Chapter Six #3
He grabbed the comforter and sheets and pulled them back, nodding for me to get under them before he clicked off the lamp. He climbed in with me, wrapping his arms around me. My body was cold from anxiety, but he was so warm and tender.
"I've never waited this long for anyone, Jocelyn," he whispered. "And I'm not telling you that to be obnoxious. I just want you to know I think you're worth the wait, and you can change your mind."
"I don't want to wait," I said. "I want this, I want you."
I only hoped I could please him.
Before I could think about anything else, his mouth was suddenly on my breast.
He swirled his tongue around my nipple as he moved his hand over and teased my other one with his fingertips. He trailed his lips down my stomach, moving lower and lower.
Oh, God, was he going to . . . ?
His tongue was pressing against my sweet spot as he used his fingers to spread me open. I automatically tried to close my legs, suddenly uncertain. He gently nudged my thighs apart and told me to relax.
Relax? How can I relax?
I’d heard other girls at school talk about their boyfriends going down on them, and I'd thought, how gross is that? I mean really, who would want to put their tongue there?
As soon as I felt Alex's warm tongue push inside me and move at a pleasurable speed, I forgot all about my reservations over him giving me oral sex.
"Oh . . . ahh . . . ."
He pushed his fingers inside me again and moved them in rhythm with his very skilled tongue. For a brief second, I had to wonder how he got so good at this particular act, but then I decided it didn't matter. I was just glad he'd had so much practice.
My stomach tightened, and I felt another wave of desire come over me as it shot right between my thighs. I thrust my hips upward as Alex reached around to my backside and pushed me against his mouth.
I screamed out his name as I came into his mouth. I had never experienced anything as intense as that before. My body tingled all over.
Alex leisurely made his way back up my body, sucking on my hipbone, licking his way up my stomach and over my nipples and to my neck. He propped himself up on his elbow and smiled at me.
"Are you sure?" he asked again.
"Please," I answered breathlessly. I pulled him to me and kissed him with more force than I ever had before. I thought it would be nasty kissing him after he had tasted me, but actually, I kinda liked it. I slipped my hand down his chest and over his erection. He closed his eyes and let out a low moan. Last week was the first time I’d touched him like this, and since then, I was becoming quite good at helping Alex relieve some of his tension.
"Not tonight, beautiful." He pushed my hand away. "I have other plans."
He softly kissed my lips, then reached into the drawer by the bed.
I lay flat on my back and listened as he ripped the package open and placed it on the nightstand.
I felt him wiggle out of his boxers, then he rolled the condom onto little cowboy.
I propped myself up again, not knowing exactly what I should be doing . Should I touch
him? Should I wait for him to touch me? I managed to stroke his thigh with my fingers.
He moved his lips to my ear and whispered, "I'm not gonna hurt you. You have to trust me."
"I do." I swallowed hard and closed my eyes.
He pushed me onto my back, then moved on top of me.
He brushed his lips against mine, and with his knee, he spread my legs apart.
I felt him reach down between us and take his very hard member and slide it against my entrance.
I immediately tensed up, but he continued to move his tip inside me.
He did this for a few seconds, coating himself with my juices.
He moved his mouth to my ear and whispered. "You're so wet that I'll slide right in. Take a deep breath."
I did as he asked, and while I was inhaling, he managed to slide in as far as he could without hurting me. At first, I didn't like it at all. He was big and thick, and it felt like a major intrusion. This feels all wrong!
"Let it out, beautiful." He moaned. "God, you're so tight." He grunted a few times, and I felt bad because it seemed like this was work for him.
As I exhaled, Alex pushed farther into me. It hurt really badly, and it burned a bit, but I tried to stay still. I wanted to scream out in pain and tell him never mind!
"Do you need me to stop?" he whispered. "This could be enough for tonight."
"No!" I squeezed my eyes shut and clenched my teeth. "I'm okay."
Shit! This shit hurts!
He reached down and grasped my hips as he thrust harder.
"Alex," I screamed out. I threaded my fingers through his hair and pushed my mouth against him. He hiked my leg up over his hip, giving him better leverage as he continued to thrust inside me.
"Jocelyn, baby, you feel so good."
The pain subsided, but it was still uncomfortable.
I knew that was to be expected, and I didn't care, because when I looked up at Alex, I could see how good this felt for him.
His eyes were shut, he was breathing heavy, and his jaw was tight.
He was absolutely beautiful, and he was mine. I'm making him feel this way. Only me.
He slowed down his pace, and his strokes grew more deliberate with each thrust.
I felt his body tighten. Then he screamed out my name as he gripped my hair.
A few seconds later, he collapsed onto my chest. His breathing was erratic, and he didn't move for a few seconds.
Then he pulled out of me, holding the base of his softening member so the condom wouldn't slip off.
He gently kissed me before getting up and going into the bathroom.
He was back in the room and in bed holding me within seconds.
"That was perfect," he whispered against my hair.
"Are you sure it was okay?" I asked. "I know I wasn't that good."
"You were better than good," he said. "I didn't hurt you too much, did I?"
"No, it wasn't as painful as I thought. You were very gentle."
"I'll always be gentle with you." He smiled. "I'm . . . ." He left the sentence hang, something he'd done quite a lot lately, and that was so frustrating.
"What is it?"
"You're just really special to me," he said. "I hope you know that."
"I do." I returned his smile. "I feel the same way about you."
"Do you promise me you'll tell me if you're not okay?" He seemed really worried about me.
"I'm better than okay, Alex," I said. "I'm glad it was with you."
"I'm honored that you gave me something so special."
He took my hand and pressed it to his lips. I started to giggle.
"What is it, silly girl?" He laughed.
"I lost my virginity on prom night." I snorted.
"That is kinda funny. But, since you didn't actually attend, it's not as clichéd as you think."
"I guess you're right." I snuggled into his chest and let out a deep, relaxed breath.
"I love being in your arms."
"Hmm . . . ." He sighed.
"It's not time for me to go, is it?" I hated the thought of leaving him after what we had just shared.
"No." He reached out, grabbed his phone, and pushed a few buttons.
"What are you doing?"
"Setting the alarm," he said. "I can hold you for a while, but in case we fall asleep, you won't miss curfew."
"So responsible, Alex Jordan." I laughed.
"I'll never do anything to get on Max's bad side." He pulled me closer to him.
I cuddled close and played with the hair at his nape.