Chapter Three #2
Once he was actually in motion, the act of taking the test was fairly quick and simple, the process delayed only when he read through the instructions a couple times more than necessary in one last attempt to stall.
He’d snagged the test from the drug store earlier, face burning the entire time, as if anyone around him gave even the smallest amount of fucks about what he was doing there in the family planning aisle. Even still, he had thanked every god he could think of for the advent of self-checkout.
It was the cheapest test they sold, and supposedly took five entire minutes to show results.
Five. Whole. Minutes. That was like… a lot of seconds—whatever, he was bad at math—but the point was, despite the hours he’d spent avoiding the test, five minutes seemed like an impossibly long amount of time to wait.
He only had so much willpower; he needed to know how screwed he was now.
After snapping the cap onto the test and washing his hands, he brought the stick with him back into his bedroom, where he took out his phone and opened his Twitch app.
Jun’s stream was listed right at the top, and Miles clicked into it, put it on full screen, then pressed his volume button until it was at maximum.
As he propped the phone up on one of his pillows and sat crisscross in front of it, Jun’s gorgeous voice filled the room.
“Someone in the chat just asked why I haven’t done a livestream in a while,” he was saying, eyes glancing at where Miles knew the constant stream of comments was filtering past on his screen, before turning back to the game he was playing—Miles wasn’t even sure what it was, nor did it particularly matter to him.
All he was seeking right now was comfort, and although Jun was right at the heart of his anxieties, Miles couldn’t help the almost Pavlovian sense of calm that washed over him as he listened to him talk.
“Well, first off, I just got back from tour—big thanks to everyone who showed up, by the way, I had a great time,” Jun continued.
He unconsciously brushed a strand of his jet-black hair out of his face, and Miles thought about how he had wrapped his fingers through those medium-length locks and tugged when Jun buried himself inside him all the way to the hilt.
Jun shifted in his chair, his t-shirt riding up slightly, and Miles remembered the washboard abs that were currently hidden from view.
They had glistened with sweat, making Jun taste like salt when Miles licked down his sternum.
His eyes wandered the screen and landed on Jun’s chest, and he smiled slightly to himself with the memory of the adorable Legend of Zelda flash tattoo that was inked into the skin of his left pec.
It had been that tattoo—so tiny and innocuous, but so clearly full of memories and childish joy—that had made Miles a goner.
That tattoo had humanized him, turning him from a famous celebrity to a sweet, albeit ungodly attractive man who was so diligent and thorough in taking care of him that Miles, a chronic insomniac, had slept like a fucking rock for the first time in ages.
“… also got a lot on my mind.” Miles, briefly distracted by his memories, tuned back in to whatever Jun was talking about.
The corner of Jun’s mouth was in a slight downturn, and his thin, dark brows were knitted in thought.
“This might be getting too personal, but have any of you ever felt a really intense connection with someone you’ve only known for a short time? ”
Miles sucked in a breath, watching Jun scan the comments out of the corner of his eye.
“Yeah, that’s exactly what I mean, Alyssa,” he said, responding to a viewer.
“A situation where technically the two of you are strangers, but you have the overwhelming feeling that you… I dunno, are supposed to know each other for some reason. It’s hard to explain, I guess, but the point is, I experienced that a few weeks ago and I just can’t seem to stop thinking about it. ”
His eyes skimmed the comments again and a moment later he barked out a laugh.
“Casey says ‘how to tell your Twitch audience you caught feelings during a one-night stand without saying you had a one-night stand.’ Yeah, okay Casey, you caught me. He was a really sweet guy, though… Yeah, Devin, I gave him my number, but he didn’t call.
He probably looked me up and got spooked.
I didn’t tell him what I did for a living, which, I dunno, maybe was wrong of me, but I didn’t expect it to be anything but a fling, you know?
Besides, it was kind of nice being with someone who didn’t know who I was.
I think it would be hard to be with someone who knew who I was on here before meeting me, just because they’d already have all these opinions formed…
Ha! You guys, stop with the crying emojis, I’m sure you can find some other streamer to date. ”
Miles didn’t realize he’d been clenching his jaw until his back molars began to ache.
Hastily, he opened his mouth and rubbed his cheek with a grimace.
He tapped his phone screen to see the time.
It had been well over five minutes. Closing his eyes briefly, he took a deep, steadying breath, and then turned the test over in his lap.
“Shit,” he said to the empty room.
What the hell was he going to do?
x_kilometers_x: Hey… Sorry if this is weird, and tbh I don’t even know if you’ll see this comment, but I heard what you said on your livestream about catching feelings for a guy you hardly know, and just…
I can relate, ig, and so if you ever want to talk about it feel free to DM me.
No hard feelings if not. Hope you’re doing okay. xo