Chapter 48 Cameron
forty-eight
Cameron
I’ve never seen Zhuri look so anxious before.
“We’re fucked, Cameron,” she says, pacing through my living room.
Yeah, we are.
I know we are.
But for once in my life, I have to be the one who’s put-together.
“Maybe not.”
She stops pacing and stares at me. “We got caught kissing. The only thing more ‘fraternizing’ than that would be if we got caught literally having sex.”
“Sean’s a reasonable guy,” I try, desperate to do something to help calm her down.
“It’s against our contracts. It doesn’t matter how reasonable he is. Our careers are as good as gone now.”
I walk over to stand in front of her. “You’re not losing your career over this. I’ll make sure of it.”
“How are you going to do that?” Zhuri takes a deep breath. “You’re in the same position I am.”
“I’ll retire,” I say matter-of-factly. “If I’m not on the team, then you didn’t break your contract.”
“You’re not retiring,” she fires back. “You breathe hockey.”
“I don’t care. For the longest time, I didn’t think I was anything without hockey, but I don’t feel like that now. Between you, my therapist, and the medication I’ve started, I’m learning to enjoy what I have. If I don’t have hockey anymore, I’ll still have you. That’s enough.”
“Cameron,” she sighs. “You’re not going to give up your career for a girl.”
“I think I get to make that choice,” I retort. “I finally have something in my life I’m willing to fight for. That’s you.”
“Why, though? Why the hell would you give up the sport you’ve spent your entire life playing for me?”
“Because I’m in love with you!” I shout, louder than intended, before cringing and scrubbing my hands over my face. “Fuck. That’s not how I meant to tell you. I wasn’t going to tell you at all yet.”
“You… love me?”
I let out a defeated breath and wrap my arms around her. “Yes. I love you, Zhuri. In a pathetic, sappy, going-to-love-you-for-the-rest-of-my-life kind of way.”
“I don’t think it’s pathetic,” she smiles softly. “I love you, too, Cameron. I’ve been trying to fight it off, but I’m learning I can’t fight off anything when it comes to you.”
I light up with the brightest smile on my face. “You love me?”
Zhuri nods. “I do. I love you. I don’t care how quickly it happened because I know this is real.”
I scoop her up into my arms, and she wraps her legs around my waist as I kiss her desperately, trying to make sure this isn’t a dream.
And it isn’t.
The woman I’m in love with loves me back.
Good things like this don’t happen to me, and everything feels so surreal right now, but fuck if I’m not going to make the most of it.
Zhuri doesn’t protest as I carry her down the hall to my bedroom, our current predicament all but forgotten. If that picture was sent to Sean like the sender said, there’s nothing we can do, and I won’t let it stop me from showing this woman how much I love her.
Hell, I’ll tell Sean that myself.
I lay Zhuri down on my bed, bracketing myself on top of her as I swipe my tongue against hers. She slips her hands under the hem of my T-shirt, letting her fingers delicately trace over the cut of my abs.
When we finally break apart, both gasping for breath, I press my forehead to hers and get lost in her deep brown eyes. “I love you, Zhuri. Fuck, I love you.”
Her smile is the sweetest thing I’ve ever seen.
“I love you, too. Thank you for letting me get to know you this summer.”
“It’s the best thing I’ve ever done, baby. I still can’t believe I get to have you like this.”
“Believe it,” she murmurs, moving her arms to wrap them around my shoulders. “I’m yours, Cameron.”
“I’m yours, too,” I reply. “I’ve never belonged to anybody the way I belong to you.”
“Have you ever made love to a woman before?”
I shake my head. “No, but it’s the only thing I want to do right now.”
“Then do it,” Zhuri says before kissing me and bringing my hand to the hem of her shirt. “Make love to me, Cameron.”
Nothing about this moment is hurried. We take our time removing our clothing one piece at a time until we’re both bare, lying naked beside each other.
We move up the bed, and Zhuri positions her head on a pillow, dark curly hair fanning out around her with a loving glow brightening her smile.
I shake my head in pure disbelief, still having no idea what I did to deserve her.
“You’re so goddamn beautiful that it hurts, Zhuri. From the moment we met, I’ve thought that, and getting to have you here with me like this is overwhelming in the best way. I feel… happy. Just genuinely fucking happy for the first time in my life.”
She leans up and presses a soft kiss to my lips. “You deserve all the happiness in the world, Cam, and I’m so glad you found it with me.”
“I don’t want happiness if it isn’t with you, ljepota.”
We kiss again as we get into position. I slot myself between her legs, swiping the head of my cock through her center to make sure she’s wet enough for me.
She is, just like always.
Without breaking our kiss, I slowly start to push inside, swallowing the moan Zhuri lets out when I do.
“Cameron…”
I retreat before pushing in a little farther this time. “You’re doing so well, beautiful. I love the way your cheeks flush when you’re taking me, the way your pussy stretches around me when I slide inside.”
“I love the way you fill me,” she breathes. “And I really love the way your dimples pop when you smile.”
“Then, lucky for you, I smile a lot more now.”
“Very lucky,” she grins, holding me close while I move inside her.
The way I feel right now is different than anything I’ve felt before.
I’ve had sex, but never like this. Never with someone I love. Never feeling like I’m truly connected with my partner, like we’re one.
Zhuri got to know me when no one else would, and in doing so, she stole every piece of my heart.
It all belongs to her, and I don’t want it back.
I want her to keep it for the rest of our lives because I already know she’s the only woman I’ll ever love like this.
This love is all-consuming, all-encompassing, perfect.
The love I share with Zhuri is everything I’ve wanted and more.
I snake my hand between our bodies, and she gasps when I tease my thumb over her clit. “Yes, baby…”
“Let go for me, Zhuri baby. Let go, and I’ll show you just how much I love you.”
She hardly lasts a moment longer, clenching around me so tightly that I’m seeing stars, my own pleasure threatening to be ripped out of me.
“That’s it,” I murmur against her lips before capturing them. My thrusts are slow but steady as I savor this moment between us. “You’re such a good girl for me. I love you so much.”
“Come inside me, Cameron. I want to be filled with you. Please?”
I let out a breath. “I’ll never deny you anything. Whatever you want is yours, always.”
I take her lips again as I speed up my thrusts, and it’s not long before I’m falling over the ledge myself, crying out Zhuri’s name as I pump everything I have into her warmth.
We take several moments to come down before I slowly pull out, watching as my cum drips out of her.
I’ll never get tired of that sight.
I give her a kiss on the forehead before striding over to the bathroom and coming back with a washcloth to clean her up. When that’s done, I lie down next to her on the bed and pull her into my arms.
“You’re so amazing, Zhuri.”
She smiles at me sweetly. “So are you, Cameron. I love you.”
“I love you, too.”
And I do.
I love her so damn much, and though I didn’t mean to tell her now, I’m so glad I did.
I don’t know what tomorrow is going to bring, but right now, in this very moment, my life is perfect, and I’m letting myself live in bliss until it all crashes down.