Jethro #2
What did she know about our upbringing and who Daniel had become because of his childhood?
I’d caught him hurting for fun, killing animals for a rush.
I’d told him off for being so egotistical and crude.
Kes dealt with Daniel’s fuck-ups more than I did because being around him was too hard.
I’d slowly feed off the nastiness inside him.
But because of my condition, I could wholeheartedly say he deserved what he got. Nila hadn’t killed him. Karma had.
“Putting tragic tales to villains is a sure way to destroy yourself when they force you to do something cruel in order to survive, Nila.”
Nila clenched her jaw, ready to argue. To judge herself into torment. Yet again another ripple of need, completely out of context to the situation, polluted the air.
Forcing her to twist and look at me, rather than Daniel, I cupped her cheeks.
“Nila, listen to me. Don’t look for redemption in those who don’t deserve it.
If you hadn’t fought back, he would’ve raped you and possibly killed you.
You don’t know him—not like I do. And I can safely say, he deserved it. ”
She sniffed, dropping her eyes. “I’m so sorry, Jethro.”
“Sorry?” My heart thundered. “What for?” Letting her go, I marched toward the bed and whipped the sheet free. Wrapping her bottom nakedness, I guided her further away from the body. “Why the hell are you apologising?”
I’m the one who should.
I’m the one who left you on your own.
Her body quaked as she looked over her shoulder, unable to stop staring at Daniel. “Because...because I just killed your flesh and blood.”
I grabbed her waist, holding her tight. “I’m grateful. Not mad. Did you think I would care? Nila, I love you. Ever since you replied to my first text, my heart has put you above everyone in my family. I love you. And you’re killing me by hating yourself for doing what was needed.”
Softening my voice, I tucked her short black hair behind her ears, rubbing away her tears with a thumb.
“Nila...he deserved to die. You need to trust me on that. You can’t hold his death inside you.
You can’t feel responsible. I’m glad you ended him because if you hadn’t, I would’ve made his demise a lot fucking worse.
You did the right thing—that’s all you need to know. Promise me that’s all you’ll remember?”
She sucked in a breath, leaning into my touch. “But—”
“No buts.”
My heart cracked at what she was going through.
I wished I’d arrived sooner. Been the one to stab him and wear his life on my soul, pinned there for eternity.
Anything to prevent her from feeling the pain of aftermath.
However, I hadn’t been. And knowing Daniel had hurt her—taken something that didn’t belong to him—that was my punishment to bear.
I shook as my own hurt surfaced. I had no right to ask. Not now when she struggled. But I couldn’t stop the question falling from my lips. “Please...tell me one thing...and be truthful.”
Her eyes met mine. “Anything.”
I swallowed hard.
I swallowed again.
I lost courage but spoke anyway. “I know he touched you, Nila, you can’t hide that from me. But how badly did he rape you? How much do you hate me for letting that happen?”
I hated my question. How badly did he rape you? Were there gradients of rape? Every form, no matter how long or brutal, were equally as terrible.
Christ!
I wanted to kill myself for being so useless.
But I had another question. One I didn’t want to ask. Why did I feed off her overwhelming desire for sex? Why did she have such powerful thoughts when the current predicament was so inappropriate?
A slight pause, another lie formed. She shook her head. “I could never hate you. And I already told you. I stopped him—before...”
My shoulders sagged.
She rushed. “Jethro, don’t torture yourself. Let me keep some secrets. Let me choose which ones to tell you and which ones to let die.” Her voice cracked. “Please...you don’t need to know. Just...leave it. I’m sorry...”
I died a little as my condition flared into full reception. Her emotions told me everything I needed to know. He’d been inside her. And she’d defended herself the only way she could.
Fuck.
How could I ever forgive myself for this?
Would she want me now? Would she trust I could protect her?
My arms latched around her, crashing her face to my chest. “Goddammit, Nila. You put me to shame. For the rest of my life, I’ll make it up to you. I’ll keep you safe. I’ll stop all of this because I’m never letting you out of my sight again.”
She kissed my shirt, moaning in gratefulness as she finally allowed me to take some of the responsibility. Her fingers fluttered over my hips, questing more than just a hug...more violent affection.
Her thoughts begged me to give in. To grant her some relief from the intensity in her mind. But I couldn’t. Now was not the time.
“It’s over now. It’s done. You’re safe.”
For a moment, she let me soothe her. Her lustful taint gave way to sobs, and she crumpled deeper into my embrace. Together, we fell to the floor—me to my knees and Nila in my lap. I rocked her. I kissed her. I promised so many, many things.
Time ticked onward, putting seconds then minutes between her and taking Daniel’s life. Nothing else would be able to fix her—only time and distance.
Finally, the shock of killing left and her eyes opened to focus resolutely on Daniel. Any hint of desire disappeared with clear-headed determination. “Cut will be back for his turn soon.” Her voice shook. “What do I do, Kite? What do I do with the body?”
“You?” I laughed harshly. “You aren’t doing anything. You’ve done too much already.” I ran a hand through my hair. “I should’ve been there for you and I wasn’t. I’ll deal with this.”
Her skin turned frigid beneath my fingertips. “No, you have to go. If Cut sees you—”
“I don’t fucking care if he sees me.” Pushing Nila off my lap, I stood. Marching across the tent, I tore through her open suitcase and threw fresh knickers and leggings her way. “Put these on. And shoes. I’m going to get rid of Daniel and you’re coming with me.”
“But—”
I cut my hand through the air. “But nothing, Nila. I’m not letting you out of my sight. Got it?”
“But Jasmine and Kes. You have to think of them. Cut can’t know you’re still alive, he’ll—”
Kill me. Yes, I know.
But my life was worthless compared to hers.
I would willingly trade it if it meant she walked away from this with no more bruises or battered memories.
She’d already endured so much. She wore the marks of war, and I refused to let her endure more.
I’d tried to save too many people. Kes would understand, and Jaz would expect me to do what was right.
This was right.
Nila was my only choice.
“Don’t worry about them. I know what I’m doing.” I glanced at my dead sibling, feeling nothing but relief. His cock taunted me with what he’d done to my woman. If he wasn’t already dead...he would die with severe mutilation to purge myself of the wrath in my blood.
“So...how will we dispose of the body?” Nila whispered.
My mind ran with scenarios. “We could cover him in liquor and make it seem like he drank himself into the grave.”
Nila swallowed. “Is that believable?” She looked at the floor where the long bloody weapon stuck to the tent covering. “I stabbed him in the heart with my knitting needle. The two wounds are small, but there. They’d know it wasn’t self-inflicted.”
She killed him with a needle?
An awed smile lit my face. “You’re so fucking strong.”
She glanced away, despair still prominent.
I rubbed my face, willing tiredness and pain to fade so I could come up with a solution.
Think.
Where could I put him that Cut wouldn’t find him?
The diamond mine!
The idea sprang from schematics to doable. “We can make it look like an accident. I can bury him in the mine. Make it look like he fell.”
Nila paused, tasting my plan, nibbling at it for flaws.
“Shit, that won’t work.” I shook my head. “I couldn’t get him there without someone hearing the Jeep.” My eyes narrowed, rushing forward with a new idea.
Then, it came to me.
Africa would take care of it for me.
I snapped my fingers with decision. “I know what to do.”
Nila opened her mouth to argue, but I stormed across the room and grabbed her face.
I couldn’t help myself. She was so fucking courageous.
Her emotions so clear. Her love so deep.
Her passion so pure. Not one inch of terror or hate that I hadn’t been there for her.
Not one smidgen of hostility or judgement.
She’s so damn selfless.
I kissed her.
The instant my lips touched hers, it was if a nuclear explosion mushroomed inside her. The lust I’d gleaned in her mind erupted into full force, drowning everything. Her tongue snaked into my mouth, decaying my resolve not to touch her.
Dropping the clothes I’d given her, she groaned long and low, her mouth tempting mine to give more. The sheet fluttered from her hips as her naked leg twined around my hip, grinding against me.
“Fuck...” I stumbled forward as she turned crazed with desire. I’d never felt such passion pouring from her. “Nila...wait...”
Her tongue shot swifter, sexier into my mouth. Kissing. Licking. Demanding I respond.
“Nila...”
“No, Jethro. Give me this. I need this.” Her lips recaptured mine, pulling me under.
“Shit.” It all suddenly made sense. The clouded residue on her thoughts. The flowing undercurrent of something stronger than death and pain. She wanted sex. She needed sex.
They’d drugged her.
They’d given her the same thing they’d given me when I was fifteen. Something so potent and heady no one could say no to the aphrodisiac power.
Goddammit.