51. My Soulmate My Equal
Chapter fifty-one
My Soulmate My Equal
Julian
When children are betrayed by the adults who are supposed to love them, they grow to crave the destruction of mankind. It is a rage that never leaves, one that can leak out at any time, but we keep it inside and it eats us alive. We don't get to live our lives like the rest, we die inside everyday, unless we are hurting someone, unless we feed on someone's pain. That someone turned out to be Astoria for me. But she has it too, I know it. So I'm going to give her the gift of killing the worst men in her life, him and I, so that she can unleash her rage and not die if only for just one day.
My pretty bird stands before me, begging me not to force her do this with those big, dark eyes. Even now, after all these years, they still carry an innocence that lures me, one I can't resist. There’s a part of me that will always crave her in the worst ways anyone could imagine, much more terrible than what you’ve read, but there’s also a part of me that saw those eyes cry oceans over the baby she lost, the baby she’d carried because of a rape. That part loves her more than I thought I could love anyone. It knows I could never be good for her and she should kill me so she can finally be safe.
Astoria takes the knife from my hand and swallows hard. Just the sound of her trembling breath, and the feel of her clammy hand already has my cock throbbing hard.
Yeah. I'll never stop. I'll always want her. She needs to kill me.
Her eyes slide to the left, looking behind me at him. The light from outside the room brightens half of her face. She looks up at me again, her pulse racing, and bites her delicious, bottom lip. I sigh, wanting to suck and bite that same lip, but my pretty bird has a big decision to make and I don’t want to distract her.Her gaze pleads for love and safety.
Soon, pretty bird. “Go ahead, Tory. Do what you need to do.”
If she kills me, then I’ll know she doesn’t love me. But I won’t have to suffer the truth, and she’ll be free. If she only kills him, I’ll know she’s truly my soulmate–my equal in every way and I'll worship her like a fucking goddess for the rest of my days, do whatever she says.