Chapter Twelve
“What do you mean, you can’t stay for tea?”
Isabella stood in the entrance hall, hands propped on her hips, and fairly shouted the words at Damien as he began the long climb up the staircase.
He paused suddenly in midstride and looked down on her, an expression of true exasperation marring his handsome features.
“I do believe my statement is very plain, Isabella.” There was an audible note of anger in the tone of his voice, but Isabella unwisely decided to ignore it. Lifting her skirts in an undignified manner, she raced up the stairs after the earl, stopping one rung below him.
“Catherine and Ian are at this very moment waiting for you to join them in the drawing room,” Isabella said in a brittle voice. “You cannot possible disappoint them.”
“I have no choice,” he said with a grim twist of his mouth.
Taking full advantage of his superior height, Damien deliberately loomed over her.
His steely gray eyes were glinting strangely.
“Send my regrets to the children and inform them I shall attempt to speak with them before they go to bed this evening.” Casting Isabella a final dismissive glare, the earl turned away.
She stared at the broad expanse of his retreating shoulders for several moments.
Stamping her foot in frustration, Isabella cursed loudly.
How dare he act this way? The children had been looking forward to this all week.
Damien had already canceled an outing two days ago.
Now he was intending to do so again. Isabella decided she could not simply let it pass.
Cloaked in righteous indignation, she chased after the earl, her temper rising with each step. She reached him just as he entered his bedchamber.
“You have made a promise to your children, sir,” she said bluntly. “And I have every intention of making certain you keep your—Good lord, whatever are you doing?”
Amusement momentarily replaced the anger in the earl’s eyes. “I am changing my shirt,” Damien retorted, shrugging out of the unbuttoned garment and deliberately flinging it toward the corner of the room. “It is wet and ripped.”
“Oh.” Isabella sputtered with embarrassment, suddenly realizing she had unwittingly invaded the earl’s private chamber.
She deliberately averted her eyes, but the glorious sight of Damien’s naked chest still burned in her memory.
Her cheeks blushed pink and her breast rose and fell with her rapid breathing, yet Isabella stood her ground.
She instinctively knew Damien expected her to turn and flee in maidenly horror, but she refused to cower.
“We were discussing Catherine and Ian, my lord,” Isabella said irritably, trying to regain her equilibrium.
Damien made a small gesture of disgust. “No, I believe it is fair to say you were lecturing me about Ian and Catherine,” Damien insisted, donning a clean shirt.
Harried and distracted, the earl made a valiant attempt to marshal his emotions.
He was cold, he was wet, he was tired. He was definitely not up to arguing with Isabella.
Summoning up every ounce of self control he possessed, Damien faced his adversary.
“There is a break in the north fence, and several hundred sheep have wandered on to Lord Gilmore’s property. I am needed there.”
“Can’t it wait? Just for an hour? Catherine and Ian will be crushed if you break your promise. Again.” A lock of chestnut hair escaped the confines of Isabella’s neatly plaited hair, and she impatiently pushed it back. “Surely you can spare a scant hour for your son and daughter?”
Damien’s jaw tightened. “I don’t have an hour to spare. If you would care to look outside, you will see the storm clouds threatening even as we speak.”
Isabella gave a cursory glance out the window. “If it is going to storm, then it makes no sense for you to leave in the first place.” She took a small step toward him. “Please, Damien, don’t dismiss your children so lightly.”
“I have already explained why I must leave,” Damien growled, his patience giving way.
“In my opinion, you are making far too much over my missing one afternoon tea.” He gave her a scathing look.
“And I, for one, would greatly appreciate it if you would stop acting so damned melodramatically. It ill becomes you.”
Isabella shot him a furious glance. “You made a promise to your children, sir. And I fully intend to see that you keep it,” she reiterated fiercely.
“Is that so?” Damien rounded on her. “I have also made a promise to take care of them. Will you kindly explain to me how well off they shall be without a roof over their heads?”
“What utter nonsense,” she returned nastily. “Now who is acting melodramatically.” Isabella narrowed her violet eyes. “I hardly think the welfare of the entire estate rests on a few sheep. You are merely using that as a convenient excuse for neglecting your parental obligations.”
The earl stilled instantly. The cords on his neck stood out, and a pulse was beating visibly at his temple. Isabella knew she had pushed him too far. With perceivable effort the earl maintained his control. Across the room, their eyes met.
“Well, you are correct about one thing, Isabella,” the earl finally stated coldly. “You hardly think.” He lurched past her and Isabella watched him in silence, lacking the courage to utter another syllable.
The palpable tension remained in the room after Damien’s departure. Isabella regretted allowing her overset emotions to rule her tongue, but her first obligation must always be toward the children. Who else would look to their welfare, if not she?
A deep, familiar coldness came over Isabella as painful memories of rejection from her own unhappy childhood surfaced and mingled with her concern for Catherine and Ian.
She knew they would be very hurt when they found out their father would not be joining them this afternoon.
How could a child be expected to understand that other things came first, before them?
Especially from a father they clearly worshiped and saw far too little of to begin with.
Smoothing back the imaginary wrinkles in her dove gray gown, Isabella turned to begin the long walk to the drawing room where Catherine and Ian were eagerly awaiting their father’s arrival.
She paused a moment outside the closed door, intertwining her fingers and twisting them until they ached.
Summoning up her inner strength, she masked her face in an unreadable expression and opened the door.
Two little heads turned in eager expectation toward the door.
Catherine and Ian were seated side by side on the brocade love seat, their hands folded neatly in their laps.
The tarnished silver tea service sat on the high butler’s table in front of them, along with four carefully placed china teacups.
Isabella’s heart constricted as she took in the scene, knowing her announcement of the earl’s departure would soon extinguish the eager light in the children’s eyes.
Reasoning that it was useless to postpone the inevitable, Isabella began quietly, “Children, I am afraid your father won’t be able to join us this afternoon. Apparently, there is a problem with the fences in the north pasture ...”
The first fat raindrops hit Damien long before he reached his destination. He cursed long and loud as the cold water sprayed his face. Serves me right, he thought glumly. I should have stayed at home with my children and the wandering sheep be damned.
He rode in restless, brooding silence for the next few minutes, his emotions in turmoil.
He was a man who prided himself on accepting responsibility, and he had never before questioned his priorities.
Estate matters came first; too many livelihoods depended on his ability to keep The Grange financially afloat.
But lately Isabella was causing him to rethink the carefully constructed order of his life.
That he loved his children was not the issue.
He truly would have suffered any sort of pain if it meant sparing his children.
Yet, as Isabella so doggedly pointed out, by willfully breaking a promise to them, he was hurting them, albeit unintentionally.
His role as father had always been clear-cut and well defined.
He was their provider and protector. Yet Isabella insisted they required more from him, and Damien was unsure how he could give this to them.
He could not neglect the affairs of his estate to mollycoddle his children at every turn.
On the other hand, was it truly necessary for him to personally supervise the herding of the sheep?
Had he made the right decision, placing the needs of the estate above Catherine’s and Ian’s?
What bothered him most, Damien admitted honestly as the wind and rain engulfed him, was that he strongly suspected he had not.
Damien rapped his knuckles forcefully on the door, but the raging thunderstorm drowned out the knock.
He waited a few moments before opening the door; then, univited, he slowly entered Isabella’s bedchamber, hoping to find her awake.
Once inside, the earl strode silently across the room to her bedside, holding his candle high in front of him to light the way.
The heavy bed curtains were pulled back, and Isabella lay burrowed deeply into the soft mattress, snuggled contently beneath the warm coverlet.
Damien placed the lit candle on the bedside table, pausing a moment to look at the slumbering governess.
The glimmering light from the candle illuminated her shimmering chestnut hair and highlighted her fair, porcelain complexion.
He admired the charming curl of her long, dark eyelashes and the high set of her cheekbones.
He studied her in quiet contemplation. She was truly breathtaking. Damien swallowed hard.
“Isabella. Isabella,” he called softly, trying to awaken her without unduly starling her. “Wake up, Isabella.”