38. Emerald
CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
EMERALD
I wasn’t going to lie. I’d seen my fair share of alpha-omega porn, but watching it in real time was… wild. It was probably the hottest thing I’d ever seen. The raw sexual prowess and the pleasure that could almost be felt from several feet away. I was transfixed.
As with most porn, if you’re into it, you can’t help but want to find your own pleasure. Even though Talya had been busy with Ronan, my alpha was sitting right next to me, as turned on as I was. Colby suggested we entertain ourselves in other ways because we were going to need that energy when it was our turn. Talya was going to need us later.
Let me just say that trying to ignore it was a feat of monumental proportions, which I only managed to do for a short time. When Ronan’s rut was over and he’d collapsed to the pillows with Talya still locked around him, half-heartedly rocking inside her, I crawled over to help her out because she simply wasn’t ready for a rest. I wasn’t sure how at first because, as I said, Ronan was still locked and likely would be for a while.
Before Ainsley, I’d been with a handful of people—guys and girls alike. All betas, of course, because they were what surrounded me. Physically speaking, they weren’t any different though. My point was, I’d gotten the basics down about how to foreplay with a woman.
So while I had the help of Ronan’s knot stuck inside her, I licked her pussy like she was a damn lollipop. It was hot as hell, too, the way she mewled and cried out. The taste of her orgasm as she spilled around Ronan and seeped out.
When her sounds became choked and muffled, I looked up to find Colby had given her something to suck on. I nearly jerked one out right then. This girl was the most beautiful woman I’d ever met, and to see her drawn out between us was so fucking hot.
Ronan must have enjoyed it too because he’d found some extra stamina in all those muscles for some more intense rocking of his hips, making our girl continuously cry out around Colby’s dick.
Talya was awake and needy for a solid seven hours before finally passing out, but Colby said this first break would be short. An hour tops, probably. I rolled away, panting. I’d never licked something for so long in my entire life. I was exhausted. My jaw was sore, and my balls fucking hurt from neglect.
Ainsley, who’d sat to the side to watch, kissed me and licked up all Talya’s juices like a starving man. As much as I wanted to be relieved of this maddening pressure in my dick, I was so damn tired. Thankfully, Colby did tell us to sleep while Talya slept, so I decided I was going to take him up on that advice.
I woke to Talya’s needy begging. Her whine was so damn sexy, but the way it made everything inside of me growl with the need to give her whatever the fuck she wanted was maddening.
I’d never truly explored my alpha side. There were moments with Kasen where it was more prominent, but that was primarily with purrs and growls and the desire to make him happy. To protect him and make him smile.
Up until Talya arrived, I’d thought that was all there was to it. Then she was here, and I experienced a bit more. Enough so that I was left confused again as my scent changed and the pull to her distracted me from the world until I got it under control. But now, while this woman was in heat right in front of me, I was feeling lots of different things. Lots of what I’d always been told were alpha traits.
I didn’t touch her more than clit duty for a solid twenty-four hours, but when all the alphas were resting, washing, or eating and Talya woke up, I felt the proverbial tag in. It was my turn.
It made me nervous because I was not an alpha physically. I just didn’t have a knot. Ronan said there were silicone knots in a drawer if I wanted one, but this was my first time with Talya. Even if it was selfish of me, knowing what she needed right now, I wanted to feel her naturally. Nothing between us.
Talya woke up in stages. First, it was just quiet whimpers as she slowly regained her heat-riddled consciousness. Those whimpers turned into whines that almost always set my hair on end, and I’d begin to growl. If she wasn’t taken care of in that moment, she’d wake up fully and begin begging.
Her begging drove me wild.
So while she was whining and before she leveled up into begging, I crawled over to her and took her up in my arms. She murmured something, her hands gripping me tightly as she wrapped her legs around me.
Despite the weird parts of me that had woken up and knew exactly how to respond to my omega, I was also keenly aware that I wasn’t what she needed. I was far too aware that this was our first time, and I didn’t think our relationship had progressed to this point.
This was obviously a big distinction between me, the beta, and all the alphas in the world. Alphas didn’t truly care what the relationship was. They simply instinctively reacted to an omega in need. Questions might arise later, but I didn’t think it was going to be the same as the reservations I had now.
They knew their place in the world and their responsibilities. There was no hesitation, no doubt, no reservation.
I had all of that.
“Please,” she whimpered when I’d continued to only rub my dick between her slick lips. “Please, alpha.”
It almost made me pull away and demand one of the alphas get over here. I wasn’t going to give her what she needed. I just didn’t have that ability.
But the neediness in her voice, the way she gripped me and clung to me, called on a different part. The horny man. I’d at least try to give this woman what she needed.
I pulled her around so that I was on my back and she was on top of me. Sliding her down my body a little, I adjusted so I could push up into her. I figured, if she could ride me, then she could take from me what she needed.
She was hot. Wet. The way her walls clamped around me had my eyes rolling. I understood now why these alphas had been growling with her. My growl was right there, just beneath the surface.
Talya rode me with single-minded determination, striving for her pleasure. She often achieved it, filling the nest with her orgasmic cries. It made my head spin. I gripped her hips and hauled her down on me as hard as I could while she rode. I needed to fill her. To please her.
Finally, I rolled us over and let myself go. Driving into her over and over, I reveled in the way she cried out. How she writhed beneath me. How her body arched in pleasure.
But the inevitable moment came where she begged for my knot. How did you tell an omega in heat that you didn’t have a knot to give her? I buried my face into her neck and shoved my cock inside her as deep as I could, trying to mimic the rutting behavior that I’d seen Colby, Ronan, and Ainsley display.
I knew the moment the alphas gave her a knot. Her sounds changed. It was a continuous keening cry of one unremitting orgasm that flowed like the tide. Always moving but sometimes more intense than others. The alphas’ movements changed, too, unable to fully thrust because they were locked inside her. They shimmied instead. Short, shallow, rapid rocks that I imagined felt more like vibrations than thrusts.
I dug my teeth into her neck, giving her something else she craved as I gave her every ounce of energy I had. Rutting little rocks.
She tightened around me, and the sensation made my eyes roll as I growled louder, nipping and sucking at her neck until she lapsed into that keening sound of knotted pleasure. I was doing something right. And fuck, the way it choked my dick. God, I’d never felt anything like this intense pressure that had me coming, though I didn’t let that stop me or slow me down.
It wasn’t until I’d somehow managed to please her enough that she fell asleep that I realized something was different. She hadn’t stopped begging for a knot because I’d pleased her in another way. When I tried to pull out of her, I realized that I… couldn’t. I was fucking locked there.
My breath caught. Well, it would have if I could breathe freely right now. I reached between us and gripped the base of my dick.
Shock didn’t cover my discovery, not even a little. It wasn’t huge, and I could feel that it was somewhat soft. But fuck if I didn’t have a magic little knot ballooned at the base of my dick!
Oh my fucking god. Ohmygod, ohmygod, ohmygod!!
Gripping Talya tightly, I closed my eyes and tried to calm my breathing. I was so lost in the moment that I was startled when Ainsley crawled in behind me, hugging me to his chest. I smiled.
“That was hot,” Ainsley murmured, licking my new bite on my neck.
I grinned.
We laid in silence for a minute before he said, “I love you. You don’t ever doubt that, do you?”
I shook my head.
“I want you here. I’ve always wanted you to be a part of my pack. To wear my bite. For you to live in my chest. You know that, right?”
I took a deep breath and held it, letting my lungs protest until I was willing to let the air out. “I do, but… I guess when you stopped bringing it up, I thought that maybe you’d changed your mind.”
His arms tightened. “I’m sorry. I didn’t know I needed to reassure you that nothing had changed except that I wanted you even more the more time we spent together. The more we got to know each other.”
I shifted a little to look at him over my shoulder. “Why didn’t you say so?”
Ainsley gently bit my lip. “I thought you knew, Em. I’d never seen any indication that you were doubting it.”
Resting my head against his, I shrugged. “I don’t know why I did. Logically, I think I knew that you hadn’t changed your mind. But as the days went on, this whisper in my head just kept getting louder and saying things… It wasn’t anything you did. It was just… life, you know?”
“I know now. I’m sorry. I love you. I want you every single day for the rest of my life, and I will make sure you know that.”
I smiled and closed my eyes. Chewing the inside of my lip, I gripped his hand. “I want to show you something.”
I could feel his amusement as I brought his hand between us. Gently, I guided his fingers to the point where he could feel my baby mock-knot. At first, he moved his fingers around it and I thought he was looking for the seam where he’d find the toy separate from my skin.
Then he sat up and tried to see. It made me laugh and Talya protest in her sleep.
Ainsley looked at me with wide eyes. “That’s you ?”
Behind us, Ronan snorted. “You act like you’ve never seen his dick before, Ains.”
Without answering him, Ainsley stared at me. I grinned, momentarily sharing this secret with only him. His smile slowly climbed until it split his face.
“Maybe you’ve just unlocked something new,” he said, lying down behind me and wrapping me and Talya tightly in his arms.
I snorted. “No idea. I don’t feel it. Do you feel yours?”
Again, Ronan snorted. I imagined this would look and sound awfully funny out of context.
“Yes. Kinda. It’s hard to explain.”
“I didn’t realize until I tried to pull away when she was asleep. I mean, she felt tighter, but… she’s an omega and they’re kind of scary magical creatures, anyway.”
This time, it wasn’t just Ronan snorting but Colby laughing quietly. Ainsley chuckled.
“We’ll see what we can find out, but for now, you should sleep. We sleep when our omega sleeps.”
As if his words had triggered it, I yawned, exhaustion covering me like a blanket. It was probably less than a minute before I fell asleep.