Chapter 20
I took my time and brought her along with me, giving her time to adjust to my length and girth. Her hands roamed over the flesh of my back and sides as our tongues danced and our hips moved together thrust for thrust.
“Did I tell you how much I love being inside you? Your pussy feels so fucking amazing, like it was made to fit around my cock.” Her body reacted to my words and she flooded my cock with her juices.
Now it was her lips that moved hungrily on mine, her heels that knocked into my ass as she tried to get me to go deeper, faster, harder.
I gave her what she wanted and had to shove my tongue in her mouth to muffle her screams. Her pussy gripped my cock and wouldn’t let me move as I wanted to.
But the way she clenched and released around me was enough. I held still and let her work her magic until I couldn’t take much more and then I took over.
I sat up and brought her with me to straddle my hips. “Ride my cock.” I fisted her hair at her nape and pulled her on and off my cock.
She used her hands on my shoulders as leverage to rock her ass back and forth, and up and down on my cock. Her eyes were closed in concentration, her lip caught between her teeth.
I teased the crack of her ass with my fingers as I pounded my cock up hard meeting her downward thrusts.
Our tongues met in her mouth as we fucked and it wasn’t long before I felt that tingling in my balls and that wild need to consume her overtook me again.
I sucked her nipple into my mouth between my teeth hard enough to leave a mark and she came again with her arms wrapped around my head.
I turned and pressed her back against the couch and slammed into her without mercy until I went deaf and blind from the force of the orgasm that rocked me.
“Fuck!” So much for keeping the noise level down. If anyone was going by outside my office they were sure to hear my roar.
I hugged her hard enough to crack a rib or two as the last of my seed drizzled into her. “You’re trying to kill me.”
I caught my breath with my head resting on her chest and she wasn’t doing much better.
“Hey this was your idea, I came for lunch.” She tugged on my hair.
I liked this playful side of her. It made her seem younger, more carefree, less stoic. Less like she was carrying the world on her shoulders.
“Okay I guess I should feed you then.” She was more relaxed over lunch but I didn’t kid myself that I was out of the woods yet.
I had a feeling my take charge attitude was going to butt up against her stubbornness until one of us won.
Since I never start anything I can’t finish, I have all confidence in my ability to bring her little ass to heel.
“Did you have enough to eat? You didn’t finish it.”
“Don’t start your nagging again I have to get back to my office, lunch ran a little late today.” The little smile on her face warmed my heart.
She got up to leave and I grabbed her hand. “Don’t leave.” It was damn near a whine. Pitiful!
“I have to get back to work. Didn’t you say we only have a few days left?”
“Why don’t you bring your stuff in here? There’s more than enough space here.” She looked around as if giving it some thought.
“But what about the others? There’s already speculation…”
“I don’t care and neither should you. Let’s go get your stuff.” I held her hand all the way down the hallway. Who didn’t already know will now.
I took her back to my office and got her settled at the table and only then was I able to concentrate on my work.
Every once in a while I’d look up to find her looking at me and she’d look guiltily away with that red flush on her cheeks. No need to guess what she was thinking.
My mind would stray every so often and I’d relive the night we shared and what happened right here in this room not too long ago.
As someone who prided himself on being very disciplined when it comes to work, I didn’t even mind that she had disrupted my well organized world.
I drove her home that night after sending Stanley home early. Once in her apartment I kept my jealousy under control enough that she didn’t notice it.
It was getting easier to walk into the hallway and see his face looking back at me. As long as I held onto the fact that she was mine now nothing else mattered.
For some reason that night Amber chose to bring up her father. Maybe she had some sort of intuition I don’t know, but she wanted to show me the picture of him that she kept in her room.
As I listened to her repeat his merits as told to her by her mother, I realized how selfish I had been. I’d wanted to deny this child the knowledge of her father, something I wouldn’t want done to myself.
It was easier to accept her love and admiration for him than it was her mother’s though. I was still a little raw about that.
“Are you my daddy now?” My head flew up and around to look at her mother who’d stepped into the room. She looked like a deer caught in headlights at her daughter’s question.
What was I supposed to say? I pulled her onto my lap and held her close. “I would love to be your daddy but mommy and I have to talk about it first okay.”
“Are you going to live with us? My friend Anna has a mommy and a daddy. Her daddy plays with her in the park and he calls her his little princess. Am I your little princess?”
Yep, the both of them are tag teaming my ass to see which one of them would break my heart sooner. “Yes, you are my little princess.”
I wrapped my arms around her and dared not look at her mother who seemed to have been struck dumb.
Amber was full of questions tonight and I understood it was just the natural curiosity of a child.
I answered her the best I could before reading her a bedtime story. Alice had already given her a bath and once her story was over she fell asleep as usual.
I found Gia in the living room staring into space. “Are you okay?”
“I didn’t stop to think, what your coming here like this would do to her. I didn’t…”
I knew she was about to piss me off so I braced myself and told myself not to react poorly to whatever stupidity came out of her mouth.
“I think we should cool it for a while.”
“No!”
“What do you mean no? She’s already confused she thinks you’re going to be her new daddy.”
“She’s not confused, I am going to be here new daddy. I told you from the start that I want you both.” Breathe Evan, just in and out. No need to go off the rails like a teenage girl.
“She already has a father.”
“Don’t piss me off. I don’t want to replace him in her heart, only yours. As for her already having a father, he’s not here, I am.” She opened her mouth to speak but I cut her off.
“Did you hear her? Did you hear her talk about her friend? You think I don’t want to take her to the park and play on the swings? You think I don’t want her to have a father she can turn to?”
“This is too much for me to deal with right now.” I took a deep breath and prayed for peace of mind and the strength not to strangle her.
“What exactly is your problem with this? You want to cling onto the past so much you forget to live in the here and now? Is that good for you, is it good for her?”
“I use to think I had a problem with him, but it’s not him it’s you. I look at you and see the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen in my life.”
She didn’t look like she believed me but I carried on. “I see someone full of promise and life and I want that so bad. But you prefer to bury your head in the sand.”
I saw her resolve as she folded her lips and fisted her hands. But if she thought for one second that that shit would sway me she was mistaken.
“You accused me of wanting to pretend that he didn’t exist. I think you’re the one who’s pretending that he’s still here.”
“I think you should leave now.”
“And I think you should calm the hell down. First of all, when I took you last night that was to seal the deal.”
“That means from now on all your decisions concerning us are made together. Since you seem to be blind to the facts I’ll take it from here.”
“Blind to the facts, what does that mean?”
“It means that I’m standing here in front of you alive and well and offering you all the love in my heart, but you’re willing to throw it away for something that can never be again.”
“How am I supposed to feel about that? Don’t you think my love is as worthy as his, is that it?”
“Of course not. You don’t understand.”
“How can I when you won’t talk to me about this?”
She stood before me wringing her hands and looking miserable. I wanted to shake some sense into her but knew that wouldn’t help. She’s gonna have to come to the truth on her own.
I know now that I can’t force her to forget him, but I’ll be damned if she’s going to shut me out. I pulled her to me and held her close, hating that she was feeling whatever it was that put that look on her face.
“Take your time and think about whatever you need to. Just know that I’m not going anywhere and I will never let you shut me out again. Do you understand?”
She didn’t answer quick enough and I shook her gently. “I said do you understand?”
“Yes.”
“Good, let’s go to bed, I’m hungry.”