Chapter 5
NIKOLAI
Iwas in heaven. That was the only explanation for how good I felt.
I’d fumbled through hand jobs with a few guys, but I’d never felt anything like this.
I thrust into Lorenzo’s hand, desperate for even more friction, but this position, trapped against the wall, didn’t let me have it.
I could feel his hard cock pressing into my hip.
I wanted to see it, touch it, have it inside me.
“I want you to fuck me.” Oh my God, had I said that?
I gasped when Lorenzo released my cock. “No. Don’t stop.”
“Nikolai.” He took hold of my chin again and forced me to look at him.
“Y-yes?”
“Say that again.”
I didn’t think I’d have the courage, but saying it once had apparently made me lose my mind, because words I never intended to say spilled out. “I want you to fuck me. I need to have a good first time. I don’t want to get married, and I don’t want to fuck Ivanov. My father sold me to him. I never—”
Lorenzo gripped my arms, his face hard. “He did what?”
“Never mind. I shouldn’t have said anything. I—”
“Your father has no right to—”
“He owns me. He’s made that very clear. He needs money, and Ivanov agreed to pay him for me. Ivanov wants an alliance, but he demanded me too.”
Lorenzo growled. “You’re not a piece of property.”
“That’s how my father sees his children.” My sister. Me. Even the children he’d produced with his mistresses were pawns to him.
“Why did he send you away only to bring you back and—”
“He had to be sure he could keep me from meeting anyone. He wanted me desirable for men who wanted someone young and untouched. He had guards following me anytime I left the house. I’ve barely had any privacy in years.”
“That’s sick.”
I shrugged.
“Your body is yours to use however you want.”
“And I want you.”
“Nikolai…”
He wasn’t seriously having second thoughts, was he? “Please. I won’t get another chance. No one else is as brave as you.”
His eyes narrowed. “Who else is pursuing you?”
“No one. I mean, no one I like. Just men who want me for their property, but Ivanov won.”
“You should leave. You should run away.”
Like that was so easy. “I have no money, and my father will follow me. Just make tonight count, okay?”
He cupped my ass, lifting me higher and stepping away from the wall.
I clung to him as he walked to the bed. When he dropped me on the mattress, I looked up at him.
The raw desire in his eyes should have scared me, but it didn’t.
He shoved my legs up, exposing me fully, making me shiver. I’d never been this open to a man.
“You want me to fuck this tight little ass?”
He was trying to scare me, make me wish I hadn’t asked for this, but I wasn’t going to let him. If he wasn’t my first, it would be my future father-in-law, and that man was a monster.
“Y-yes.”
He smiled down at me, looking like Lucifer himself. “It won’t be easy for you, your first time.”
“I know.”
“But I will make it so fucking good. I’ll make you beg for more.” I nodded, completely under his spell, ready to let him do anything he wanted to me. Nothing would be like this for me after I was married. “Do you have lube?”
It took me a moment to process the question. “Yes.”
“Condoms?”
Fuck. I’d never been brave enough to try to buy them. “No, but I don’t care. I want you.” I was already getting better at asking for what I wanted
“Fuck, Niko. You’re going to drive me insane. You want me in you raw? You want my bare dick in your ass?”
“Yes. I want you to fuck me. Bare. Raw. Any way you can.”
Lorenzo’s eyes went wide. “Oh my fucking God.”
“Isn’t that why you came here? To my room?”
“Yes.” His smile was back, the one that said he wanted to ruin me.
“And now you know. I’m… I can’t…”
“You’re a slut for me?”
My face heated even more than it already had. I was sure my cheeks were bright red. “I guess so.”
He moved between my legs and leaned down to kiss me. “That’s a good thing, baby. I like a slutty man.”
I shivered. Had he really called me baby? If only I could… I wouldn’t think about that. I wouldn’t think about anything beyond this night.
“Where’s the lube?” Lorenzo asked.
I pointed at my nightstand, suddenly unable to speak.
“I’ll be right back.” When he moved off me to retrieve the lube, I bit my lip to keep from whimpering at the loss of his warmth. I should be embarrassed by my desperation, but he seemed to like it.
He pulled open the drawer and started laughing. Fuck. I’d forgotten my vibrator and a butt plug were in there too. “If we had more time, I’d use this on you first.” He held up the thin plug. I hadn’t been ambitious enough to get a bigger one.
“Oh my God, I didn’t mean for you to see that.”
“It’s okay, Niko. I like that you have toys. Can you take this up your ass?” He caressed the plug like he had my cock while he smiled at my discomfort.
“I… yes.”
“Good. Then it won’t be so hard for you to take me.”
Somehow, I doubted that. The plug was nowhere near as big as he was. I’d only wanted something big enough to give a little stretch. Lorenzo squirted lube on his fingers, and I held my breath as he brought them to my ass and teased my hole before pressing against the opening.
“Breathe, baby. If you relax, this will go a lot better.”
“I know, I just…”
“It’s going to be so good.”
“O-okay.” I exhaled, and he pushed a single finger into me. “Fuck, that feels so good.”
He worked the digit in and out, then added another. I bit my lip, trying not to fight the stretch. When he took my cock in his other hand, my eyes flew open, meeting his.
“You’re okay. I’m going to take care of you.”
I nodded.
“Now, fuck yourself with my hand.”
I did, thrusting my hips and working my cock into the circle of his hand. He pushed his fingers deeper into my ass, and I loved it. He finger-fucked me with deep, hard strokes, and then he curled the digits forward, and my whole body lit up.
“Holy fuck!”
“Don’t tell me none of the men you’ve been with knew how to do this.”
“I… no.”
He shook his head. “Fucking idiots.”
When he pressed against my sweet spot again, I felt like I’d been struck by lightning.
“Lorenzo.”
He looked up at me. “Yes, baby?”
“It’s almost too good.”
He grinned. “I told you it would be.” He stretched his fingers open, and I gasped. “You think you can take my cock now?”
I bit my lip as I imagined the intense stretch. “I… I don’t know.”
“I think you can. You’re such a good boy.”
“No, I don’t—”
“Yes. Look at me.”
I had to force myself to meet his gaze. All the things my father had said about me. All the things I’d been told at school raced through my mind. I wasn’t good. I was so far from it.
“You are amazing. You’re beautiful and sexy and so fucking good. I can’t wait to thrust my cock deep into you. I’ve wanted you for years.”
“No. That’s not… Why would you—”
“The first time we met, I wanted you. You were too young. I waited, and then… I tried to walk away today, but I couldn’t.”
He shook his head. “You broke into my room.”
“I did, and you barely tried to stop me because you wanted this too.”
His voice was so sure, so confident as he said those words.
He understood what I needed. He understood how to make me feel good.
I should have been terrified. Lorenzo could do anything he wanted to me.
He and my father were tentative allies at best. I had no way of knowing if he was trying to get revenge by playing with me, but I was too far gone to care at that point.
Lorenzo wouldn’t hurt me any worse than anyone else had. At least I’d get to find out what it was like to fuck a man before my body truly stopped being mine. “I’m ready. Please. I’m ready to find out.”
He pushed my legs up on my chest and gripped his cock, squirting more lube over it. As he worked it in, he pushed his fingers back inside me, stretching me open again. I couldn’t take my eyes off his cock. It was fucking huge, and it was going to hurt. “Are you sure…”
He smiled. “Very sure. It’s going to be hard to take it first, but then you’re going to love it. You’re going to beg for more. You’re going to beg for me to fuck you hard and fast.”
I hoped he was right.
“Okay, baby.” The endearment made my heart beat even harder. “Take a deep breath.”
Lorenzo positioned himself, ready to thrust into me. I drew in a long, deep breath.
“Now, exhale.” I did, and he pushed at my hole, barely going in. I whimpered, thinking I was going to be split in two. “You can do this.” He wrapped a hand around my cock, jerking me off as I tried desperately to adjust to the feel of him opening me up.
“You can take it. You can be a good boy.”
“I don’t… I’m not sure I can.” He pulled out and brushed his cock back and forth over my ass. I sucked my breath, trying to calm down, but I couldn’t. He was going to rip me apart.
His grip tightened on my cock. He worked me faster and used his other hand to toy with my nipples before sliding it up to my throat and squeezing almost hard enough to cut off my air. I looked up at him, eyes wide, desire, terror, and confusion making my breath catch.
Suddenly, he let me go. I started to protest, but he pressed his hand over my mouth and shook his head. “I heard someone.”
“Oh God. Please don’t let my father be coming to check on me.”
Lorenzo quickly fastened his pants and pulled a gun from his back pocket.
Damn, he’d planned to fuck me with a gun on him. That should terrify me, but it didn’t. The only thing I was afraid of now was the voices I heard in the hall. If we were caught, my father wouldn’t hesitate to kill Lorenzo, and he would make me wish he’d killed me too.
Footsteps grew louder, passed my door, then kept moving.
I heard two men talking, but I couldn’t understand their words.
As they moved further down the hall, I started to release the breath I was holding.
I thought Lorenzo would take the opportunity to leave, but he didn’t.
He returned to me, took my cock in his hand, and started stroking me again.
I stared at him. “What are you doing?”
“I’m not leaving you like this.”
“But you… My father…”
“Those men weren’t here for us, but someone else could come anytime, so we need to hurry.”
I wanted to protest, but I wasn’t sure what to say.
Did I want him back inside me? Did I want him to leave?
I couldn’t think because he was working my cock with one hand while the other toyed with my balls, teasing me, then circling my hole with his fingers and pushing inside.
He curled the fingers forward, hitting my sweet spot, and I thought I would explode with pleasure.
“That’s it, baby.”
“We shouldn’t. You… I don’t want you to get caught.”
“Relax. I’m taking care of you. No one’s going to hurt you while I’m with you.”
His hand felt so good. I wanted more. I wanted to know what it would be like for him to stuff his cock all the way inside me. I wanted to see him come. I wanted so much, but I was no longer sure I could survive it. I’d never felt pleasure like this.
My whole body burned. Heat raced through me like lightning, and then his hand was over my mouth again, just in time to keep me from crying out as cum shot from my cock, running over his hand and dripping onto me.
When my orgasm finally came to an end, Lorenzo gave me one final stroke, then brought his hand to his mouth and licked my cum off it. The sight made my body jerk, forcing one more spasm through me, but there was nothing left. He’d drained me.
He smiled at me and held his hand to my mouth. “Taste.”
I swiped my tongue across his hand, then pulled his thumb into my mouth and sucked. It was so fucking erotic. I didn’t want him to leave, but I knew that he would.
I also knew he wouldn’t be back. He’d gotten what he wanted. He’d proven that he could seduce me. He’d had his fun. Now he’d go back to negotiate with my father and the other men downstairs, and I would be one more man in a line of so many he’d played with.
I wasn’t going to be sad. I had wanted this. I’d begged for it. Now wasn’t the time for regrets.
When he pulled his thumb from my mouth, he grabbed his shirt and jacket off the floor and quickly dressed. I lay on the bed, legs splayed open, robe crumpled against the sheets. I couldn’t move or speak. I was afraid that if I opened my mouth, I would ask him to stay.
“Take care of yourself,” he said.
I nodded as he turned away. He paused by the door, listening carefully before opening it and stepping out into the hall. I listened as his footsteps retreated, and then the tears came.