Chapter Thirty-Six Kai
We’re back upstairs, the beige curtains open to show the late evening sky. A breeze blows through the open French doors that lead into the back garden, a sweet summer scent of hydrangeas and lilies dancing through the bedroom.
There’s something about this position that has my head spinning with nothing but lust and desire. Levi straddles me, his entire body flushed, muscles rippling and the lines of his tattoos almost hypnotic. He looks down at me, dark hair hanging around his face.
“You want this?” he asks.
Brown eyes flash, keeping me in position, looking up at him. “Fuck yes,” I say breathlessly.
I turn my head slightly and Cole sits on the beige-coloured chair, his right leg resting over his knee. He’s fully dressed, and he watches us with dark lust that burns behind his eyes. There’s something about the way he looks at us both like this, naked and painfully hard after torturous minutes of foreplay. It’s intoxicating. It makes me want to make this good, not just for Levi but for him too.
“Eyes on me, baby,” Levi says, forcing me to look up at him.
He grips my aching cock and sinks on it deliciously slow. We both let out a loud moan as he bottoms out. My back arches off the bed but I grip his waist, keeping him in place as he begins to ride me.
“You feel so good,” I say quietly.
Levi smiles. “I know.”
Sparks are going off inside me as I watch him ride slowly, thigh muscles straining and his head falling back, revealing the column of his flushed neck. I want to bite him right there. So, I do, I hold Levi close and sit up to kiss him just under his ear.
He lets out a pleased moan as I push deeper into him, biting his lower lip hard enough to bruise. I curl my arm around his waist, fucking into him more relentlessly than I usually would. When I lean down to bite that spot on his neck again, determined to leave my marks on him the way he always does on my body, he swears loudly. The power of it is intoxicating, and watching his eyes roll back because of me is exhilarating.
But suddenly, Levi meets my eyes, and he grins, his hand coming up to grip my chin with his thumb and index finger. “Look at you fucking me so well,” he kisses me. “You’re so fucking perfect, baby. We should have done this sooner.”
An orgasm coils right at the pit of my stomach, but I don’t want to come yet. I flip him over so that he’s lying on his back. I look down at his dick, thick veins wrapped around his shaft so beautifully, and grip it in my hand. He lets out a quiet whimper when I give it a single pump just as I stir my hips and push inside him. I do it again, and this time, he lets out that perfect moan.
“Oh my goodness, Levi,” I whisper, completely mesmerised by him but just when I think he’s lost to the pleasure of me fucking him and pumping his hard dick, he reaches up and chokes me.
“Uh, don’t stop,” Levi says, smiling as his grip tightens around my neck.
My orgasm is right there, undulated pleasure pulling me under as Levi’s grip tightens. I’m sure it will bruise but I don’t care.
“Shit, Kai, I’m going to come,” he grits out, ragged moans spilling from his mouth as my pace becomes frantic, my hand working him roughly. He shouts my name as his come shoots between our naked bodies, landing on his taut stomach and my chest.
I follow; his name on my lips like a prayer as I spill inside him and feel his grip loosen around my neck. I pull out, watching my come dribble out of his hole. We’re both covered in his and my brain is working before I can stop it–I lean down, lapping up all the spilt fluid on his stomach and chest.
I trail my tongue up his sternum and to his mouth, kissing him deep, the taste of salt and sweat mixing on our tongues.
When we finally pull away from each other and I move off Levi, he sits up resting on his elbow and looks at Cole. He’s sitting back, his legs spread, and despite his loose-fitting sweatpants, I can tell he’s hard.
“Enjoy the show?” Levi asks.
Cole’s eyes glint with unmistakable want. That gets my dick interested which is ridiculous because I should be on the verge of passing out, but I’ve become insatiable. Good thing there are two of them.
“I did,” he says, his lips spreading into a dangerous smile and at this point, my mouth may as well be watering. Cole throws over a towel at me which wasn’t there before. Of course, he knew to get one.
“Looks like you managed to clean me up with just your tongue,” Levi says to me as I get any remaining splotches I missed with my mouth.
I grin, moving to myself before kissing him lightly. I’m acutely aware that my body wants something else, and Levi must be able to read my mind because he whispers, “Go.”
I slip off the bed and walk over to Cole, my legs a little wobbly. He watches me as I move, and I feel hotter than I’ve ever felt before. As I settle to straddle him, I realise how addicted I’ve become to his darkness, how it doesn’t scare me, but if hell is real, then even the devil himself would beg on his knees for Cole Armas.
“Fuck me,” I breathe against him. I can feel just how hard he is, and I grind down on his erection to drive the point home. I let out a quiet breath, moving quicker just for the friction from his sweatpants. I shouldn’t be ready to go again after Levi but I’m insatiable around them.
“You think you deserve to be fucked?” he asks quietly, seriously.
I blush but bolts of pleasure fly through me as he lets me grind down. Just then, I hear the soft padding of footsteps and then a hand gripping the back of my head. Levi looks down at me, a dangerous smile on his lips. He’s in shorts and I realise for a moment that I am still stark naked. “Such a pretty slut for us, aren’t you? Still desperate to get filled with come even after all that.”
He lets me go and I shiver, still grinding down, still feeling that sweet, delicious friction that has me leaking against Cole’s sweatpants and despite being hard himself, Cole barely looks affected. He watches me with jade eyes that have me desperate to dive into them and see what’s behind them.
“You want to use my cock, princess?” Cole asks.
I nod.
“Go ahead” he tells me.
No need to tell me twice.
I feel impatient as I stretch myself open, both of them watching me with sparkling eyes.
I desperately want to be full and when I’m finally stretched, I sink onto his dick, letting out a strangled moan until we’re skin on skin. His own quiet breath is the only indication he’s interested in this, but I like it more when he’s like this, almost bored. It makes me want to work harder for it.
I ride him slowly, my eyes trained on him, and he watches me, his hand gripping my chin. Heat coils through me, my thighs straining to lift me up before sinking again. Choked moans escape me as I quicken the pace, the sound of quiet breaths and skin slapping on skin filling the air.
“I think I’m the luckiest guy in the world,” Cole lets out a pleased hum. “I have two cocksluts constantly desperate to be filled.”
I let out a shaky breath when he grips my thighs, short nails digging into my skin. I’m sweaty and hot, but I don’t want to stop. I’m so desperate for him.
“Cole,” I cry, looking into his eyes.
“Yes, Kai?”
I writhe in his arms, circling my hips and clenching my hole tight enough that he hisses, and captures my lips with his teeth. I taste blood on my tongue. “I love you,” I tell him. “So, so much.”
He grins. “I’d raise hell for you baby. Fuck everything else, I worship you.”
My eyes roll back as he slips his hand down to my throat and snaps his hips up, fucking into me, meeting my thrusts.
Levi's lips meet mine as Cole pushes into me. “You’re so beautiful getting used like this, Kai,” he whispers. “You like getting used, don’t you?”
I nod because I do.
I do.
I think it with so much conviction it half scares me to death, but I know I don’t need to be afraid of what I want or like anymore. As much as I loved fucking Levi, there’s something about submitting to them because I know the reward will be so much sweeter. I like being theirs. I like being good for them.
Still feigning annoyance and rolling my eyes, I slide down to my knees and relax my throat. This will be a long night.
The sun is coming up by the time we’re finished, and I’m exhausted but satiated. There’s still a lot to process with Kenny and Adam’s deaths. I don’t know what I’m getting myself into exactly but looking at Cole, I know he loves me, and I have nothing to worry about.
“What did you want to ask me again?” I ask, comfortably slotted in Cole’s arms, my voice thick with sleep.
He shifts against me and Levi grins, looking over me at Cole.
“Would you like to move in with us?” Cole asks. “It's not a question. It’s more of a statement so, move in with us.”
My eyes widen. I shoot up to sit upright and look at them both. I wait for them to tell me it’s a joke but that doesn’t come. “What?”
“Move in with us,” Levi repeats, lying back on his elbows. “You’re here a lot and we don’t want it to be us and you. It should just be us. It is us.”
My heart does something weird in my chest. They want me to be with them all the time, the same way I want to be with them as well. It feels like I fit with them, like they fit with me. But there’s one problem.
“Jenna,” I say. “We—”
“We’ve already thought of that,” Cole says. “If she’s okay with it, we’ll buy you both out of your lease or pay your rent, whatever she prefers.”
I open my mouth to argue but looking at Cole, I know that will be pointless. He’s already decided, and my job is to say yes. “I want to move in with you,” I say. “But can I talk to Jenna first before saying yes?”
Levi smiles and reaches over to kiss me. “Of course.”
***
“I’m nervous,” Jenna murmurs.
I envelope her in a tight hug. “Everything looks amazing. She’s going to love it.”
We break apart, looking at our handy work. Our entire living room has been transformed into a romantic setting. Red rose petals are strewn all over the floors, tealights dance in the dark and in the centre is a table draped in white linen, all set for a candlelit dinner and a proposal.
“You think so?” Jenna asks. “You think she’ll say yes?”
Jenna has been talking about marrying Marie since the night they met. I know Marie feels the same. And even though Jenna was my friend first, they have both become my two closest friends. I’m happy they’ll finally be together officially.
“Of course, she’ll say yes. Knowing Marie, she won’t even let you finish before she jumps up and says yes.”
Jenna laughs nervously. We went to pick up the ring a few days ago. Marie had already given Jenna instructions on the specific ring she’d like—a cushion-cut diamond that is big enough to make someone go blind from its reflection. Jenna passed the test with flying colours. It is stunning.
When I told Jenna about moving in with Levi and Cole, she’d bitten her lip a little shyly and said she’d been thinking about moving in with Marie for a while now. They had already viewed a few apartments in the area, all with a second bedroom too in case I needed it.
Somehow, it’s all worked out perfectly and at the end of July, Jenna and I will leave our small flat and go our separate ways.
A part of me will miss her. We’ve spent the last three years together, but I’m also excited to be with Cole and Levi constantly. It’ll be a weird adjustment for all of us but I’m happy to do it with them.
“Do you want me to hang around for a bit longer?” I ask.
Marie is supposed to show up at eight. It’s seven-thirty now.
Jenna shakes her head. She looks beautiful, her thick blond hair falling around her shoulders, and her lips painted red. “Nah, it’s okay. I think I’d like to be alone before she comes anyway.”
I nod, hugging her tightly. “Let me know how it goes, okay? Good luck.”
I give her a quick kiss before making my way downstairs to Daniel waiting outside for me. He flashes me a smile and opens the door to the gunmetal grey Range Rover waiting for me because Cole hates the idea of me on public transport and I don’t have it in me to keep explaining that is how most people move around. I suppose the black card in my wallet would suggest I no longer fit the category of ‘most people’ exactly. For starters, I have two boyfriends, they are both disgustingly rich and slightly out of touch.
“Evening, Kai,” Daniel says.
I give him just as bright a smile. “Hey, Daniel. Thanks for picking me up.”
“Always at your service,” he quips, shutting the door behind me.
It’ll take a lot to get used to all the wealth and privilege they exist in, but I can’t allow myself to be insecure in it either. This is my life now and I hope it will be for a while.
As we ride through the city, my mind drifts to Kenny. I’ve tried not to think about him too much in the last few weeks. Mum said his family refused an autopsy, so they’ve put his death down as an accidental overdose even though I know that’s not the full truth.
His burial was a few days after his death, and I went with the twins to make sure they were okay. Mum chose not to, saying she couldn’t stomach it because of what he did. As he was lowered into the ground, I allowed myself to let the pain he gave me go down with him. I don’t have to be afraid anymore. With Adam gone too and I can tell Levi feels lighter. It’s like his eyes shine brighter if that’s even possible and his happiness is contagious. I haven’t stopped smiling in weeks.
When Daniel drops me off, I walk into the house that is beginning to feel a lot like home. I let the scent of it engulf me, placing my shoes right next to Levi’s and find Cole first in his office.
He looks up at me from behind his desk when I walk in. “You’re home,” he says.
I go over to him, holding my arms over his shoulders and he hums against me. He looks at me carefully, like he’s trying to see if I might have hurt myself somehow in the few hours I was away. It sends warmth through me, knowing that someone cares about me so deeply, they always check to see if I’m okay.
“How were the preparations? You smell like roses.” He wrinkles his nose.
I laugh, pulling away. “Oh, they were great. Jenna is nervous, but Marie will say yes so nothing to worry about,” I say. “I missed you the entire time though.”
“You did?” Cole raises an eyebrow, but I can tell it makes him happy.
I nod smiling. “I also finished the book last night. I hated it by the way. Too graphic,” I tell him. Cole’s taste can be questionable at times.
“That’s the point,” he says. “But okay, we can pick out a new one. Want to go book shopping?”
I nod, grinning, and this time I kiss him deeply, desperate to convey something I barely understand myself.
“What was that for?” he asks.
“Just.” I shrug, pulling away. “Where’s Levi?”
He’s quiet for a second then she smiles. “He just came from a run. I think he went upstairs to shower.”
An idea strikes me, and I grin. “Huh, I think I need a shower too since I smell like roses.”
Cole groans. “I have a call in two minutes.”
I shake my head, pecking him again. “Too bad. We’ll have fun without you.”
Levi is already in the shower when I walk into the bathroom. Steam forms a sheer cloud through the room, and I quickly undress before opening the door and stepping in. His hair is wet and hanging around his face, muscles taut, a perfect V pointing directly to his dick which I want in my mouth immediately.
He smiles when he sees me, pulling me in for a kiss. “Hey, baby. You’re home.”
I hold him close, deepening the kiss and letting the hot water from the shower soak us both.
Levi feels like home. Cole feels like home.
And it feels like, after years of searching, I finally belong somewhere. I found my perfect fit.