21. Chapter 19
CHAPTER 19
Dean
I couldn’t remember a time when I’d walked around for so long with the worst case of blue balls. From the moment I’d seen Wren walking toward us on our bonding day, I’d thought of nothing but burying my face between her thighs and my dick down her throat or in her pussy.
And I’d yet to feel her cunt.
But I’d made damn sure Doran not only avoided hurting her when he tried to fuck her like he was with Winter but got her off. Three times. Once in the bathroom with his tongue, twice while he plunged that beautiful dick into her sweet, slicked cunt.
Fuck me, I wanted to be with her. But like we’d all agreed, I would let her set the pace, let her decide when it was time.
Although…I’d come right out and asked if she wanted to be with Doran. The two of them looked as though they were unsure of how to proceed, as though they almost needed a shove toward each other to get things rolling.
And none of my fucking packmates had been so generous as to point out that she might just enjoy riding me.
Instead, I’d sucked on Wren’s tits, stroked her clit, and kissed her while Doran fucked her two more times before they’d rolled over and snuggled.
They were now both out cold.
I could always fist my cock and jerk off, leave them both covered in my jizz. But Doran and I had never fooled around. Hell, my fellow beta had only ever been with Winter.
Until our beautiful omega snared him in her net.
Whether the others had been excited about adding a rare gem to our pack or not, they all felt the exact same pull now. They all felt the same protective urge I felt to keep her as close my side as possible, to make sure she was under lock and key at all times.
Which, of course, was fucked up.
While it wouldn’t be safe to allow her into public alone, even with Raece’s mark and covered in our scents, eventually, she would want to venture out for more than simply a day date with me and Matteo.
The others needed to spend more time alone with her. Specifically, Winter and Raece.
Raece was trying. It was obvious he was trying. But I had a feeling it would take a hell of a lot of groveling after breaking her trust within the first day of being with us.
Rolling off the side of the bed, I pulled the blanket over Wren and Doran, tucking it around them like the sexiest burrito in history, and grabbed my pants from the bathroom floor.
I had hoped to finally feel Wren wrapped around me when she’d invited me into the shower with her. But now…fuck me. It was starting to feel more like she saw me as nothing more than a friend.
I wanted so much more than that. And it went beyond solely carnal.
I wanted our omega to depend on me, to want me in her bed, to crave me the way she seemed to crave Matteo and Doran.
Well, she’d craved and begged for Mateo during her heat. Until Doran, she hadn’t slept with anyone else since.
The house was quiet, but I could hear the low droning of the television in the living room.
Long hair draped over the back of the couch; Matteo’s thick arms were fanned along the back. Had I not known better, I would have wondered if someone was on their knees between his thighs. But the giant alpha was simply chilling out and enjoying the short time we had with our omega before we all had to return to work.
“Doran, huh?” he asked in that deep timbre as I rounded the couch and plopped my ass directly beside him.
His arm dropped around my shoulders, and he pressed a kiss to my temple before returning his attention to whatever he was watching.
“Yeah,” I said, resting my head on his chest.
I had never felt the need to be overly macho nor did I have that super beta thing others talked about, the mojo other betas carried that could calm any situation, kept their alphas from going into rut, that kind of shit.
Although, I think I did a pretty good job with our omega during her first heat with her. Apparently, I had strong beta nurturing instincts, after all.
“I don’t think she wants me,” I muttered, spreading my knees to make room for my still rock hard dick. I swore it had stayed at full mast from the moment I’d laid eyes on my omega, and it had only grown worse since her scent had filled every inch of this house.
Matteo tilted his head down and frowned at me. “What makes you think that?”
My shoulders rose and fell as much as they could against the boulder that was my sexy alpha. “She let you knot her. She let Doran eat her out then fuck her. Three fucking times. The most we’ve done is make out a little. Flirt.”
“She hasn’t been with Raece or Winter, either. I don’t think it’s that she doesn’t want you. I think she’s…believe it or not, I think she’s actually waiting for all of us to make a move. Don’t tell me you can’t smell her perfume every time we snuggle on the couch. Or touch her. Or, you know, brush past her at all. She’s an omega in a house full of alphas and sexy betas. And she’s learning to trust us.”
“Don’t you think bum rushing her, ripping off her clothes, and slamming my cock into her cunt will do the opposite of earning her trust?”
His body shook with a chuckle. “I think she trusted you before any of the rest of us. You’re the only reason she let me into her nest during her heat. I think she’s waiting for you to make a move. Don’t be a coward. She’s ours. We’re hers. And I know you’re leaning around the corner listening so you might as well join us,” Matteo said.
I frowned and looked over the back of the couch in time to see Winter’s white-blond hair appear as he shuffled into the room, a sheepish look on his handsome face.
“They had sex?” he asked.
I nodded and waited to feel jealousy thrum down the thread connecting the pack. What came was lust, want, desire.
And a warm rush of affection.
“How’d he do? Did he hurt her?” Winter asked, lowering onto the couch across from us and resting his elbows on his knees.
Winter was soft spoken but fierce as fuck in the field and one of the most loyal people I’d ever met.
He also loved Doran intensely. And it was obvious he wanted his omega and his beta to form as close of a bond.
“I had to slow him down a bit. He looked like he was ready to devour her. But yeah…she came. A lot. First on his tongue, then two more times while he fucked her. He was…yeah. I think he gets my obsession now.”
Matteo and Winter chuckled.
I had never been shy about my sex drive or that I loved having my cock balls deep in a tight, wet pussy. But an ass or mouth sufficed, as well.
There was no missing the bulge in Winter’s pants as he leaned back and looked toward the stairwell as though he could see through the walls to where Doran and Wren slept in each other’s arms.
“I was so…she likes him. She feels safe with him,” Winter said with a nod.
“I think Raece is the only one who still makes her nervous.”
We all turned our heads toward the stairwell again as though Raece would suddenly appear. I assumed he’d gone to bed after I excused myself to check on Wren when she headed to shower.
I had planned on seducing her, but instead found Doran doing his best to please her. Or maybe he was simply enjoying the sweet slick of our omega.
Matteo hugged me closer, a purr rumbling from his chest. And I wasn’t sure whether it was from contentment, joy over the fact our omega was finally feeling as though she was part of the pack, or whether he was trying to ease my slight sting of rejection.
“You haven’t been with her yet?” Winter asked me.
“I mean, I’ve been there when Matteo and then Doran was with her. But…no.”
“He thinks she doesn’t want him,” Matteo said.
Winter huffed a sarcastic laugh. “Please. She watches you like you’re the sun and the moon. She wants you. But I…I think she thinks you don’t want her. Which is fucked up with all the flirting you do.” He shook his head with a smile. “Why don’t you make the first move?”
“That’s what I told him,” Mateo said.
“Is it possible to die from blue balls?” I asked, dropping my head back against Matteo’s shoulder.
“I’m surprised you haven’t headed to any bars yet,” Winter teased. “Or bullied your way into one of their rooms,” he said with a jerk of his head in Mateo’s direction.
We were all in nothing but sweats. And I was mildly shocked Winter was still up. Although, if Doran wasn’t in bed with him, he’d probably struggled to fall asleep.
Pushing a hand through my hair, I sighed. “I haven’t wanted anyone else. Since she got here…the thought of fucking some anonymous person makes me feel like I’m, fuck , I don’t know, cheating. I mean, Raece fucked me after he marked her and I didn’t feel bad about that.”
“He’s pack. Fucking one of us isn’t like fucking a stranger,” Matteo said, pressing another kiss to my temple.
“You think…” Winter started then trailed off.
I waited a minute for him to get his thoughts straight or finish his thought. When he didn’t say anything else, my nerves frayed.
“What?”
“I’ve always wanted to be a dad. You think she’d be willing to carry a child for us someday?”
My brows popped up. We had discussed parenthood briefly early on when we packed up.
But that conversation hadn’t simply been tabled, it had been buried in the backyard. As far as the Omega Center knew, we would be doing our best to knock up our omega during every cycle.
But she didn’t act as though she wanted to be a mom, and our life was dangerous as fuck. We’d been lucky our enemies had yet to discover where we lived or that we’d been able to return home after every assignment not filled with bullet holes.
“ Do we want a child? I mean, yeah, Wren would be hot as fuck with a round belly and big tits. Big ger tits. And we could spoil the shit out of any son or daughter. But…what if something happens to one of us? Or all of us. Then she’d be not only left alone with our child but would be passed to another pack of alphas. Is that something we want to put her through?”
The softest growl rumbled from Matteo, and I knew it had everything to do with the thought of any other alpha being near our sweet, feisty omega.
After a few minutes of the three of us stewing over all the what-ifs and the possibilities of our omega one day being in someone else’s life because we were killed, Winter nodded and pushed to his feet.
“I’m snuggling with my beta and omega tonight. See you in the morning.”
“That’s not a bad idea,” I said after Winter climbed the steps. “The bed is big enough for all of us. Point of a pack bed and all.”
And another opportunity for me to be naked near my omega.
But I would also be on the outskirts since Doran was already on one side and Winter would now be taking up the other.
I loved taking her on that date, loved doting on her and spoiling her. But not like I could fuck her in the middle of a store or restaurant.
There were five of us and only one of her. I had to share her with my packmates.
“What’s going on in that sexy head of yours?” Matteo asked, his eyes refocused on the TV screen.
“Fuck if I know.”
He turned his upper torso to stare down into my face, his intense stare doing almost as much as his alpha bark could do.
I sighed under his scrutiny. “I was the only one who wanted her here. I was the only one willing to roll over and show her my belly. And I think I’m being friend zoned by a woman I want more than I knew possible. More than just feeling her body. I want to see that look Winter described. I have never seen her look at me like that. So, either he’s seeing shit or she’s hiding it from me. And we all agreed to let her set the pace of our time together, but–”
Matteo silenced me with his lips. When I gasped, his tongue swiped into my mouth and his hand clutched the back of my head to keep me in place.
When I started to melt into his touch, he finally pulled away. “Why the fuck do you question everything?” he asked, leaning his forehead against mine before pulling back to look into my face. “If I had to guess, I would say she loves you. In love with you? I don’t know. But she definitely loves you. She trusts you. And she wants you. I think if you were to throw her the slightest hint you wanted to get her in bed, she’d climb you like a tree.”
“How have I not thrown her a hint? I’ve talked about nothing but sex from the first moment we had her in our house.”
He raised one dark brow. “You always talk about sex. It’s your coping mechanism. Instead of having real conversations, you turn everything dirty. As far as she knows, you’re simply teasing her. Instead of playing Don Juan, why not give her a romantic moment, a night, show her exactly what you want – her .”
My breathing still came in deep pulls from Matteo’s kiss. He pushed his fingers through my hair, then cupped my head to bring me in for another, softer kiss.
“Now,” he whispered against my lips, “let’s get rid of those blue balls until you come up with a plan for our omega.”
When he reached down to pull my cock from my pants and dragged me onto his lap, I let all doubts fly from my mind and enjoyed what only my alpha could give me – the reassurance I was an important part of the pack.