Chapter 19 Lorenzo
LORENZO
I’d never had to fight so hard to hold back my climax. Niko’s ass clamped me like a vise. I was so ready to let go and put my seed inside him.
I worked his cock harder, and he writhed against me, whimpering, whining, mindlessly begging.
It was a beautiful sight, Niko spread out under me, one arm tucked into the makeshift sling and the other arm above his head.
He held it there just because I told him to.
He didn’t need ropes. He didn’t need chains.
He didn’t need anything but his desire to submit to me.
He was mine. All mine. I fisted his cock hard enough to hurt, dragging my hand along it. He threw his head back and came, shooting between us, covering his chest in cum.
He was absolutely glorious. “You’re so fucking beautiful.” I thrust deep once more and then let go. My cum pulsed into him again and again inside him. His ass kept growing slicker as I pumped out my load, marking him as mine.
When I was finally done, I pulled out and looked down at him, pushing his legs up onto his chest so I could see my seed dripping from his ass.
“Mine,” I growled.
He nodded.
“You are fucking made for me.” He opened his eyes and looked up at me. They were wide and so uncertain.
My intensity had scared him, but I bet he’d never come like that in his life. Not even when I’d sucked him off. “Niko, are you okay?”
His eyes fluttered open. “I think so, but I feel like you shattered my world, and then somehow, you put it back together.”
My breath caught. He’d done the same thing to me.
I’d sworn after I’d shattered my world and my family’s that I would never let that happen again.
But that destruction was based on lies and betrayal, and I didn’t think I’d ever pull the pieces of myself back together.
My brothers swore I wasn’t to blame. Should I believe them?
I knew I was a better judge of character now.
I was sure Nikolai was as honest as he seemed.
But no matter how honest he was, my feelings for him were dangerous.
I truly didn’t think Dimitri would make another attempt.
He was wounded, and he knew we would add to our number of guards, but I couldn’t afford to be this out of it when we were under threat.
I hadn’t intended to get so consumed. I hadn’t thought I could.
I’d had damn good sex, but it had never taken me out of myself before, made me forget everything around me.
I should clean us up and then go sit on the balcony and keep watch.
I could let the hot, humid air make me sweat out whatever was making me crazy enough to start thinking I could keep Nikolai.
But I wasn’t going to do that. If Nikolai wanted me in bed with him, that was where I would be.
I couldn’t resist him, couldn’t say no to him. I wasn’t even going to try.
“Lorenzo?”
“Yes, baby.”
“This is real, right?”
What exactly did he mean? Us? This room? This night? The chemistry between us or the scarier feeling that I didn’t dare name? “I think so.”
He let out a long sigh and smiled. “I dreamed about you.”
“While you were locked in your room?”
He shook his head and tried to look away, but I grabbed his chin and turned him back to face me. “When do you mean?”
“After the first time I saw you, when I was eighteen. I’ve fantasized about you for years.”
His words hit me like a punch to the gut. “You…” Fuck. Now I was the one who was speechless. He’d been thinking about me for all those years when I’d been keeping tabs on him, never forgetting the way my body had lit up when he’d shaken my hand and met my gaze.
“You had to have known how I felt when we met. I was kind of obvious.”
I smiled. He had been. “I wanted to take you with me and see if I could destroy your innocence.”
“I wish you had.”
Thank God I’d still gotten that chance. “I would have saved you then if I’d realized how bad things were. You never should have had a father like Dimitri or had to be part of a family like mine.”
He shook his head. “Your family isn’t—”
“We’re criminals, Nikolai.”
“You haven’t hurt me.”
“I will eventually, or someone will because of the business I’m involved in.”
He shook his head. “It’s not the same. My father hurt me on purpose.”
I would never try to hurt him. I’d promise to protect him, to keep him safe, and he needed me now, but if he stayed with me after I’d taken care of his father and Ivanov, he would never truly be safe. To have the life he deserved, he would have to go far away from my family and his.
Any idea of following Remington’s command and keeping my hands off Niko was long gone, but I had to remember that he was only mine for right now.
The primitive part of me protested that I had to keep him. Even though I’d just come hard enough to see stars, I still wanted him. I wanted to see if I could make him come again just so I could watch. I wanted to cover him in my cum so he would smell and taste like me.
But I would listen to those urges. I couldn’t put him at risk like that.
Unless we soundly defeated the Ivanovs, as well as Dimitri and those loyal to him, his presence would put my brothers at risk too.
It didn’t matter how old they were or how capable they were of defending themselves.
I’d sworn to never put anything ahead of their safety.
“Lorenzo?” Niko’s voice pulled me from my thoughts. “Are you okay?”
No, I was definitely not okay, but I was going to get myself together. “Yes, baby, I’m fine. You just wore me out.”
He smiled. “There’s no way. I’m sure you’re used to men that are much better than me.”
“No, I’m definitely not. I don’t know what kind of assholes you’ve made out with, but they are stupid as fuck if they didn’t think being with you was a gift. None of them deserved to touch you. They weren’t even close to good enough for you. I’ve never been with anyone hotter than you.”
“Lorenzo, you don’t have to say those things. I’m going to be here. I’m going to do whatever you want. I know how much I owe you.”
I wanted to end this game now so I could stop pretending my taking his ass had anything to do with him owing me, but I also didn’t want to take any risk that he’d stop being so open and needy, so willing to strip himself down to nothing in every possible way for me.
“Baby, I’m not flattering you. I’m just telling you the truth.”
“So you think other men would want me?”
A growl rose from deep inside me. “Yes, but they can’t have you.”
His eyes widened. “You’re scary when you use that voice.”
“Do you like it when I scare you?” He nodded, and I smiled. “Don’t let any other man do that. You’re safe with me, not with anyone else.”
Niko grinned. “Not with your brothers or—”
I knew he was teasing me, but anger still burned in my chest. “If my brothers so much as look at you like that, they will pay.”
“You’re being ridiculous. Your brothers aren’t going to want me.”
Rafe would fuck just about anyone, and he’d already mentioned how hot Nikolai was. Not that I actually thought he or Dante would ever try to take a man from me, but I had no doubt they both knew how lucky I was.”
“You need to get some sleep,” I said.
“Are you going to stay here?”
“Yes, I’m going to stay here. You’re paying for my protection, aren’t you?”
He narrowed his eyes. “Here in bed with me? I think I’d sleep better if you’re next to me. If you don’t want me here, in your own room, we could go somewhere else.”
“Niko, this is exactly where I want you. You’re not to leave this room unless you’re with me.”
“Am I a prisoner?”
I frowned. “Not exactly.”
“But I’m not allowed out of this room?”
“It’s for your own safety.”
“Your family is at war with mine. I get it.”
I shook my head. “Not exactly. Not yet.” Though if Remington wanted to negotiate with Dimitri after last night, I was going to tell him to go to hell.
“That’s enough talking. You really need to sleep so you can heal. Let me clean you up.”
He frowned. “You don’t have to do that. I can—”
“Are you really going to be able to walk to the bathroom right now?”
He chewed his lips for a moment, then shook his head
“That’s what I thought. Let me take care of you.”
“But that’s all you’ve been doing since I got here.”
“No, I’ve been fucking you, using you, taking you harder than I should have.”
His lips turned up in a dreamy smile. “That felt like caring for me too.”
“And I thought you were paying what you owed.”
“I was. I am, and I’ll keep paying. You didn’t say I couldn’t enjoy it.”
Just when I started to think I was a monster for taking advantage of him, he showed that more spirited side of himself, and it made me like him even more. “Stay right there.”
“I just said I couldn’t walk yet. Where am I going to go?”
I brought a warm, wet washcloth and cleaned him up. He flinched when I patted the cloth over his well-used hole.
“Sore?”
“Yes, but I don’t mind. I… don’t regret it.”
“Good. Let’s get you tucked in bed.”
He frowned as he looked down at the clothes I’d discarded. “I don’t have anything to wear except the clothes I wore here.”
“You don’t need to wear anything in bed with me.”
“But what if something happens and someone needs to come in, like your brothers or—”
“Good point.” I didn’t have anything that would fit him well, but one of my T-shirts would be large enough to easily fit over his cast and come down nearly to his knees.
I liked the idea of him wearing something that was mine.
My cock reacted to the mental image of him in my T-shirt and nothing else. “I’ll find something.”
At the bottom of my shirt drawer, I found a T-shirt that was large even on me.
Niko sat up, and I untied the sling I’d made and slipped the shirt over his head. “Your cast should fit through the sleeve, but let me help you.”
“You don’t have to dress me.”
“Shh.” I placed my finger over his lips. “Just let me take care of you.”
I got him into the T-shirt, helped him turn on his side, and put a pillow under his broken arm to support it.
He was mostly asleep by the time I spooned myself around him, but I lay awake for a long time, trying to figure out if there was any way to adjust my life so I could have Niko and keep my family safe.