Chapter 21 Nikolai
NIKOLAI
Itried to relax and focus on the feel of Lorenzo’s strong body against mine, but I couldn’t settle. “I’m scared to sleep. I’m afraid I’ll have more dreams.”
Lorenzo pressed his lips to the back of my neck. “I have an idea how to help you forget your dream.”
“You do?”
“Roll over onto your back.”
As I did so, he slid under the covers and settled between my legs. My pulse sped up. “What are you doing?”
He gripped my thighs and pushed them apart. “What do you think?”
There was no way he was—I gasped as he ran his tongue up the length of my cock. I felt his laugh against my skin. “It’s your turn.”
Before my mind could process what he’d said, he swallowed my cock almost to the root.
“Lorenzo!” It was too much, too hot, too wet. I was going to fucking die. He smiled around my cock as he pulled back, nearly letting it slip from his mouth. “No. Please.”
I needed more. I needed to come. I tried to thrust up into his mouth, but he held my hips down. “You like that?”
“You… It’s…”
“I’ll take that as a yes.” He took me to the back of his throat again and worked his mouth along my shaft.
It was pure heaven. I’d never felt anything that good.
I slid my good hand into his hair, holding him against me, and he hummed around my cock.
Electricity shot through me. I was going to come way too soon.
I fought to push back that urgency. I wanted to make this last, even if it killed me.
He gripped the base of my cock as he teased my head with his tongue.
“More,” I begged.
He ignored my plea and kept teasing me. He toyed with my balls, rolling them in his hand, then squeezing just enough to make me suck in my breath, afraid of the pain he could inflict.
I fought his hold on my hips, desperate to feel his throat surrounding my cock again. When he raked his teeth along my shaft, I hissed, then yelled, “Lorenzo!”
I’d had enough. I reached for the other side of his head with my cast arm, but he let my cock go and met my gaze.
“Put your arm back on the pillow, or you don’t get to come.”
I whimpered, the sound so embarrassingly needy I wanted to hide from him, but I knew he wouldn’t let me.
“Baby, I want to suck you off, but I won’t let you risk hurting yourself.”
I stared at him, dazed by his commanding voice, his position between my legs, and the fact that he wanted this: my cock in his mouth.
“Niko?” He lifted my arm for me, placing it back where he wanted it. “You with me?”
“Fuck yes.”
“Good.” He took my cock in his mouth again and eased his grip on my hips. I thrust up into him, unable to control myself. Was I hurting him? He’d pull back if I were, wouldn’t he? I was too far gone. “I… I can’t stop. I’m going to come.”
He slid his hands under me, gripped my ass, and took me all the way down. I cried out as lightning seemed to strike me, and I came, thrusting into his mouth over and over. He swallowed my whole load effortlessly.
When I was finally done, Lorenzo pulled off and looked up at me as he gasped for breath. The world seemed hazy and unreal, but I could see that his lips were swollen and shiny with my cum.
“Kiss me.” I wasn’t sure I’d actually said the words out loud until he crawled up my body, gripped my face, and lowered himself until our lips were almost touching. “You taste incredible. I could do that again and again.”
“I… That was… I didn’t think you would want to. I mean, I thought… You’re so controlling, and—”
“I am. I like to hold men down while I suck their cocks. I like to drive them crazy and refuse to stop.”
He kissed me then, and I tasted my cum on his lips, in his mouth. I whimpered against him, needing more, needing to feel him surround me.
If I hadn’t been utterly drained, I would have gotten hard again as he kissed me. I hoped to hell this wasn’t another dream, but if it was, I never wanted to wake up.
I woke with a gasp from a dream where Lorenzo was taking me back to my father. I kept asking him why, and he wouldn’t tell me.
My mouth was so dry I couldn’t swallow easily, and my head was pounding.
I managed to croak out Lorenzo’s name.
“Niko? Are you all right?”
I jumped. That wasn’t Lorenzo’s voice. Then I remembered he’d said his brother might be here. “Dante?”
“Yes, it’s me.” He walked toward the bed, and I was able to see him better as my eyes adjusted to the dim light coming in the sliding door. It must be an hour or so before sunrise.
“Do you need something?” Dante asked.
“Water and ibuprofen.” My voice was rough and scratchy, but he seemed to understand.
“Just a second.”
After a few moments in the bathroom, he returned and handed me a few pills and a glass of water.
I took a few sips, swallowed the pills, and then drank some more.
“Bad dream?”
I nodded.
“Do you want to talk about it?”
I shuddered. “No. Thank you.” The last thing I wanted to do was talk about my dream. Hopefully, I’d be able to sleep without anything else horrible coming into my mind.
“You’re welcome.” Dante headed back to his post by the sliding door.
The panic I’d felt in the dream had sent adrenaline racing through my body, and just like after my other nightmare, I couldn’t settle. I rolled to my back and then over to my side again, unable to get comfortable with the stupid cast. Eventually, Dante came back to my bedside.
“You don’t seem to be sleeping.”
I sighed. “No, I’m really tired, but I can’t stop thinking about the dream, and when I close my eyes, I see things I don’t want to see.”
Dante nodded. “I know how that goes. I’ve never been in a situation exactly like yours, but I’ve had my own traumas and plenty of sleepless nights. If there’s anything you want to talk about, I’m here.”
I still didn’t want to talk about the dream or my father, but maybe a conversation with Dante would help me calm down. “Lorenzo said you’re a professor?”
“That’s right. Crime is just my side gig.”
I laughed. “What is your specialty?”
“Genetics.”
“Oh, that’s so cool. I started college, but after a semester, my father wouldn’t let me go anymore. I continued online, but it wasn’t the same.”
“No, the experience of being there in person is an important part of it. But there’s still time for you to go. What were you studying?”
“Business. It was the only major my father would let me choose.”
“And if he hadn’t had a say?”
“Literature, maybe. I’m not sure though. I would have liked to have taken some different classes and learned more about what I like. I didn’t have any choices growing up in my father’s home.”
Dante nodded.
“Did Lorenzo go to school?”
“He did. My father insisted we all go to college for the experience. Renzo also majored in business, but that was his choice. He was already working for the Theriots. They trusted him, so he could have majored in anything, but he wanted to learn more about the job he knew he was destined to do.”
“You didn’t have the same destiny?”
“Oh, I did. A family like ours isn’t something you fully escape, but I’ve made a life for myself separate from that world.”
He told me a little more about his classes and what he enjoyed most about his research. He was explaining the research he’d written his dissertation on when I began to drift off.
He stood, and I blinked, forcing my eyes open. “I’m sorry.”
“Don’t apologize. There’s nothing like cell biology to put someone to sleep.”
“No, it’s really interesting.” I meant that. Under other circumstances, I’d love to hear more about his research.
“Get some sleep, Nikolai.”
“One more question.”
“Yes?”
“Is Lorenzo… You trust him with your life?”
“Yes. He may not be a good person by society’s standards, but you can absolutely trust him. He will keep his word.”
“So when he said I wouldn’t have to go back to my father—”
“Even if he didn’t hold to that, I would. None of us will allow you to be abused again. You should never have been stuck with that man, and you never will be again.”
“Wow. Okay.”
“Lorenzo… he…”
“He said he wasn’t a good man, that he’d eventually hurt me.”
“He might, but it would be because he was trying too hard to keep you safe. He takes on too much responsibility, and sometimes that means he doesn’t listen when someone insists they want to take risks. Staying here is a risk. It’s not like Lorenzo has a simple office job.”
“I know, but… I like him a lot.”
“He likes you too. I’ve never seen him act like this with a man. Don’t worry. You truly are safe with him.”
“Thanks.” I closed my eyes, and this time, sleep came easily.