Chapter 4
Damon
What the fuck is wrong with this chick? I kneel in front of her crumbled body and examine her.
Using my hands, I lift her head and feel for a wound.
My fingers comb through her hair. The locks are smooth—so smooth, I envision tugging on them as I fuck her from behind. I blink, shaking the thought away.
No, you do not want to fuck her. You. Do. Not.
I make note of the large knot on the back of her head, then I inspect her face. Now I can see how pretty she is without the fearful expression on her face. Why the hell is she so scared of me?
I can’t leave her on the floor. I slide one arm underneath her shoulders, and the other beneath her knees, then I pull her into my body, tucking her into my chest.
She feels perfect in my arms, her weight resting against me. Her head rolls toward me, and her face presses against my shoulder. Through the fabric of my shirt, I can feel her breath on my skin. It sends a shudder down my spine.
I’m about to lay her on the couch, but then stop. I enjoy holding her in my arms, and I decide to do so for a few more minutes.
Why? I don’t fucking know.
She looks so peaceful. No scowl, no fear, no terror. Women look a lot of different ways when I have my hands on them, but peaceful has never been on that list.
My chest tightens and part of me, deep down, likes this—it likes it a lot.
Her eyelids flutter open, and two big brown orbs stare up at me. There is a split second before she recognizes who’s holding her. A moment where that peacefulness and trust she had for me in her sleep is still apparent.
It passes, though, and fear returns to her beautiful chocolate-colored eyes.
I wish the time between us wouldn’t end, but when her body instinctively pulls away from mine instead of leaning into me for comfort, I place her ass back down on the couch beside me, noticing the slight tremble of her body.
“Are you going to fucking live or do I need to tell my guys to dig a grave outback?” I consider the fact that maybe scaring her more is not such a good idea…but hell, that’s what I do best. Scare people…and kill them. You get one or the other.
“I want to go home, but most of all, I want to know what happened to my brother.”
I think those are the most words she’s said to me all day. Maybe that fall rattled some courage loose inside her head, but I can’t have her going around asking questions.
“You will listen to me, Kiera, or you will die. This world isn’t the same as yours. You’re walking into a fucking nightmare. One wrong move will get you killed. Do you understand me?”
Tears roll down her creamy white cheeks. First one…then two…and for some reason, they gut me.
They rip me apart from the inside out.
“Tell me what happened to him?”
“First rule, don’t ask questions. That’s exactly the kind of thing I’m talking about. Questions like that will get you killed. Keep your mouth shut and do what I say, otherwise I’ll find another job for your lips, and you don’t really look like the sucking cock type.”
Three knocks sound against the door, and I know who it is. When I see Hero enter the room, I sigh.
“Change your mind about the girl I offered?”
“No, I came to ask you for a ride home,” he announces, clearly drunk off his ass from the way he falls into the chair at the front of my desk. I consider what he told me earlier, about Elyse, and how he loved her. The thought seems foreign to me.
Love doesn’t exist in my world. It can’t. It’s a weakness that cannot be afforded. Because when you love someone, they become your Achillies heal. And your enemies...they’ll use them against you any day.
“You think going home to your girl like this is a good idea?”
“No, but any other idea is shit too. Doesn’t matter when I go home, my ass is still going to be chewed.” I almost laugh. Trouble in paradise already.
“How about you crash at my place tonight? I’ve got something at home that will calm you down a bit without making you puke your guts out in the morning.” I’ve been looking forward to smoking some weed all day, and Hero looks like he might need some as bad as I do.
“Sure, let’s go then. I don’t know how much longer my legs will work.” They better work until he makes it to my couch ‘cause I’m not going to carry his ass.
“Let’s go, Kiera. Grab your shit, you’re coming with me.”
She hesitates for a moment, weighing her options. Her eyes flicker to the door like she’s going to make another run for it. Instead, she grabs her backpack and gets up, her legs still unsteady. She better not faint again. Although, if she did, I would carry her.
I walk out the door ahead, both of them following me like lost sheep.
“How drunk am I?” Hero asks as we get in my car.
I wish he would shut up enjoy the damn ride.
“Pretty fucking drunk,” I grit through my teeth. Looking into the rearview mirror, I see Kiera sitting in the back. She looks as if I’m driving her to her execution. What the fuck am I going to do with this girl at my house?
“Okay, good. Because I could’ve sworn there was a chick in the backseat of your car.”
I almost smile at Hero’s comment. Almost.
“Go to the guest room and lock the door behind you,” I order Kiera, pointing her in the right direction. She scurries away, disappearing into the hallway like she can’t get away fast enough.
Hero follows me into the living room and throws himself down onto the leather couch. I reach into a secret compartment in the end table and pull out a small metal case. Flipping it open, I take out one of the pre-rolled joints and put it between my lips.
Sitting next to Hero, I pull out a lighter from my other pocket and light the end of the joint. I suck in the sweet, calming smoke, filling my lungs as full as I can, just to puff it right back out. It takes about three drags before my body and mind relax, and I hand the joint over to Hero.
“So, you really are in love with that girl.” I can’t believe I’m even asking this question. Must be the weed. I hope Hero is fucked up enough to forget we ever had this touchy-feely conversation.
“So fucking much it hurts. I keep fucking up, but I can’t help it. She pushes all my buttons, good and bad. It’s driving me insane.”
I nod at his explanation. I know all about someone pushing my buttons. She’s sitting in the bedroom down the hall.
Halfway through the joint, Hero passes out, and I have to finish this bad boy myself. Oh well…
As soon as I reach a nice buzz and stop thinking about everything that annoyed me today, my phone vibrates in my pocket.
Of course, I start to chill out and everything goes to shit.
“What?” I answer without checking the screen.
Toni’s voice comes through the line. “Hey, boss, sorry for calling so late, but I figured you might want to know about this right away.” I have a feeling I most definitely do not want to hear anything he is about to tell me.
When I don’t say anything, he continues. “The cleanup crew got back to me. They found some stuff on scene. It looks like Leo was working for Xander before they offed him. The way they killed him definitely proves it was his crew.”
Fuck my life.
“Also, there was a note on the fridge. I’m sending you a picture of it now.”
“Okay. I’ll deal with this in the morning.” I hang up the phone and look at the screen, waiting for the picture to come through. A few seconds later, it does. The words We’ll be back for you are written in familiar handwriting on a sticky note. Suddenly, everything has taken a horrible turn.
Out of all the people in the world, did it have to be my stupid ass brother who was after Keira? Now, I do feel bad for her.
I lean forward and hold my head in my hands. Hero’s soft snores fill my ears. If my brother gets his hands on her…I don't even want to think about it.
He’d break her. Destroy her. She might be scared of me, but she's never met Xander, and he's way fucking worse.
I’ve always hated Xander, even when we were kids.
Probably because our father made us hate each other.
I might be a dick, but Xander puts me to shame one-hundred percent.
He's a psychopath without a caring bone in his body.
Remembering my childhood and my crazy ass brother is not what I need to be doing right now. I can deal with all this shit tomorrow.
Pushing up from the couch, I walk over to the liquor cabinet and rummage through it. Vodka or Whiskey? I contemplate the choice like it's the only thing I should be concerned with right now.
My fingers wrap around the neck of the whiskey bottle, then I twist the cap off and pour myself a full glass. I can’t even swirl the amber liquid around like I usually do because I’ve filled the fucking thing right to the rim.
Bringing the glass to my nose, I inhale. Smoke and wood fill my nostrils, along with an undertone of vanilla. I bring the glass to my lips and down half of it in one swallow, enjoying how it coats my throat with flames of fire, then settles deep into my stomach, warming my body all over.
I top off the crystal cup and take another large gulp, then another. Wiping at my mouth with the back of my hand, I wonder what kind of shit Leo was doing for my brother. My thoughts once again turn to Keira.
She is probably wondering why her brother would send her to an asshole like me. What she doesn't know is I’m way less of an asshole than the fucker who’s after her. And her brother—well, he was right to send her my way simply because I’m the only one who can protect her from my brother.
I down the rest of the alcohol and make my way to my bedroom. The hallway is completely dark except a faint light escaping from beneath the guest bedroom door. I almost walk past it, but some invisible force makes me stop.
My mind starts to wander…
What’s she doing right now? Is she sleeping? Is she naked? My cock hardens inside my pants. I lick my lips, thinking of all the different things I want to do to her.
Uh…fuck yes. She is probably naked in the bed.
Maybe I can sneak in and take a peek.
I know what I’m doing is wrong. I know it, but I don’t give a fuck. I never said I was a gentleman...or a good man, for that matter.
It isn’t until the doorknob turns in my hand and the door opens that I remember I told her to lock it.
I clench my jaw in anger.
Does this girl listen to a word I say?
I push the door open all the way and find her sitting on the bed, fully dressed.
Bummer.
I avert my eyes, refusing to look at her. She’s beautiful, too beautiful, and I don’t want to see her terrified gaze.
“You know, for someone who acts so fucking scared all the time, you really should improve your listening skills. You might make it out of this situation alive if you listen to me.”
I walk up to the bed, and she scoots back to sit at the headboard, her legs drawn up to her chest making her appear even smaller than she is.
The only thing she’s taken off so far are her shoes.
And like the sick bastard I am, I wonder what I’d have to do to make her lose some of her clothes.
My dick grows harder thinking about the creamy bare skin hiding under all that fabric.
I’d bet money she is soft all over…really fucking soft.
“You’re going to do something for me, and you’re going to do it because I told you.”
Her eyes flash with fear. “And what is that?”
“Suck my cock.”
Hugging her legs tighter, she whispers, “No.”
I take a surprised step back. “No? You think I’m going to let you stay here…at my house…keep you protected…for free? It don’t work that way, baby.”
“I-I can leave.” Her voice is soft and fragile—like everything else about her. I want to grab her by the shoulders, shake her, and yell. I want to tell her to swallow her fears and stop being so fucking weak.
“No, you can’t, and you won’t. The person who is after you, he’s a real fucking prick.
If he gets his hands on you, he is not going to be as nice as I have been.
” I keep my voice even and continue. “He is going to shove his dick down your throat and choke you with it before he beats the ever-loving fuck out of you. He won’t offer you a place to live, or protection, and he definitely won’t let you say no to him—not that it would matter if you said no. A hole is a hole.”
I pause briefly, gauging Kiera’s heart-shaped face. She looks worried, her tiny little body trembling against the headboard, leaving me with the visual of a million and one other ways I could make her tremble.
“So, if you want my protection, if you want me to shield you from him, you’re going to get your sweet little ass over here and suck me off. After that, you’re going to be a good little girl and listen to me, because I am so very fucking close to losing my patience with you.”
I say the words, but I’m not sure I mean them. I can’t force her to do anything she doesn’t want to do. I can scare her. I can trick her, but there is no way in hell I’m taking something from Keira she doesn’t want to offer.