Chapter 20 #6
“I am not certain, but I will not take the risk of finding out. I cannot possibly allow this situation to burden Elizabeth any longer. Besides, I am truly worried about Miss Lydia; we must ensure that he fetches her. I fear she might be in danger.”
“What do you mean? He said she is with one of his friends.”
“Wickham has no friends whom he might trust except those who truly worry me. We must solve this as soon as possible. In truth, I consider the best solution for Miss Lydia would be to marry him and then become a widow,” Darcy said, and both gentlemen looked at him in shock.
He smiled bitterly. “I am only speaking in jest.”
“Well, the idea is not entirely uninteresting,” the colonel said seriously.
“Mr Darcy, you said Lydia might be in danger. Would it not be too late to wait until morning? Could we not try to find her now? The night is still early and—”
“Mr Bennet, forgive me for worrying you more than is necessary. There is nothing we can do for now. Please trust me. We should all go home and rest; hopefully we will have everything settled by tomorrow evening.”
“Very well. Please leave me in Gracechurch Street, sir. There are many things I need to discuss with my sister Gardiner. I will stay at her house for the night.”
A few minutes later, Mr Bennet entered the Gardiners’ house, worried, thoughtful, his shoulders down, and burdened by distress. Darcy looked after him helplessly.
The next stop was Lord Matlock’s house, and the two cousins separated, planning to meet again first thing in the morning.
Darcy’s carriage departed at a steady pace while the colonel entered the house and did not stop until the library. He hastily poured himself a glass of brandy, emptied it with one gulp and then filled it again.
“Well, you seem to be quite thirsty. An interesting evening, I presume?” The colonel startled and almost dropped the glass as he saw the earl watching him with a smile.
“Father…why are you not sleeping at such a late hour?”
“I might ask you the same question, son,” the earl replied, well humoured.
“Forgive me—I shall go to my room. I am not inclined to speak at the moment.”
“What happened, son? You seem upset. Is something wrong? I understand Darcy’s man was here earlier. What is the matter?”
The colonel glanced at his father then averted his eyes and poured himself another glass of brandy. The earl took the bottle, but the colonel found another one.
“Robert, for heaven’s sake, what is wrong?”
“Do you wish to know what is wrong, Father? Do you truly want to know? Your all-time favourite is wrong—as he always has been. It is nothing more than further proof of Wickham’s unworthiness and his true character.
Now that you know, I imagine you are not interested in the details.
Even if I should bother to tell you, you would surely find an excuse for his behaviour.
I shall go to bed now; I must meet Darcy and Mr Bennet early in the morning. You should go too, Father.”
“Robert, please, let us talk! What has Mr Bennet to do with this? Robert!”
“Good night, Lord Matlock.”
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When Darcy arrived home, it was so late that he was certain Elizabeth and Georgiana were long asleep.
He briefly stopped at Elizabeth’s door and hesitantly opened it; there was no one inside, and the bed was untouched.
He knocked at his sister’s door, and her voice invited him in immediately.
As he expected, Elizabeth was there too, both of them in nightgowns, talking.
He held their worried, inquiring gazes for a moment then allowed a smile to spread on his face.
“Why are you ladies awake at this hour?”
“Oh, Brother, we were so worried that we could not possibly sleep. What news do you have?”
“Come, let us sit,” he said gently. “I have as good news as can be expected for the moment. We spoke to Wickham and discussed a few things; we will meet again tomorrow, and hopefully we will settle everything as favourably as possible.”
“Oh, did you hear, Elizabeth? Everything will be fine as we hoped,” she said with excitement while Elizabeth remained silent and still.
“Now let us go to sleep; we will all meet at breakfast in the morning. Elizabeth, allow me to show you to your room. Good night, my dear,” he said as he gently kissed his sister’s forehead.
Georgiana embraced her brother, then Elizabeth, and looked after them as they left the room together.
A smile lit her face as she finally felt she could breathe.
In front of her door, Elizabeth stopped and glanced at him, pleading weakly. “Can we speak for a moment, please? I am begging you… I know you are tired but—”
He leaned and whispered to her ear, his lips touching her skin. “It never crossed my mind to go to sleep without speaking to you. I just need to go and clean myself a little; then I will come to you shortly. Are you hungry? Do you need anything?”
“I need nothing but you,” she whispered then blushed violently at the meaning of her own words. He kissed her hands and opened the door for her; she entered, and he held her arm and forced her to stop for another moment, enough for his lips to meet hers briefly.
Inside her room, Elizabeth felt her entire body quivering and wrapped her hands around herself.
Unexpectedly, her heart was filled with warm joy, which burst from inside her chest and spread along her body.
His gentle touch, his deep voice, the scent of his lips on hers and his promise of coming to her room soon turned her despair into hope and her pain into joy.
The sharp claw was still clutching her as she had little optimism about Lydia, but she felt there was hope; he was her hope.
She looked around and climbed into bed, covering herself with the sheets.
After the fatigue, lack of sleep, and distress that almost defeated her, she allowed herself to be spoiled by the soft fabric and closed her eyes.
She did not hear the door open, but she could feel his presence in the room long before she opened her eyes.
Darcy wore nothing but his trousers and a white shirt, unbuttoned at the neck, and his hair—a little wet—curled around his temples. His smile warmed her heart while a trace of coldness made her shiver. She smiled back.
“May I sit near you?” he asked, and she nodded, her cheeks burning.
He leaned back in the bed next to her, both resting against the pillows. His right arm encircled her shoulders, and he gently pulled her to his chest. His fingers found their way into her loose, silky hair while his other hand entwined with hers.
“I missed you so much,” he said, and she sighed, brushing her cheek to his chest, only the thin fabric between them. He continued to play with the rebel locks, his fingers briefly touching the bare skin of her neck.
“Pray tell me, how was the meeting? How is Lydia? And my father? Did you speak to my aunt? What did Papa say? And how dared Mr Wickham face you all?”
“We spoke to Mrs Gardiner earlier and Mr Bennet returned to spend the night at her house. I am sure he will give her all the details. Mr Bennet is as well as can be expected. I hope he will regain his usual spirits when this affair is ended. As for Wickham—we met him as we expected, but Miss Lydia was not there. He said she is in the house of one of his friends. I hope to see her tomorrow.”
“Do you think she is well? Could you not see her tonight? What if he has harmed her?”
“I am certain she is well; he has no reason to hurt her. I strongly believe that he wishes to marry her; it was his plan from the beginning.”
“Because of you… He wished to marry Lydia because he knows you will marry me.”
“Probably,” he replied hesitantly.
Suddenly, she raised her head to meet his eyes and spoke with a trembling voice.
“What shall we do now? I cannot force you to become Wickham’s brother—not for the world. I am appalled only thinking of it; I cannot imagine what you must feel…”
“Elizabeth, what do you mean? Please tell me you do not imply what I think you do…”
“I do not want you to be forced into this marriage; I do not want to expose you to the shame of being related to such a man. I do not want—”
“Elizabeth, is this what you meant earlier, just before I left? When you asked me what we will do next, you wished to know whether I intended to annul our wedding?”
“Yes…I know you would never refuse to comply with your duty, but I wish you to know I would understand if you— Oh, I see you are upset now, are you not?”
“I am still considering whether I should laugh or be truly upset, Elizabeth. And I wonder how well you know me and how well you trust in my love if you could even consider such a possibility. Am I to understand that, if some unfortunate event should befall my family, you would break our engagement?” he said in earnest.
“How can you say such a thing, sir? You know that is not true!”
“How can I know that? And how can I trust your commitment when you doubt mine so easily? Am I so unworthy of your confidence?”
“Please do not be angry with me,” she said gently. Her eyes, moist with tears, locked with his, and she stretched to reach his face. Her fingers gently brushed along his jaw then daringly caressed his hair. Her face was close to his.
“I confess I was afraid you might wish to end our engagement; my judgement knew I should trust you, and my mind told me I had nothing to fear, but my heart rarely listens to my mind. I do trust you—I learned to trust you a long time ago—but I still cannot believe that such extraordinary happiness can last. I am afraid that something might happen to break my heart into pieces. And now, you may decide whether you would rather laugh or be upset, sir. I am entirely at your mercy, Mr Darcy.”