11. Chapter Eleven
Chapter Eleven
I feel like I am unable to sit still the entire drive back to the Duran manor. Even though I initially cowered in the face of my father, I feel like Theo leant me some of that strength of his to be brave.
It’s probably foolish of me to think that I am able to go up against Calvin again and come out on the winning side.
I’d hate to think that I would just cower the next time. .
“Can you guys teach me how to fight?” I blurt into the silent car. The guys hadn’t uttered a single word since ushering me back into the SUV. Their main objective was to get me out of there in one piece.
Jax startles beside me. He raises an eyebrow, assessing me as I look back at him in excitement.
“You want us to teach you how to fight, little Omega?”
I nod, “Yes. If that encounter today taught me anything it's that I need to be better equipped to go up against Calvin. He won’t stop even though you have told him to. If anything, this would have just lit a fire under his ass,” I shake my head, “I refuse to be at his mercy ever again. ”
Jax must be able to see the emotion on my face as he reaches over the middle seat to grab my hand.
“You will never be defenceless ever again, baby. But if learning how to fight helps you to feel better, that's exactly what we will do.
I let out a breath, “Thank you. I just… today has made me really see that I need to start taking control of my life. You guys have given me the opportunity to do that. I don’t want to waste it.”
“It wouldn’t be a waste. We are here for you. If you want us to fight your battles, we are here. If you want us to stand behind you while you fight them yourself, we will be there for you. Whatever you want from us, we are here.”
Tears immediately well up in my eyes at Jax’s words. While I had gathered that's how they felt, it still pulls at the heart strings actually hearing it.
It’s not long before we are pulling back up at the house. The trunk is full to the brim with bags. The guys insist on loading themselves up, so I am left to open doors for them. Theo gives me the code to the front door, claiming that he wants me to know it in case I’m ever not with them. Something I doubt, but I nod anyway, banking the code in my brain for another day.
I feel myself begin to crash the moment I get into my new bedroom. Like all of the adrenaline has finally worn off after standing up for myself against my father. Jax looks at me with sympathy as I yawn.
“Do you want to lie down, sweetheart?”
I shake my head, “No, it's okay. I should help you guys put everything away.” I go to grab one of the bags dumped on the floor but Theo beats me to it. “No chance, love. You look exhausted. Go with Jax and lay down. We will take care of all this. ”
I go to protest but am cut off yet again, “Omega, go lie down with your Alpha. Get some rest.”
I can’t help but shiver at the edge of a growl in Theo’s voice as he nods his head towards the open door.
I feel my panties slicken and scorn myself when three groans sound from the Alphas now glaring at me with heat in their eyes.
What can I say? Growls from these men are ridiculously attractive.
“Go,” Theo grits through clenched teeth, nodding with more earnestness towards the door. I can tell it pains him though, especially after the show Ledger and I put on for him and Jax earlier.
Jax grabs my hand and drags me towards what I assume is his room. Even though I want to stay and help pack away everything, I don’t complain as we head further down the hallway.
My Alphas scent hits me the moment we walk into his room. I smile as I take in my surroundings.
While the rest of the house gives off dark and gothic vibes, Jax’s room is the polar opposite. The walls are painted beige which gives the room a calm feeling. His unmade super king bed takes up one of the walls that looks out towards the grounds.
Jax lets my hand drop as he walks over to the walk in robe. It gives me the perfect opportunity to look around the room and do a bit of snooping.
I walk over to the desk in the corner of the room. It's relatively bare except for a laptop, folders for school work and a picture frame.
I pick it up and grin as I see a young Theo, Jax and Ledger smiling right back at me. By the looks of it, they are about twelve in the photo. They have that look about them that screams not a child anymore but not quite a teenager .
They are standing in front of a brick wall with their arms around each other’s shoulders. They look like they are unburdened by life. Like whatever mess they are caught up in now hadn’t darkened their lives just yet.
Maybe except for Ledger. I note a hint of pain behind his eyes, something that still lingers there in the moments I have looked into them today.
“The three of us have been friends for years now. From the moment we met, we knew that we were destined to be a pack,” Jax says as he comes over and hands me a stack of clothes.
I put down the picture frame and smile as I take them from him.
“When did things start to go further between you and Ledger?”
Jax chuckles as he leans against the window sill, “I had a feeling you would want to know more, angel.”
I nod. Of course I want to know more. Is he crazy? That kiss did things to me I didn’t know was possible.
“Things started to really progress when he turned fifteen,” he shrugs his shoulders, looking down at his feet that are now crossed over each other, “Ledger was broken when mine and Theo’s father took him off the streets. It took him a long time to come around to us. Once he did, we were instant best friends. I guess, once hormones started to kick in, we just began to see each other in a different light.”
I stare at Jax in shock, “You and Theo are brothers?”
I feel like I’m missing so much information. Or maybe I already knew and I just haven't been able to soak in the information. Not only am I exhausted from finally standing up for myself today, I now have a thumping headache from cognitive overload. I thought I had reached my limit earlier but this has officially sent me over the edge .
Jax pushes himself off the window frame. He grabs my shoulders, “Come on, sweetheart. Go get dressed. Then come lie down and I will tell you everything.” Jax nods at the bathroom beside the walk-in wardrobe. Closing the door behind myself, I quickly strip out of my clothes that now feel like they are irritating my skin. Keeping only my panties on, I pull on the tee, unable to stop the quirk of my lips not only at the texture of the shirt that quite literally feels like heaven but the fact it smells exactly like my Alpha. I don’t bother with the sweats Jax gave me as I know they will be way too big. That and his shirt falls just above my knees.
Opening the door back to Jax’s room, I walk over to the right side of the bed sliding right into the now half made bed.
Jax watches me with a smug look as I shuffle down into the soft sheets. He doesn’t waste any time hopping in beside me. He pulls me towards him so I am half lying on him, my head resting on his bare chest. A fact I have only just noticed.
Jax shivers when I place my hand on his chest. Unable to stop myself, I run my hand up and down the smooth skin of his torso.
I giggle as he shivers under my touch.
“Careful, Kennedy. Get me too distracted and I will lose all train of thought.” I look up at my Alpha, a foreign feeling coming over me. Before I can even begin to process what my brain is telling me to say, I blurt out my next words.
“Maybe that's exactly how I want you. Distracted and wrapped up in me.” Jax growls and before I know it, he has rolled us over. His body now presses against mine. Scraps of material separate the hardness I feel pressing against my wet heat. I can’t stop myself from whimpering at the feel .
It doesn’t matter that it wasn’t that long ago that Ledger was bringing me to orgasm in the shop.
After years of being starved for affection, now that I have it seemingly at my disposal, I’m insatiable.
Jax pushes his cock against my core, pulling a moan from deep within me. “God, you are beautiful when you moan like that. Your head thrown back exposing my bite.”
I can’t help but moan again at his words.
Jax chuckles as he moves against me again, “You like that don’t you, Omega. You like it when I talk dirty to you. You are going to be my good girl, aren’t you?”
I groan, gripping his shoulders, “Please Alpha, I need you.”
“Fucking hell. I’ll never get tired of hearing you call me Alpha,” Jax growls and he brings his hand up from its place on my hip to cup my face.
“Do you want me, Kennedy?”
Gone are the nicknames. Jax uses my name with so much serious. I know exactly what he is asking me. I nod eagerly.
“Do you know what that means? I won’t do anything you don’t want me to do. We can go as fast or as slow as you like. I don’t want to overwhelm you anymore than I already have.” I see the slight bit of regret in his eyes. It doesn’t take a genius to know that he wishes he would have taken his time.
Yet, as the hours have gone by, I can’t seem to hold it against him.
What’s done is done.
He is my Alpha and I am his Omega.
Him marking me without my consent took the decision from me. Something that I could never look back on in anger .
I didn’t realize that that is what I had needed all this time.
I needed my scent match Alpha to come and save me from damnation. I needed him more than I think he realizes.
Taking this step right now, with him, is the right thing to do. I feel it in my soul, where fragments of him now reside, along with two empty spaces I know are reserved for the two other Alpha’s down the hall.
I nod again but Jax shakes his head, “I need your words, Kennedy. I need to hear you say it. That you want me as much as I want you. That you want me to claim every single part of you.”
Without hesitation I say my next words, knowing they will change anything. The anticipation feels palpable.
“I want you, Jax. Mind, body and soul.”
Jax doesn’t waste a moment then as our lips are brought together in a kiss that sends butterflies through my stomach. It's a foreign feeling but it’s still incredible. Our mouths move against the other slowly before the hunger claims us. Our kiss becomes fierce.
Jax’s tongue invades my mouth. I allow myself to follow his movements. Even though I seem to have found some kind of inner slut, I still feel like I am thumbling around in the dark. Jax must seem to sense that as he breaks us apart.
“I need to see you. I need to feel your skin on mine.”
His hands run down my sides before he lifts the bottom of the shirt. I sit up, helping him to remove it. I don’t see where he throws it as I lie back down on the bed. As I look back up at my Alpha, I find him looking back down at me. His eyes are wide and heated, I feel like where they travel down me, burns.
“You are the most beautiful creature I have ever laid eyes on. I don’t know what I did to deserve such a perfect Omega like you. ”
Jax is careful as he runs his hands over the bruising on my side. His eyes change from lust to anger, “I’m going to kill that motherfucker for hurting you. I’m going to tear him from limb to limb. I’ll inflict every single second of pain he has done to you and double it. He will suffer at my hands,” Jax growls through gritted teeth, “Never again will I allow anyone to hurt you. You are mine. My Omega. I promise I will love you and cherish you to the day I die.”
Tears stream down my face at the brutal honesty that comes from Jax. I should be terrified of him. Here I am lying naked and vulnerable beneath him as he describes the way he plans on torturing my father.
Yet instead of making me want to bolt out of the room, it makes me want Jax even more. It makes me feel desperate for him to fulfil his promises to me.
To protect me in a way no one ever has before.
Jax brings up a hand to my face, wiping the tears I didn’t know had begun to fall away from my face.
“I promise you, Kennedy. You will never hurt another day as long as you are mine.”