Chapter 4 Teddy
FOUR
Teddy
Iwas stalling. Not for fear of the pain that was coming, but the possibility that I was pushing Suki too far and that whatever this could have been was already ruined.
Did I take my chances and go for it, taking her knot and knowing I’d have that experience forever, or back away and build something with her first?
Decisions, decisions.
It was too late already, wasn’t it? If I backed out now, she’d think I wasn’t interested. At least, that’s how I would feel. And if she vanished, I would stalk her for eternity anyway, so did it really matter?
Decision made.
I would do what I came here to do, consequences be damned. Suki’s knot would be mine, and I would cherish this moment forever, with or without her by my side.
I didn’t know where these lovey-dovey feelings were coming from, but I felt seen for the first time.
Suki, an Alpha, didn’t look at me with disgust when I gave her my proposition.
Instead, she welcomed it without hesitation.
There was something about her that was different, which sounded cheesy, and I would typically laugh at myself for suggesting it, but it wasn’t something I could describe.
It was simply her. She was it, the person I connected with despite our little—and drug induced—time together.
The tears slowly streamed from her eyes, her pheromones screaming out at me to take her. If I was an Omega, I’d be done for. She’d be untied, and I’d be knotted and loving it. I felt that need to my core, but I had enough sense to keep her tied up for now.
But maybe…
More pain meant more pleasure, right?
If she were any other Alpha, I knew what would happen. Rut would drive her, and she’d take me. End of story. But Suki had more of a calming control than others, and I didn’t want to risk being teased forever like I had done to her.
Maybe another time, but that wasn’t the pain I wanted right now.
Without a word, I made sure we were well lubricated and met Suki’s dark eyes.
I sunk lower and lower and lower, never taking my eyes off of hers.
In seconds, I was right back to where I was, the pressure on the edge of pain but not quite there.
But I knew what was coming, and the thought of it made me wetter.
Adjusting my legs, I widened my stance, took a deep breath, and dropped my hips, letting the weight of my body do the work for me.
I gasped when her knot slid in, shoving past all the tight muscles and finding its place inside of me.
“Fuck me,” I cried out, and Suki groaned, something akin to a possessive growl. I committed it to memory and knew that sound would always make my legs weak and my heart flutter.
My eyes grew wide, and tears pricked at the corners, demanding to be set free. My head fell forward, and the tears dropped, landing on Suki’s sternum.
I couldn’t move. Every inch of me was frozen as Suki’s knot grew and grew some more.
By the time it was done, I was screaming and sobbing, not from pain alone, but sheer pleasure rushing through me alongside it.
My fingers dug into the bedding as I cried and panted, collapsing against her chest with a twinge as the knot pulled with my movement.
That had never happened before, but the emotions this brought on, having a real person to experience this with… it wasn’t like the practice runs. Those were near clinical, an urgent training to ensure I was ready, but here with Suki, it was real and oh so delightful.
“Are you okay?” Suki whispered against the top of my head. The rest of her body remained perfectly still, allowing mine to get used to the stretch without risk of more damage.
“Yeah,” I squeaked out as my lips grew into a bright smile despite the tears that still fell. “I’m perfect actually.”
“Then let me go.”
“What?” My torso lifted of its own accord, and I hissed as the angle of her cock changed inside of me. I was full, so full, but her words wafted away the euphoria.
She couldn’t leave now even if she wanted to. We were stuck together until her knot deflated. If she yanked herself out… I cringed at the thought. Neither of us would come out well on the other end if she tried that.
“Untie me.” She jangled the restraints above her. Her voice was deep, slightly demanding, but there was no command in it.
“Are you going to run if I do?” I kept my face neutral with an edge of saddened curiosity as I stared down at her. I already decided to let Suki run in the end, even though I would follow her for eternity, her own personal stalker, but I wanted to know what she was thinking.
Suki shook her head, and I kept the relieved sigh to myself.
“Did you figure out that I’d never leave you alone?” I joked with a smirk that was quickly wiped from my face when Suki bucked under me, hitting all the pleasurable and painful spots in one go.
“What makes you think I’d leave you alone?”
“I don’t know. Maybe the drugging and tying you up,” I said through gritted teeth. Half of me wanted to ride her like there was no tomorrow, but the logical side screamed how dangerous that could be.
Worth it though. I knew it would be.
Suki stopped moving, and when I met her gaze again, I realized that her pupils were nearly back to normal, and when I smelled the room, the strawberry and vanilla scent was one small breeze from being eradicated.
Whatever Suki was feeling now, it was real, not rut induced. Well, the knot was rut induced, but her words and her actions were all clear now, or as clear as they could be in the middle of sex.
“You’re forgiven. Although there isn’t anything to forgive.
You knew what I liked, and you used it to your advantage.
I’m right where I want to to be, Teddy.” Suki made it seem so easy.
Forgiven? Already? How could that even be a possibility here?
Was she insane? I felt as if I had missed something while I was researching her, but I knew there were no hospital records indicating that her brain was broken.
No, that was all me. The broken one in some ways. A tech genius by day and a dumbass stalker by night.
I didn’t say anything. Instead, I reached up, taking the pain that came with the pull of her knot, and released her from the restraints. Now it really was up to her. She could fuck me until I passed out, or she could remove herself, damaging us both far more than we already were.
Two heartbeats passed, then her eyes flashed, and her pupils grew again.
Mine grew wide, and I stared over at the pheromone dispenser, but it wasn’t on. This wasn’t the Omega’s pheromones. This was all Suki and me.
“Suki?” I asked tentatively, not wanting to poke the proverbial bear that I was attached to.
A wide grin graced her lips, and her hands quickly gripped my hips, shoving me down against her.
A gasp tore from me, then I was on my back with my knees pressed into my chest with my legs slightly spread so we could still see each other.
“Yes, Teddy?” The words were soft and fell over me like a calming blanket. “Did you need something?” She emphasized her question with a thrust of her hips, the angle making everything so much tighter and deeper, effectively shutting me up.
I wanted her to let go, to brand me with her scent deeper than anyone else had before. No words left my lips, but the look on my face must have said enough.
Suki sat up, straightening her body, and released my legs. Her arms remained under them as she gripped my hips and pulled me to her. Pain and pleasure and the joyous possibilities I hadn’t seen before ran through me.
My hands gripped the bedding above me, still warm from where Suki had been a mere minute ago.
“Make me yours, Suki,” I moaned, attempting to grind my hips into hers. The pain was less now, my body having stretched enough to accommodate more of her.
Suki mumbled something, but before I could decipher her words or ask her to repeat herself, she ground into me, pushing and pulling as much as she could without tearing us apart.
Her knot grazed the sensitive, tight muscles that held her in place, and a zing of pain ran up my body each time, but it was quickly followed by ecstasy.
“Don’t stop, Suki! Never stop. Never stop…” being by my side I finished inside my head as her delicious scent surrounded me, filling every pore. I had never felt this nor anything close to this. Whatever it was, I never wanted it to end.
This was only the beginning. It had to be. I’d make sure of it. Screw my decision from before. Suki was mine, all mine.