Chapter 30
ALEX
Walking out of Dante’s house was one of the hardest things I’d ever done.
I didn’t go to the frat. I couldn’t stand the thought of talking to anyone. I didn’t get any breakfast, because I didn’t feel like I could get food past the lump in my throat. Part of me liked that it would make Dante angry if he knew I wasn’t eating. I wanted to punish him for sending me away.
I didn’t go to class either. I wandered around campus until I was tired of walking, then slipped into the library, knowing it was unlikely I’d seen any other Chi Rho there.
I found an empty cubicle, sat down, and laid my head on my hands. No matter how hard I tried to shut them out, all Dante’s words from the morning kept running through my head.
I had to fist my hands and let my nails cut into my palms, trying to keep myself from crying. How many times was I going to humiliate myself today?
I must’ve fallen asleep because a librarian checked on me at some point. She probably thought I was passed out drunk or something. I assured her I was okay, even though I felt like my insides were being torn apart.
I was going to have to get myself together. I couldn’t keep skipping classes. I had to be a functioning adult, but I didn’t want to. I missed Dante already, but I was going to have to figure out how to live without him, at least for a while.
What if it was longer? What if it was forever?
He might decide he didn’t want to see me again, or he might go after whoever this man was and get shot again, through the heart this time.
I laid my head back down. I wasn’t ready to try and function yet.