Chapter Ten
“What do you mean you’re sending me home? I’m not a package to be wrapped and stamped.” Erin rushed after Burke as he strode from the parlor to the bedroom of the suite. “You’ve barely said a word to me since we left the track, and now all you can say is you’re sending me home.”
“There’s nothing else to say, not at the moment.”
“Nothing to say?” Because she was breathless after struggling to keep pace with him, she sat. “Double Bluff was just disqualified from one of the most important races of the year because someone gave him drugs. That’s plenty to talk about to start.”
“It’s not your concern.” He pulled a suitcase out of the closet and set it open on the bed. “Pack.”
She kept her seat and, just barely, her temper, but her eyes narrowed. “Oh, I see. So this is one more thing I’m not to touch.”
Pausing only a moment, Burke studied her. He could see the temper beginning to brew. As far as he was concerned, she was better off angry than dealing with the tempest of the next few days. He’d never considered himself a man of great virtues, but he’d protect his wife.
“You can look at it that way or any other way you like. I’ve got some calls to make. Pack your things while I see that your flight’s changed.”
“Just one bloody minute.” She was up and after him again as he walked into the next room. “I’m sick to death of orders from you. Almost as sick as I am of talking to your back. If you don’t put down that phone, Burke Logan, it’ll pleasure me to wrap the cord around your neck.”
“Erin, I’ve got enough to deal with at the moment without you adding one of your tantrums.”
“Tantrums.” Her hands clenched into fists as she walked toward him. “Oh, I’ve a flash for you, I do. You haven’t seen a tantrum yet. Now sit.” Taking both hands, she shoved him into a chair. “And it’s time you unplugged your ears and listened for a change.”
He could have risen again and struck back with his own temper. He decided against it, in the same way he might have decided to bluff his way to a pot with a pair of deuces. The quickest way to have her out and on her way was to show disinterest. “Is this going to take long?”
“As long as needs be.”
“Then would you mind if I had a drink?”
Seething, she went behind the bar and grabbed a bottle and a glass. She slammed them down on the table beside him. “Go ahead, have the whole bottle. Drown yourself in it.”
“Just one’ll do.” He poured two fingers, then lifted the glass in a half salute. “Say what’s on your mind, Irish. I have a few things to see to before your flight.”
“If I said half what was on it, your ears would be ringing from now till Gabriel blew his horn. Answer me this, are you going to take this business lying down?”
He lifted the glass and sipped, watching her steadily over the rim. “What do you think?”
“I think you’re going to fight, and I think you won’t be resting until you find out who’s behind this. Then I think you’re going to carve them up in little pieces.”
He toasted her again, then downed the rest of the whiskey. “That about covers it.”
“And I’m not going home to twiddle my thumbs while you’re about it.”
“That’s exactly what you’re going to do.”
“Did it ever occur to you that I could help?”
“I don’t want your help or need it, Erin.”
“No, you don’t need anyone.” She swung away to pace the room, wishing she knew a better way than shouting to handle an argument.
“All you need are a few paid servants to deal with the little details while you go on your merry way. You certainly don’t need a wife, a partner, to tend to your shirts or hold your hand when there’s trouble. ”
The urge to get up, to hold on to her, was so strong he had to press his fingers into the glass until his knuckles whitened. Because she was wrong. She was very, very wrong about what and whom he needed. “I didn’t marry you to do my laundry.”
“No, you married me to sleep with, and I know it well enough. But you got more than you bargained for, because I’m not running back home like some weakhearted, whiny female who can’t face a spot of trouble.”
Pride, he thought, and nearly laughed. It always seemed to be his pride or hers on the line. “No one’s insulting your valor, Erin. It would simply make things easier if I didn’t have you to deal with.”
“You won’t have to deal with me. In private I’ll stay out of your way and you can do your business however you please. But in public I’m going to be there.”
“The loyal and trusting wife?”
“What’s wrong with that?”
“Nothing.” He sat back, determined to study her calmly. She looked like a comet about to go into orbit. “It matters to you what these people think, what they say?”
“And why shouldn’t it?”
Why shouldn’t it indeed? he thought as he stared into his empty glass. She was worried about her position, and hers walked hand in glove with his own. “Have it your way, then. I can hardly drag you to a plane and tie you on. But I warn you, it won’t be pretty.”
“You’ve said you understand me, almost from the first moment we met you said it, and I believed you.
Now I see that you really don’t understand me at all.
” There was no more anger. It had been smothered by a rising despair.
If they’d really been married, in the true sense, they would have been able to talk about what had happened, they would have been able to fight together, rage together instead of at each other.
“You can make your calls, I’m going for a walk. ”
But he didn’t pick up the phone when she left.
It was more than being unused to having someone stand beside him, more than his own penchant for handling his own in his own way.
He’d wanted her to go, away from the murmurs and sly looks.
He didn’t want her to be a part of the suspicion that had already fallen over him and his.
She’d never even asked. Burke scrubbed his hands over his face and tried to get beyond his own fury.
It wasn’t losing the purse or the race so much as knowing that someone had violated what was his.
And she’d never asked if he’d arranged it himself.
Could she really believe so blindly in him, or was it a matter of her not caring how he won?
However she felt, he couldn’t shield her from the gossip.
And gossip there would be, he thought grimly.
Once she had a taste of it, he figured she’d be happy enough to go back to the quiet of Three Aces.
In the meantime, he was going to find out who’d messed with him.
Pushing the bottle aside, Burke picked up the phone.
The action moved to Churchill Downs and Derby week. Erin made certain she attended each function and every qualifying race. She held her head up and, when she heard a whisper, only held it higher.
Not everyone seemed inclined to believe that Burke had had a hand in the drugging of his horse.
For every snub and murmur there was someone else to offer support.
But the only one who mattered had closed himself off from her.
She didn’t try to break through the barrier.
It took all the energy she had to hold up the pretense of a united couple.
The strain was taking its toll, all the more because she worked hard to make sure Burke didn’t see it.
He rose early, so she rose early. He went to the track to oversee Double Bluff’s morning exercise, so she spent her mornings at the track.
There were days when by noon she was so weary she wanted to crawl off into a corner and sleep.
But there were races and luncheons and functions, often back-to-back. She refused to miss even one.
Erin McKinnon Logan wasn’t hiding in some dim corner until the trouble passed.
She would face it, shoulders straight, and dare even one person to look her in the eye and make an accusation.
It was hard, and grew harder, so that every day she had to force herself to put in an appearance.
There were whispers and knowing looks behind smiles.
There were eyes that turned away rather than meet hers.
And there were a few who preferred to cloak their insults in manners.
She dressed carefully for a formal dinner party near the end of Derby week. Erin had always felt that a strong outer appearance helped tap the inner strength. Attending alone was only more difficult, but Burke had been called to a meeting at the last minute.
She could have stayed at the hotel, just as Burke had asked. The truth was that a quiet evening, a tray in bed and a good book was exactly what she would have preferred. But that would have been cowardly. So she wore her midnight-blue silk and hung her sapphire around her neck like a badge.
While others sipped cocktails, she nursed orange juice and made conversation. More than ever she was grateful for Paddy. He stayed close, keeping her spirits up and her mind busy with stories of Ireland. But he couldn’t shield her from everything, nor from everyone.
“My dear, what a pretty dress.” Dorothy Gainsfield swept toward her, her eyes as cold as her diamonds.
“Good evening, Mrs. Gainsfield.”
“Tell me, are you enjoying your first Derby week? It is your first, isn’t it?”
“Aye, it’s my first.” If Erin had learned one thing, it was how to return a meaningless smile. “I’m sure you’ve been coming here for many years.”
“Indeed,” she said repressively, refusing to be insulted by one so beneath her station. “I don’t see your husband.”
“He couldn’t make it.”
“That’s understandable, isn’t it?”
Erin felt Paddy start forward, and laid a hand on his arm. “With the race only a couple of days away, Burke is busy.”
“I’m sure he is.” The older woman gave a dry laugh and sipped her champagne. “You know, I’m rather surprised he’s being allowed to enter after that... mishap, shall we say, at the Bluegrass Stakes.”
“The racing commission feels Double Bluff’s record speaks for itself and for Burke. Once the investigation’s complete, that, too, will speak for itself.”