Chapter 29
Healing
Atlas
The house was quiet when we came back from our visit with the ex-cartel brothers.
Maria was asleep in her room, the butler in his, and that just left the five of us to tiptoe quietly to our rooms. Jacob led Becca and Layla to their bedroom upstairs.
Becca's head was resting against his chest, his arms wrapped snugly around her shoulders.
A couple of months ago I wasn't Becca's biggest fan, but that's all changed now. She and Kitten have been through a horrible experience together, coming out the winners. They needed one another to lean on while they continued working through their trauma.
I would never get in the way of their journey toward recovery. Besides, Jacob looked like he was in love. I couldn't hate his girlfriend in good conscience.
I smiled to myself. He was like a brother to me.
Who am I to judge his choice of girlfriend? Besides, she was adorable with her fiery red hair, blue eyes and petite frame. She would be good for my partner.
Kitlyn and I followed behind, watching Layla and Becca close their door to the bedroom.
Jacob slipped into his room quietly, shutting himself in for the night.
I walked Kitten to Becca and Layla's door.
She just lingered, standing there, her hair spilling down her back with my jacket still around her shoulders.
Her eyes—those green pools that hypnotized me the moment I saw her—met mine.
"Kitten," I whispered, almost afraid to breathe her name. She didn't answer right away. She smiled, coming in for a hug. I squeezed her firmly, but gently. It felt so good to have her close to me again. I missed her so much. Her touch, her smell, her smart little mouth….everything about her.
"I don't want to sleep without you tonight, Atlas. I need to be next to you. It's time to get back to our life together. I want us to go back to the way we were. We need the intimacy."
She smiled at me, dazzling me with those fucking sparklers. "I'm ready to have sex again, Atlas."
I scooped her into my arms and carried her into my room, setting her down on the edge of the bed. I knelt in front of her. My fucking queen. The woman who owned my heart and soul. My hands rubbed her thighs as I looked up at her.
"Kitten, you don't have to do this for me. I won't be upset if you would rather just lie in my arms all night without me touching you. I'd lie here a thousand nights just hugging you if that's what it takes for you to feel safe again."
Her hands trembled as she cupped my face, her eyes brimming with tears. "Atlas….I need you. I want to feel only you inside me. I don't want to let what he did to me….ruin us."
Her words gutted me. Anytime she referenced Hector, I felt my stomach knot up. I pressed my forehead to her hands, breathing in slowly, forcing the storm inside me to settle so I wouldn't erupt.
My gaze met hers.
"If that's what you want, Kitten, you know I'll do anything for you, and I would never push you to do something you aren't ready for, right?"
She smiled, bending slightly to kiss the top of my head.
"I'm sure, Atlas. Let's take a shower, then I want to celebrate us as a couple." She cleared her throat. "You don't have to worry about pregnancy. I still have the implant in my arm."
I just nodded, smiling to myself. The implant was never brought up. I didn't feel it was the right thing to do, with everything else she had to deal with. Thank God he never found out it existed. The last thing either of us needs right now is his fucking kid. Hell no!
She walked in front of me toward the bathroom.
I admired the swing of her slender hips.
I felt my jeans tighten around my cock. I haven't touched her in almost two months.
Tonight, I would be a gentle lover to my queen.
I wanted to taste every inch of her body, and make her scream in pleasure, not in pain like that bastard forced her to do.
This was the new beginning we needed. I saw her in a completely different light than I did even when we got back together.
Watching everything she and the other girls endured on those videos sobered me right up. I would protect her with my life, and there is no fucking way anyone would take her from me again. The tracker stays in her neck, but I'll tell her about it this time. No more secrets between us.
The whole time we were in the shower, I had a raging fucking hard-on. I couldn't control myself while looking at her naked body. She was just so perfect in my eyes. When we finally slipped into bed, I gently kissed her. There would be no roughness, no spanking, and no belt.
That would most likely not come back into our lives until months from now. Although kink was in my blood, I could control those urges with my kitten. Her body responded immediately. She wrapped her arms around my neck and kissed me back, biting my lower lip, drawing blood.
My eyes flew open in surprise.
"Kitten, are you sure you want to play rough after everything you've been through?"
She nodded, her lips tinged red.
"Atlas, I love you." She cupped my face with her hands.
"You are my life, my future. I want to go back to the way we were. Hector needs to become a thing of my past, and what better way to start a new beginning than to fuck my boyfriend's brains out, spanking included?"
I smirked, my heart racing in my chest.
My Kitten was back, but I was still hesitant about putting too many demands on her so soon. I looked at her, brushing aside a loose strand from her cheek.
"You know I'm more than happy to oblige, my love, but let's take things a little slower. The mind is a funny thing. Just when you think you're okay, something sets it off again."
I licked the tiny drop of red from her lip.
"I want to worship every part of your body tonight, pet. No belt, no spanking, nothing like that. When we return to Rhode Island, and if your mental health is good, we will introduce all that stuff back into our lives….slowly."
I kissed her forehead, inhaling the scent of her peach shampoo. "Do we have a deal?"
She smiled, running her hand along my cheek.
"I suppose you're right, Atlas. As long as I have you next to me, I am happy to do things your way."
I gently brushed my lips against hers. This was unfamiliar territory for me.
I'd never been a gentle lover with anyone…
ever. There was always some sort of BDSM play involved.
My mouth traveled to her neck, nipping her skin lightly.
There would be no blood drawn anywhere on her body tonight.
She moaned as I worked her into a frenzy, licking and sucking the curve of her neck and collarbone.
God, I missed this woman so much. Making my way to her breasts, I took a nipple in my mouth, sucking on the erect pebble. She arched her back, her breath heavy.
"Oh, how I missed you, Atlas," she breathed, her eyes half slits. "You always make me feel so good."
I had a raging hard-on, and I couldn't wait to bury myself deep inside her. My mouth worked its way down her stomach, teasing, licking and biting gently. "Kitten, open those legs. I need to taste you."
She spread her thighs wide, allowing me full access to her pussy. I flicked my tongue across her clit, bringing a low moan from her lips. I lapped at her juices, savoring every moment as she arched her back.
Her scent drove me mad.
My cock was throbbing, and I couldn't wait to feel her pussy pull the cum from my sore balls. I sucked the little nub between my teeth, feeling it harden against my tongue. I lapped at the swollen knot, steadily stroking the center of her pleasure until she started panting.
"Oh, Atlas—please. You're going to make me cum."
Her words made my cock ache with need. I kept steady pressure on the sensitive flesh, sending her over the edge. I held her thighs in an iron grip as her body convulsed.
"Oh, shit!" She screamed, her head rolling from side to side. Her breath came in short spurts, arching her back and writhing on the bed. Once her orgasm subsided, I pulled my head away from her soaked pussy.
My lips came down hard on her mouth. She opened up immediately, allowing my tongue to slide right in. I kissed her passionately, like I couldn't get enough of her. I positioned myself between her legs, my cock pulsating.
Her eyes were glazed, lips parted, thighs splayed wide.
"Are you sure you're ready for this, Kitten?" I breathed.
She nodded. "Yes Atlas. I need you to reclaim me. Erase the filth he left behind and make me yours. I want every touch and every memory of you and only you."
She wrapped her legs around my back, pulling me in. I entered slowly, allowing her to adjust. There was no room for pain of any kind in our bed tonight. She was just getting over a terrible experience. I wanted this to be perfect.
I moved my hips forward until I was completely buried. I waited a moment and then pumped in and out slowly, rhythmically. She pushed her hips forward, taking the entire length of me. God, it felt so good to be inside her again.
That beautiful cunt. All mine!!
She threw her head back as I fucked her a little harder, holding back a lot of what I really wanted to do.
Her hips met my every thrust and more. Her nails dug into my back as I shoved in deeper.
I tried to go as gently as possible, but her hips had other ideas.
"Jesus, you feel so good inside me, Atlas. Fuck me harder—pleeease."
That was it. I let go and screwed her like the animal I am. "Your cunt feels so good wrapped around my cock, Kitten. You're going to make me fill up that beautiful fucking pussy." I couldn't hold back any longer.
My true self surfaced, and by the way her nails dug into my back, I knew she loved it.
"That's it, fuck me good and hard. I'm yours, Atlas. I will always be yours!"
I clenched my ass, then coated her insides with my seed.
"Ugh, Kitten, I'm cumming!"
Her body shook at the same time. She threw her head back as the second orgasm took hold, sending her over the top once again. After catching my breath, I gently withdrew and rolled on my back.
I pulled her into the crook of my arm and lightly kissed the top of her head. I tapped her nose lightly, teasing her.
"You are a naughty girl."
I couldn't hide my amusement; my voice playful.
"We agreed on gentle, but the way you fucked me, Kitten, wasn't anywhere near gentle."
I smirked."I ought to take you over my knee for leading me off the path, young lady."
Her giggle made my heart flutter. I was so happy to hear her laugh. The last few weeks have been like a roller coaster ride with all three of the girls.
Initially, I was worried she'd never get back to her old self, but I am confident she will be okay. Although difficult, dealing with Hector face-to-face tonight started her on the journey to becoming whole once more.
She looked at me, her eyes glowing in the low light of the room. "Honestly, Atlas, I'm looking forward to going back to Rhode Island so I can be near my things, and I miss Tuna terribly. Once we are home, I want to get back to the way we were before all of this shit happened."
She caressed my arm as she continued to speak. "I love everything about you. Your control, your fucking hot body, and I love when you play your nasty games with me."
I couldn't hold in my laughter.
"My hot body, huh?"
She shook her head, smiling. "Yeah, you're fucking hot, and I think you know it." She teased.
My tone grew serious.
"You know, Kitten, when I go back to spanking you and calling you filthy names, it's just part of the scenes I like to play in the bedroom. I never want you to feel like you're being abused, because that's not what BDSM is."
She reached out, running her fingers through the tufts of hair on my chest. "I know what true abuse is, thanks to Hector.
Nothing you and I have done ever came close to what he did to me, Becca, Layla and countless other women.
Please never think I would feel that way.
You're part of my soul, and I love you with everything I have. "
I stared at her for a moment, my heart skipping a beat. So this is what being in love is. She and I, together through thick and thin. I hugged her tightly to my chest.
"I love you too, Kitten, always. No matter how fucked up the world is, or how broken he tried to make you. I will protect you forever. I can promise you, no man will ever touch you again."
Her reply was a soft murmur against my skin, but it burned through me like fire. "You own me, Atlas, and always will." For the first time in weeks, I closed my eyes with her in my arms, and sleep came easily to both of us.