Chapter 48 Timber #2
Before I can react, his arms are around my neck, and Ollie eases herself from my fingers so Kane can dominate my attention. My hand shoots out, refusing to let her go, but Kane has always been more nimble than I am.
He grabs my hand, pinning it to his hip instead.
“Tell meee,” Kane whines as he rubs his cheek against me. I roll my eyes because he’s acting like himself again. And he’s doing it so well.
“Come on, Timber. Tell me. Tell me.”
Since he’s wiggling his ass so well, I wonder if stroking his hair like a puppy will calm him down.
I bury my fingers through his soft, dark strands, drawing my nails across his scalp, tugging at him as I kiss him. And he easily shudders under me.
“What is it you wanted again?” I growl as my hand goes to his ass.
Kane’s moans become higher and more desperate as my finger finds his asshole.
He goes on so much about fucking me, but the moment I press my finger and his ass twitches, he shudders.
I love the burn of power that sizzles through me at watching Kane lose control.
I would never have seen it if it weren’t for Ollie and Kane and all their games.
“I’m not going to be satisfied until you tell each other how you feel,” Ollie says as she wraps her hand around Kane’s cock, and he bursts out with a cry. The rush of love I feel for them is so amazing that I’m smiling. And I can’t remember the last time I grinned like this.
Kane whimpers, and I watch him closely as his eyes shutter. I test my finger against his ass, already covered in Ollie’s slick, as I push one inside.
“Don’t, I won’t—” His warning is cut off as I press even deeper. I’ve done it to myself, but never to another guy, though it can’t be that different.
“I love you like this,” I say to him. “It makes me think I can fuck you when you’re bending and shaking your ass for Ollie and me.”
He chokes out a gasp, laughing through gritted teeth as I cup his chin, making him look up at me. He’s always so cocky, but his cheeks flush and he trembles as he grips my shoulders, filling me with satisfaction.
“I didn’t think you could tease like that,” he groans as Ollie speeds up her strokes. He’s fully hard again and grips my neck as he laps at my tongue, and I groan with him.
“Timber, baby—” His back arches as Ollie growls.
I can’t taste my own coffee, but the peace that sweeps through me as his lavender spins down my throat is perfect. I breathe into the kiss, and it feels like my lungs are truly clear after a decade of suffocating in silence.
“Are you going to come yet?” I ask against his lips, echoing the way he taunted Ollie.
If it were me, I would be spitting and swearing at him for playing with me, but his gaze grows so soft, and he looks at me with so much passion that I grit my teeth. “Because I won’t tell you I love you until you do.”
And fucking Kane Moretti whimpers as Ollie groans.
“I’ll come,” he chokes. “I’ll come, Timber, so please…” He grips me with trembling hands, suddenly so desperate. “Just tell me. Tell me you love me like I love you.”
I shudder as he kisses me again, so soft and fragile in my arms. He’s not crying, but his gentle whines taste so rare that I savor each sweep of his tongue.
I don’t want to let him go.
“What about now?” I growl against his lips.
He’s panting, shaking, one hand holding Ollie’s for support.
“I love you, Kane Moretti, so you better not take it for fucking granted.”
But he’s already fallen forward, crying out as he comes with his arms wrapped around me.
My eyes slowly close as I lick at his skin. It was obvious from the first moment I tasted him that we would end up here, but just one lick of lavender reminds me we belong together as much as we do to Ollie.
She shifts as she kisses her way down my neck. Ollie latches onto my collarbone, her lips running to the center of my chest, biting at my nipple with a smirk.
As quickly as it showed, the vulnerable, begging Kane slips away, but I’ve seen it now. He can’t hide it again, just like how I can’t hide my feelings anymore.
“I guess my next option is to fuck you, then, isn’t it?
” He smirks, his voice still trembling as he licks his lips.
“Or there’s always something else we can do,” he says as he leans forward and bites at my throat.
It’s hard enough to sting, but not deep enough to form a bond.
My eyes widen, and shock pounds through me.
With my hand still buried in his hair, I shoot up, yanking him away from me on instinct. Fear tears through me as I meet his needy gaze.
“What the fuck are you doing?” I growl. This wasn’t like them sucking on my chest for fun.
“You know what I want, Timber,” he says softly, and the afterglow of coming with them quickly vanishes. “And what I want from Ollie as well.”
I started it when I bit him during Ollie’s heat, and he’s been biting and scraping his teeth all over me ever since. But even when we kept falling in and out of rut, he’s never done it that hard.
It feels different this time. Maybe because it’s the first time I feel like asking him to go further instead of tearing him away. And that freaks me the fuck out way more than wanting to bite Ollie.
“Kane knows I won’t bond with him until you’re there,” Ollie says as she rises, though she keeps clinging onto my pec like she can’t let me go. “I’ve already told you, you need to be with me, too, Timber. You’re my alpha as much as he is, and I won’t accept a bite from either of you alone.”
Just the word ‘bite’ makes my fear spike higher. Ollie kept begging for it when she was in heat, but that was just part of her need. Now, her hazel eyes are crystal clear, and Kane’s serious look as I squeeze his neck in a pincer hold made it even more real.
“Ollie…” I don’t know what to say to her.
“We won’t rush you, I promise,” she says.
“You know Kane is going to push us here and there and act shitty until he gets his own way, but I’m not having it.
This is Timber’s choice,” she says as she glares at Kane, who grins back sheepishly.
“I really want to be with you both, and not just because you’ve got cocks and chests for days.
You’re my alphas, and that won’t change.
So we can wait if we need to. I mean, no wonder you don’t trust us, considering everything we’ve done to you. ”
“Did you suddenly forget he was watching you on his home security system when you were alone?” Kane jumps in, and we both narrow our eyes at him.
“Are you going to be like this about everything?” Ollie growls a warning, instantly turning us on.
Both of them move, taking a hand each and wrapping their fingers through mine.
We watch each other, the stillness around us settling as the question swells. And they’re both looking at me with hope as they wait for the answer.
Is it okay to stop them? What if I say no to a bite here, and they leave because I don’t give them what they want? Or they find a way to manipulate me and twist my mind so that I’ll bite them?
Looking at how tense they are and how much love has flowed between us in the past three days, do I really mind if they manipulate me into a bite? Isn’t this better than rejecting them because I’m scared of what hesitating might result in?
I want to be with them, and I know in my heart they’re my mates, but what if we become a pack and it all goes to shit? What if we break up years later? What if Ollie and Kane decide they don’t want me when I grow older? What if one of us gets hurt on the ice again, and Ollie has to live with that?
“Timber?” Ollie says, reaching up to sweep my creased forehead with her thumb like she did at the rink.
“You look like you’re being crushed by your thoughts.
” Her brow furrows, pulling me out of it.
I don’t want my omega to worry because I’m mildly panicking, but the anxiety is tightening my chest and crushing my throat.
I don’t want to disappoint them, but what if I’m rushing the decision? What if I’ve fallen in love with them too quickly, and it’s my alpha side pushing me? Can I deal with it if I suddenly wake up one day and realize I didn’t want the bite?
I told Carys to hold back and make sure she knew that she really loved the person she matched with, but how far is too far?
If I had kept holding back, I would have missed out on all of this.
I wouldn’t have experienced what it was like to be trapped between the two most annoying people in my life, and showered with affection again.
Their smiles are still patient, all of us naked, curled up in Ollie’s nest. The scents of our love drench us so heavily that I forget I’ve even lost my sense of smell. My body aches, my fingertips dance with tingles from just touching my mates, and my heart feels free.
Isn’t this what it’s about? Isn’t it best to hold on to it all now, even if I might lose them in the future?
I can’t say if I’ll ever fully trust them, but I believe they love me. And I’m more scared of missing out on them than I am of being fucked with like my ex-wife did.
That realization swamps me, crowding through my mind.
I bunch my fingers in Kane’s hair, my gaze dancing between them as the tense fear in my heart suddenly unlocks. I don’t want to live my life without them, and I want to take this leap, even if it’s fucking terrifying.
A smile spreads across my lips as I look at my mates. “Where do you want to bite me?” I growl.