Chapter Thirty-Five
Exhaustion weighed down on her with every step she took. Why hadn”t she gone the other way? Why had she decided to go into the forest?
She’d honestly thought it wasn”t a big forest and the highway was on the other side. She was very mistaken. Bonnie was completely lost and she had no clue where she came from. Was Rogan’s guest house to her right, left, or behind her?
Here Bonnie was yet again being dumb. She didn”t know how long she’d been walking but she did know it felt like eternity. When she left, she hadn’t even thought about shoes—something she would like to have right now.
There were pebbles and thorns on the forest ground. Branches hit her in the face and tree trunks tripped her. Bonnie”s whole body was aching with every fall and hit she took. The cold was making her go numb.
Why hadn”t she checked the weather before she left?
Bonnie hadn’t been in her right mind. She honestly should have left in the morning when she could see and make a better getaway. But Bonnie hadn”t wanted to leave then. What if Daddy—she sighed—Rogan came back and decided he was going to lock her up in the basement again?
She wasn’t going to let that happen. There was no way she was going back down there to get tortured. She needed to protect herself, and even though her leaving close to night was foolish, she’d to do it. It was her best option.
Bonnie wished she’d taken more time to look around and figure out which way she needed to go or come up with a game plan. She seemed to go into things without thinking them through very well and it wasn”t wise of her at all.
Tears of frustration filled her eyes as she pulled her bag over her shoulder. Right now she needed her pacifier so she could calm herself down and start to think rationally. But as Bonnie searched through her bag, she couldn”t find it.
Where could it be? Why wasn”t it in her bag? She’d specifically placed it on top of Mosey in her bag so when she needed it, it was easy to grab.
Shit.
Her eyes went wide. That could have been the plop she heard when she was leaving. Her pacifier could still be in the house. Tears ran down her face. It was her favorite pacifier and now she would never have it again.
Bonnie closed her eyes and took several deep breaths. She had to continue to move or else she was going to break down and die in the forest. Okay, the dying part was probably a stretch but it was what it felt like to her. She was lost and didn”t have a phone to contact anyone. She didn”t want to take the phone and have Da—Rogan contact her.
She sighed. She really needed to stop calling Rogan Daddy. He wasn”t her Daddy anymore. He didn”t want her and she had to accept his decision. No matter how much it hurt and no matter how much she didn”t want it to be true.
She could die here in the forest, and no one would care. Well, Mosey would care, but then he would die along with her. No one was looking for her. Rogan was probably grinning and telling people to leave her in the forest to die. He absolutely didn”t want anything to do with her. She still couldn’t believe it, but all the evidence was there.
He told her not to contact him anymore and he left the house without saying anything. All signs he didn”t want her anymore.
Bonnie didn”t want to die in the forest alone. She wanted to travel and live her life but right now it wasn”t looking too good for her.
She was definitely going to die out here. Some wild animal was going to kill her and eat her remains. Or Rogan was going to send someone to come after her.
She wanted to believe he wouldn”t do that. She wanted to believe right now he was looking for her and was worried she could get cold.
So badly she wanted Rogan, Raynar, and her to work out. She really did. Neither had responded to any of the texts she’d sent though, which only showed they didn”t want her. Rogan had told her he didn”t want her to text him anymore. Raynar hadn”t said anything.
Tears ran down her face as she thought about both of them. She’d been so happy the last couple of days with them. Well as happy as she could be knowing her brother was going to call at any second. She should have told Rogan and Raynar about it right away but she wanted, needed, to talk to her brother first.
“Why?” she yelled as she sobbed.
Why did this have to happen to her? Why couldn”t her life have been normal?
Bonnie should have never gotten into his car. Then she wouldn”t be so heartbroken about leaving Rogan and Raynar.
“Why did I have to be so stupid?” she whispered to herself as she continued to walk.
She couldn”t see anything on the ground. Was there a root right in front of her? She didn”t know. Was there a wild animal closing in on her? She absolutely didn”t know and hoped there wasn”t. But at the same time maybe they could take her out of her own misery.
“Why did I have to fall in love with two men?” She sobbed. “Why me?”
Bonnie”s toes got caught on something and she went flying to the ground. She screamed in pain as her toes were on fire but also from the searing hot pain running down her leg. Shit. That hurt so bad.
Tears streamed down her face as she laid on the ground. Normally, she would be pushing herself off, trying to get away from all the insects but she didn”t have the strength.
She didn”t have the strength for anything.
Bonnie had made so many mistakes in less than a month. Too many to count and now she was paying for it. Was this the price she was paying? If she could do it all over again, she would go ahead with the arranged marriage. It was better than laying on the cold ground at night, hurt and covered in bugs, shivering with each passing second.
“Please,” she begged.
She knew no one was out there. She knew these were her last minutes to live. Bonnie felt her eyes starting to get heavier with each passing second. She took a deep breath in, relishing the cold air for one last time. Her body was starting to go numb. From the cold or from her dying, she didn”t know and she didn”t really care.
All she wanted was love and a Daddy, she thought as her eyes closed.