Chapter 20 #2
I watch her catch her lower lip between her teeth. She brings her phone closer to her face and that’s when I catch her expression.
I’m close enough to see she’s not in the text application, but reading an email. And whatever she’s reading grips her enough that it’s fully ensnared her attention from what’s happening in the room.
Which is a good thing, because two couples are pile-fucking on the loungers nearest to her, and almost every other guest is in a state of near or complete nudity.
I catalogue my deeply disturbing reaction to her being in this room—hell, on this yacht—and compartmentalize it to be dealt with later.
My more immediate focus is the mixture of anger and dread on her face as she stares down at her phone.
As I watch, her expression crumples with abject terror, and she shakes her head and swallows hard.
What the fuck?
“Keely?”
I realize I didn’t speak loud enough for her to hear and wonder if that’s my subconscious handing me another chance to get the fuck out of Dodge.
I double-fuck both logic and my subconscious, pocket my phone, and take another step toward her.
And every single impulse I’ve tried to push away comes revving back. When I’m a handful of steps from her, it dawns on me that this is the second time in my life I’ve willfully abandoned self-preservation.
I will pay dearly for this course of action. And I’ll most likely take her down with me. But the twinge of guilt isn’t enough to keep me from her. Neither is that look of utter desolation on her face.
In fact, I’m sure my last steps are propelled by that look alone. I relish the chance to focus on something else. This I can control.
On Saturday night, before the nightmare that propelled me to seek out self-flagellation, I shut myself down at 60 percent.
I have a while to go before the critical mass hits.
Besides, I have a feeling she knows a little of what to expect from me.
She’s beautiful and intelligent. She’s also intuitive.
And she stood inside the door of my home cinema for six minutes and forty-four seconds.
She’s seen Toby. She’s seen me. I choose to find a little absolution in all of this.
A loud grunt from one of the foursome pulls her attention from her phone. She blinks, and although her face remains a shade paler than I prefer to see, she starts to turn her head.
I charge forward and fist my fingers through her hair before she gets the chance to satisfy her curiosity.
“You owe me a text,” I growl in her ear, even as I close my eyes and greedily inhale the silky warmth of her skin.
She gives a tiny ump and tries to suppress a shudder. “You owe me the courtesy of taking no for an answer.” Her voice holds an echo of whatever brought that look to her face.
Something lurches in my chest.
I push it away in favor of the thing that I need the most. Me, between her legs, pounding to forget. “How about an apology for the way I left things on Saturday?”
Her head swivels toward me, but I’m too busy breathing her in to look in her eyes.
After a few seconds, she clears her throat. “Go on.” Her voice quivers slightly.
“I’m sorry for leaving things the way I did. You didn’t deserve that. I apologize unreservedly,” I whisper against her ear while nuzzling her neck.
This time, her shudders reverberate through her body. “Wow. Either you really want something, or civilization has finally worn you down.” Her voice is stronger, sharper. She’s fully in control of whatever emotions waylaid her.
Enough to meet me on a level playing field.
I raise my head and stare at her, give her another glimpse of my intentions. She returns my gaze for a handful of seconds before she swallows. “No, I guess I should take back the second part?”
I glance at her dark-screened phone. “You owe me a text,” I say again.
“I would only be repeating myself.”
“Do you accept my apology?”
Her gaze shifts from mine, and I can tell she wants to hold on to her anger. Finally, she sighs. “Yes.”
“Then come to my suite and open your gift.”
“Said the spider to the fly,” she mutters under her breath. “I really don’t need a parting gift, Mason. And I’m not one of those women who craves a token of her presence in a man’s bed.”
“That wasn’t what it was. I made your gift before you agreed to fuck me. It’s specially designed for you. If you refuse it, I’ll have to destroy it.”
Her eyes rise to meet mine. “Crap, now you’ve got me all intrigued,” she says.
“Enough to leave this fuck-fest and come take a look?”
Her head starts to turn, and I tighten my fist.
“Your answer doesn’t require a visual inspection of said fuck-fest.”
“It’s past midnight. I really should get to bed.” She licks her lips and I suppress a groan.
“You should. After you make a detour via my suite.”
She glances at her phone, and her nostrils quiver slightly before she inhales. “No. I’m sorry. I can’t.”
Irrational anger rattles through me. “You can’t? Why not?”
She frowns at my sharp tone. “I don’t need to explain myself to you.”
“Does it have anything to do with that email you were reading just now?”
She tries to jerk out of my hold, but I don’t let her. “What is with you and prying?” she snarls, but the edge of her voice quivers again.
That barely detectable echo opens a fissure inside me, and emotion I recognize as concern fizzles outward. It’s unsettling enough to make me growl, “Answer me, Keely.”
“Why?”
“Because—” I stop when the woman being double penetrated on the lounger across the bar starts squealing like an overeager porn star. “Dammit, let’s get the hell out of here.”
I pull her to my side and clamp my arm around her, prepared to frog march her out of there if necessary. To her credit, she comes along willingly.
I don’t stop until we reach the elevator. The moment it shuts behind us, she glares at me. “What did you see?” she demands.
Keeping her locked to my side, I press her against the wall. “Why? What does it matter?” I toss back.
“It matters a great deal that you’re reading my personal correspondence! It’s a huge invasion of privacy.”
“Are you sure you want to talk about invasion of privacy?” I ask softly.
Her eyes widen, then cloud over as she stares up at me. “You know.”
“About you standing outside the cinema room in my house at three in the morning on Sunday? Yes, I know.”
I say nothing else, and questions fill her eyes. I have her on the back foot and I can’t help it. I press home my advantage.
“We can talk about you invading my privacy. We can talk about what I did or didn’t see on your phone. Or we can talk about you coming back to my suite to open your present. Those are your only choices, and I think you’ll choose option three. You know why?”
“Enlighten me.”
“Because I don’t think you want this thing between us to be over.
Not just yet. You enjoyed what we did too much to walk away, despite how I left things.
Your feminine pride wants to make me suffer for that.
Consider your punishment fulfilled.” I pull her hand over my rock-hard crotch so she feels her power over me.
“I’ve lived with this for four days, Keely.
I need you to take care of it. In return, I’ll give you what you need. ”
Her hand slowly closes over me, and stars explode across my vision. “And what exactly do you think I need?” she asks huskily.
“You need a man to own you. Completely. To make you forget whatever is on that email that you want to forget. And you want to forget, don’t you, baby?”
Her eyelids flutter, and she looks away from me, but her hand keeps its grip on me. “Maybe, but?—”
“Let me be that guy. I’ll do an exemplary job.”
The elevator door opens. We both ignore it as she lets out a slightly strained laugh.
“Wow. Is this where I fall at your feet like you predicted?” Her head tilts to one side.
“You probably won’t believe me, but I’m falling at your feet right now…
in my head. Now if only I could get my body to actually follow through?—”
“It’s where you stop being a smart ass for a second so we can work this out.”
Her chin lifts and Titanium Keely is back. “Work it out? Why would I want to do that? Whatever it is you think I want from a man, I’ll be a fool to consider you for the job. Even if I were under any illusions, your little note made things more than clear.”
I lean in closer until her hand is squashed between my crotch and her pelvis.
The friction is a little too much to bear.
I breathe deep and try to focus. “Shut the hell up for a minute and think about what you saw in that room, Keely. Did you really expect me to carry on blithely after that?” I ask, my voice a hard bite intended to impart that the subject is only a point-making one, and not an invitation to discuss.
Her face twists with a mixture of understanding and anger. “No, but I didn’t expect to be thrown out on my ass, either.”
I fist her hair and make sure she’s fully focused on me when I deliver the next statement.
“Stop expecting me to behave like every other guy you’ve known.
You know I’m not. Just as you’re nothing like any other woman I’ve known.
Accept me for who I’m not and for what I cannot be for you, and take what I can be. ”
“A Fuck God, come to rescue poor Keely from a path of sexless desolation?”
I trail my fingers over her racing pulse and her collarbone until I reach her erect nipple. I flick it with my nail and absorb her shudder. “A sexual dominant, who can make you forget whatever it is you’re running from. At least for a while.”
Her hand clenches around her phone, and for a moment, her face creases with utter fear and devastation. I bite my tongue to keep from demanding to know why.
“I… don’t like being dominated. If we do this, my control will be my own.”
I pull back and stare into her eyes. “Think about what happened on Saturday. And think about how much better it can be with me in charge. Are you really afraid of that much pleasure?”
I place a finger over her mouth when she starts to respond. “Before you say anything, let me make you another promise. Nothing I do will be against your will.”
She swallows and nods. “Okay. How… how long is a while?”
I run my tongue over her lower lip and wonder if she’s aware of how needy and pleading her tone turned just then.
I suppress a groan when her mouth parts for me.
“Until we reach our final destination in Greece, you’ll be mine to fuck and use how I please, completely, without exception, with your pleasure and oblivion a guarantee.
Nothing is off the table unless you use your safe word. Agreed?”