Chapter 15
Chloe
“That would have been impossible. I didn’t. I’ve never… you were my first.”
He cocked his head, looking absolutely handsome and completely confused. “But we didn’t do anything wild. Oh! You mean your first Santa fuck? Yeah, this was a first for me, too. I’ve never had an elf before. I liked it.”
Tex had misunderstood me.
This was one of those moments where I could breeze past it, and he’d never know.
But I liked this man. A lot.
I couldn’t say why. I mean, the mountain of muscle was a draw, and his gorgeous eyes seemed to suck me in until I couldn’t think straight. And he knew how to use his body to make me squirm with pleasure.
But it was a lot more than that.
Tex was also kind, and he cared about people. Like Rod and Holt. Even Ellie.
And I just felt safe with him.
Which is why, in the quietest voice ever, I whispered, “No, Tex. What I mean is, I’m a—well, I was a virgin. You’re the first man I’ve been with.”
His eyes widened, and he pulled away from me. “What?!?”
“It doesn’t have to be a big deal,” I said in a rush. “It’s just, you’re the first man I ever felt comfortable doing that with. No one else ever felt right.”
“You were a virgin? What about the ex? You lived with him!”
My shoulders drooped. “I know it’s weird. He talked me into moving in fast. Looking back, I can see he was love-bombing me to get me to move in. But he knew I was a virgin, and I told him I didn’t want to be intimate until I felt ready…. I never felt ready.”
Tex’s jaw hung slack. “And you chose me? Why me?”
I drifted my fingers across his Santa jacket, admiring the firm muscles I felt underneath it.
Murmuring, I said, “I can’t wait to see you naked. I mean, if you want to do this again. But maybe after I’ve recovered a bit. It was amazing. But I do feel a little tender.”
He repeated his question, “Why me?”
Letting out a tiny sigh, I told him, “You know how you said you might love me? I don’t know if that was an after-sex thing to say, or if it meant something more, but I’m going to go out on a limb and tell you how I feel.
I could see myself falling for you. If I’m being honest, I think I might already be falling.
I hope that doesn’t scare you off. I’m hoping this was more than just a casual sex thing for you. But I get it if that’s all you wanted.”
“But you want more.” He said it as a statement, not a question.
I nodded my head. “Yeah. I do. I mean I would if you do. Do you? Want more?”
Tex stroked my cheek. “Chloe, you intoxicate me. I want nothing more than to get to know you better.”
My heart stopped its nervous trembling and took up a happy flutter in my chest instead. “Really?”
He grinned at me, then gave me a tiny kiss on the lips.
“Definitely. Besides, Santa’s still not sure if you belong on the good list or the bad list. He’s going to need to fuck you a few more times to find out.
But we can wait on that until tomorrow. You might want something softer than a good fuck tonight. Want me to draw you a bath?”
“That sounds perfect.”
I thought about the differences between Todd and Tex. Tex was solid, grounded and strong. I got the feeling I could cling to him during a storm and he’d be the one to keep me safe.
Tex was everything I’d ever wanted, and never dreamed was possible.
My heart pulled in his direction as he got up and puttered into the master bathroom. He was still wearing his Santa outfit, and it was the best Christmas Eve I’d ever had. I lay back and watched Santa Claus draw me a bath.