Chapter 24
24
I could’ve waited my standard, if arbitrarily imposed, week to visit Mr. Hart again, but I’ve got an expensive brand of Florentines in a cardboard box that I think he’ll love.
So four days later, I walk up the street to the Hart home, listening to a true crime podcast about an unsolved murder that changed one small mid-American town forever. This isn’t only about being the Good Samaritan, though I’m glad to do it. Seeing Mr. Hart makes me feel connected to Susie, it helps me fill this time that I suddenly have so much of, and so little use for.
I pause my podcast and ring the bell. My stomach does a revolution as moments pass, and the interior door is wrenched open by Mr. Hart. Junior. Oh shit. I should’ve anticipated Finlay might be here—his texts, the ones I’d left unreplied to, said: Next week . Here we are in next week, and unfortunately, here he is. The letters. My rash move. My stomach now feels like a cake’s being mixed inside it.
He has the hollow-eyed, stubble-shadowed, and slightly swollen look of the jet-lagged, and yet has the kind of bone structure where dishevelment only enhances him. The way a fresh haircut looks better when riffled by wind. The T-shirt and hooded zip-up top say “came straight from the plane.”
“That’s odd, I’ve just this minute been trying and failing to phone you,” Fin says, without a hello. His expression: sardonic j’accuse .
“Oh,” I say, taking my AirPods out like I’m removing clip-on earrings with a flourish in Dynasty , “I didn’t hear, I had these on, sorry.”
I feel guiltily grateful this is evidently true, even if absolutely nothing’s going to get better for me from here on in. I don’t have the letters, shit. I don’t HAVE them ... I remember how angry he was I was simply holding them back.
I hear Justin saying: It’s not for us to play judge and jury. I played judge, jury, and executioner.
I hard swallow.
“Come in,” Fin says, standing back. “My dad’s not here.”
“Oh, I’ll not bother you then...,” I say.
“We have things to discuss,” Fin says.
I expect he’s going to round on me about the letters and start wielding frightening New York City law firm names. Unless you want to hear from Carver, Cutthroat & Strank.
What do I say? Do I come clean? Do I spin him along, until a moment I’m not in front of him?
Instead Finlay heads off to the kitchen and comes back with a piece of paper. He holds it out to me, mouth a straight hard line. I take it, and read:
Ann, Sorry not to see you this week, but I’m on a jolly, as we used to say.
That nice friend of Susie’s with the black hair—name escapes me—suggested I visit my brother, Don, in the motherland, and I thought, why not! Reckon I’ll do the tourist spots first and see the old family pile, then call in on him. Here’s the cash and don’t worry about the ironing in the spare room, nothing that can’t wait. See you next week.
Iain
“Oh no...,” I say, limply.
“You encouraged my dad to travel to another country? Can I ask why?” Fin says. He’s not out-of-control angry but he’s on a war footing, in his black Converse boots.
“I didn’t encourage him,” I say, uselessly, in the face of hard evidence. “He showed me a wedding photo of his brother and I asked if he’d seen him lately... and your dad said no, and I said, erm.” Finlay’s gaze lasers holes into me. “... I’m sure he’d like to see you.”
Spoken out loud, in the silence of the hallway, I can hear how foolish I sound.
“I asked you not to visit, not to confuse him further,” Fin says, glowering intimidatingly from under his mussed sweep of private-school, pretty-boy hair. (Even though he wasn’t privately educated. Is that what he really hates me for, knowing where he came from?)
“I didn’t think he’d take me literally,” I say, gabbling, feeling oily with heat under my coat. “It was a figure of speech, like, oh perhaps it would be nice to... Not, absolutely, yes, crack on, go to Scotland immediately.”
“My father has Alzheimer’s. He doesn’t have the same responses to social niceties.”
Neither do you, to be fair.
“Is it really bad that he’s in Edinburgh, if he gets there safely? You could call your Uncle Don and explain he needs care...”
“He and Uncle Don didn’t speak to each other,” Fin says.
“Oh... right. Maybe your dad will have forgotten why, and Don will sense he’s not himself...”
“And Uncle Don’s dead,” Fin says. “So I’m not putting much hope in a reconciliation.”
“What?! Shit...”
“Are you going to be there when my dad finds this out, for the second time? Or the first, as far as he’s concerned.”
Oh God.
“I’m sorry,” I say, and Fin shakes his head.
He’s not a person you want to be in the wrong with.
“How long ago did he die?” My voice is small, the house is quiet.
Fin folds his arms.
“About five years.”
“How do you think your dad will react?”
“I don’t know. I don’t know how he’ll respond to the disorientation. He’s rationalized and explained his surroundings to himself, here. This is traveling back to a past that he’s living in and expects to find unchanged. It’s his present.”
“Have you told the police?”
“Yes, and they’ve notified the police up there, but being realistic, given my dad’s unlikely to be visibly out of his senses, they’re most likely to identify him if he walks into a police station. Nothing I’ve seen in my father, so far—and I include his life, pre-senility—makes me think he’s going to be telling any stranger in a uniform he’s not in control of a situation.”
Finlay Hart is very bright, I concede. Coupled with his nature, this makes me wary, rather than impressed.
“... Even if they pick him up because he’s confused, there’s not a lot they can do other than talk him down and alert me,” Fin continues. “He’s not been committed. He’s free to go if he wants to.”
Finlay pauses and blinks those dark blue, opaque eyes at me.
“I was supposed to have a care worker come and give him a mental capacity test this week. That’s not likely to happen now.”
“You really think he’s not alright to be here?” I say, gesturing at the house.
“I’m not sure. That’s why I want the tests. The cleaner found a kettle in the bath on one visit.”
“What? In water?”
“No, the bath was empty. She says he said he’d gone to fill it because the downstairs tap wasn’t working and forgotten about it. I think my dad knows something is up and is working hard to cover for himself. I’ve been researching dementia and this can be a thing. Verbally adept patients presenting as more ‘with it’ than they are, thinking on their feet, talking a good show. He’ll need a care home or assisted living at some point and so I have to set the wheels in motion now. It’s not fair on the cleaner to be my eyes and ears, as it is.”
I nod.
“I’m going to go up to Edinburgh to look for him. If he ends up in a pub, talking to a stranger at the bar, they may spot he’s not in his right mind. Aside from his personal safety, my father has a house, a car, savings, a working credit card, he wears a Patek Philippe watch. He could be taken for a lot.”
Hmm yes, also, that’s your inheritance , I think, ungenerously.
“But no mobile?”
“No. He had one years back and never turned it on and now it’s missing entirely, probably in a drawer somewhere with fifteen defunct cables.”
“Ah.”
“However, when it comes to recovering him if I find him, he has no idea who I am. He thinks I’m a neighbor who’s got him mixed up with someone else.”
“Yes...”
“And if this annoying neighbor turns up on the Royal Mile, saying hey, how about you come home with me, I don’t envisage that going at all well. To the point of hostilities breaking out.”
“Yeah...,” I say, in a sympathetic tone.
“If I pay for all your costs, your hotel room, could you come to Edinburgh and help me look for him?”
“What?” I say, face heating. I hadn’t anticipated this. “How would I help?”
“He responds really well to you. That note shows he even remembers your conversations after you’ve left. That’s a power pretty much no one has.”
“I don’t know...,” I say. I know I have to get out of this, I’m not sure how. “Can I think about it?”
Finlay’s eyes narrow. He’s way too smart for Can I think about it? ploys.
“OK, look. You helped create this problem. I’m asking you to help fix it, at no financial cost to yourself. That’s not unreasonable? You involved yourself, when I asked you not to. Uninvolving yourself at this point is pretty selfish.”
I make an indignant gasping noise at the word “selfish,” even though it is more or less a fair summary.
“Plus, if you do this...,” Fin says. “I’ll let the diaries and letters thing drop.”
“Really?”
He has me. The appeal of escaping that drama, when I’ve obliterated the items of value, is undeniable.
“Yes. I’m upset about it but I’m willing to let it go, if you help me.”
I lick dry lips.
“When do we need to go? For how long?” I say.
“Tomorrow. I’ll hire a car, drive us up, book us rooms somewhere central for a few days. Ann, the cleaner, has my number to call me if he appears back here in the meanwhile.”
“Tomorrow?! I have a job.”
“You can’t swing time off?”
“Hmmm. Maybe?”
Actually, our area manager Kirsty has been giving us strict orders about one of us booking holidays this month. No one wants crappy November when they could have party-filled December, and we’d been eyeing each other, wondering who’d break first.
And my neighbor Greta is always delighted to feed Roger, in return for a bottle of Prosecco and a box of chocolates.
I chew my lip.
An old-fashioned grandfather clock ticks behind us.
“I guess I could help. If it’s for a few days.”
“I’ll pick you up tomorrow. Message me where’s best.”
I WALK BACK to my bus, deep in thought and, possibly, second thoughts.
Why is Finlay Hart, born without a heart, the man who didn’t care about his mother dying and couldn’t bring himself to exchange more than a few terse words with his father and sister at her funeral, exerting himself to find Mr. Hart? He lives in New York, he could respectably wash his hands of this, leave instructions for his father’s return. As he says, his dad doesn’t know who he is.
In the minutes it takes for the bus to pull around the corner, I think—if it’s not love, could it be money?
Is it to get the will changed, if he’s been disinherited? Fast-tracking Dad to a home, house straight on the market, and no Susie to object or interfere? Or indeed, claim half. It seems possible.
If that’s the case, am I being an accomplice, by retrieving his dad? Putting a smiling friendly face to the plot? I rationalize: if it is that, I’m still better placed by his side if I want to prove it and prevent it. If Mr. Hart’s happy and safe at home for now, who is Fin to hustle him into care?
Ghost Susie’s voice swims into my head, immediate and unbidden.
You know what they say, Eve. To catch a thief, you have to climb into his rented Mercedes Benz S-Class.