her cunt, rubbing my palm against her clit while sliding my cock all the way inside her ass. She shudders, and a soft whimper falls from her lips. Her sharp nails dig into my skin, and I hiss at the pain.
“Fuck…” My balls slap against her skin as I fuck her ass. Simultaneously, I thrust my fingers inside her other opening.
“Ryder,” she whines, her nails digging deeper into my skin.
“Is this what you had in mind?” My voice is so low and raspy; I can barely recognize it as my own. “Is this how you wanted me to take you? To fuck you like you’re my toy?”
My crude words finally set her off. Her whole body convulses as a strangled scream rips from her throat. Her back arches, and her ass grips me so tightly that it sets off my own orgasm.
I clutch onto her, clinging to her slender body as I come deep inside of her ass. The room spins, and I see stars. Wave after wave of release washes over me until my head is cloudy and my body so weak, I can’t hold myself up any longer.
Collapsing onto the bed, I trap her body beneath mine until I can catch my breath.
When I finally regain a sense of control over my body, I push up to make sure Penny is all right. She is still breathing heavy, a thin sheen of sweat covering her body. I swipe the damp hair from the back of her neck and place a soft kiss there.
I want to ask if she is okay, but looking at her face, I know the answer.
Her expression is relaxed, peaceful, and sated.
Her lips are even tucked up in a tiny smile.
Her eyes are already closed, and despite being in this shitty motel bed, she looks like she is going to have the best night of sleep.
Pulling out of her gently, I wince at the coldness and loss of contact.
Going into the bathroom, I grab a washcloth and run some warm water over it. When I walk back to the bed, I find she hasn’t moved an inch, and her eyes are closed. She looks thoroughly worn out.
She doesn’t flinch when I clean between her legs, and she doesn’t stir when I move her body up, so her head is on one of the flimsy white pillows.
Before I lie down, I double-check the lock and window. Grabbing my gun from my jacket, I make sure a bullet is in the chamber and place it on the nightstand. This location and this room are completely unsafe, but it will have to do for tonight. Tomorrow, I’ll think of something better.
Climbing into the bed next to Penny, I cover us with the scratchy motel blanket and pull her limp body into my chest.
Today was all kinds of fucked up, but at least I have this… her safe and sound in my arms. Even if it won’t last much longer.