CHAPTER 8 #11
“I trust, Mr. Darcy—I sincerely trust—that matters of so delicate a nature have been adjusted in a manner entirely satisfactory to her ladyship’s superior judgement, which must, of course, remain the principal consideration in every domestic arrangement of this magnitude!”
Mr. Darcy moved farther into the room with a composure that mercifully shortened the speech before it could develop into a full sermon, though Elizabeth noted a severity in his countenance that was not entirely habitual.
It was not the fire of anger she perceived now, but rather the heavy fatigue which follows a great exertion of spirit when duty remains unlifted.
“The matter is concluded, Mr. Collins,” Darcy replied, addressing the room at large with a deliberate calm that seemed to cool the entire parlour.
“Mr. Wickham will not remain at Rosings. Certain arrangements have made it proper that he should resign every expectation previously connected with the living at Hunsford and depart from this county immediately. Lady Catherine wishes the matter to proceed with as little public disturbance as possible, and she expects the household to maintain a similar discretion regarding the unfortunate events of the morning.”
There followed a silence so profound that the ticking of the mantel clock seemed unnaturally loud, and Mr. Collins sank back into his chair, though less from conscious intention than from physical necessity brought on by the shock.
“Leave Hunsford?” Mr. Collins repeated faintly, his eyes wide with a mixture of horror and clerical confusion. “Entirely? Is it possible that he is to depart this very evening, without even a formal farewell to the parishioners or a final accounting of the parish records?”
Mr. Darcy’s response was as brief as it was final.
“This very hour, sir.”
Mr. Bennet, observing the scene with the air of a man who had expected no less and was only mildly disappointed that the world had proved itself so predictable, folded his hands over his waistcoat.
“Well,” he remarked, with a dry turn of the mouth, “there is a certain elegance in prompt departures. They save everyone the laborious task of pretending profound regret on the morrow.”
Elizabeth lowered her eyes, partly to conceal a flash of amusement at her father’s wit and partly because she had already turned instinctively toward Anne, whose expression had altered into something very near quiet relief.
It was not triumph, for Anne de Bourgh possessed too much honesty to triumph in the public disgrace of another, however deserved.
Rather, it was the expression of someone who had at last ceased the weary business of waiting for the worst to happen and discovered that reality, however painful, was at least a burden that could be set down.
Darcy’s voice softened perceptibly when he spoke again, his attention turning toward his cousin with a protective grace.
“Lady Catherine asks to be excused from our company for a short time. She finds herself somewhat indisposed and has retired to her private room to recover after so much agitation. Her ladyship wishes me to assure you all that she intends to receive everyone again this evening, and she hopes you will do her the honour of remaining for dinner, provided such an arrangement is convenient to your own plans.”
Elizabeth looked up at once, her gaze meeting Darcy’s with an earnestness that surpassed mere politeness.
“I hope her ladyship is not seriously unwell. It would be a great misfortune if the trials of the day were to rob her of her health as well as her peace.”
There was, for the briefest moment, something in Darcy’s expression that made Elizabeth understand more than his carefully chosen words allowed.
“No,” he answered. “My aunt is only fatigued by the necessity of asserting her authority, and I have every confidence she will be herself again by the dinner hour—which, I suspect, is a condition for which the rest of us must now prepare to endure.”
Even Anne allowed the faintest smile to touch her lips at that, as though she appreciated the private truth beneath the dry humour.
Darcy continued, his manner becoming more practical.
“In the meantime, Lady Catherine thought a walk through the park might be preferable to further confinement indoors. The weather, I am assured, has been under sufficient discussion to justify a practical inspection.”
Mr. Bennet rose from his chair with considerably more readiness than he had shown at any other point during the long afternoon.
“On that point, I find myself in complete agreement with Lady Catherine. A landscape, unlike a talkative clergyman, rarely improves by prolonged indoor consideration.”
Mr. Collins looked as though he doubted whether walking among ancient trees could be considered morally appropriate under such scandalous circumstances, but as refusal where Lady Catherine was concerned bordered dangerously upon rebellion, he bowed in humble submission.
“If her ladyship considers physical exercise conducive to moral reflection, I can only admire once more the superiority of her judgement in matters both physical and spiritual.”
“Then we are all saved from our own thoughts,” Mr. Bennet replied, with sufficient dryness to end the debate.
Elizabeth rose and turned gently toward Anne, extending her hand with a warmth that felt like the beginning of a quieter friendship.
“Would you join us, Miss de Bourgh? I think the air of the park may prove kinder than sympathy, and certainly less exhausting than remaining stationary in this parlour.”
Anne looked at her for a long moment, and something in that silence held gratitude deeper than words would have improved.
“Yes,” she said quietly, her voice carrying more steadiness than before. “I believe I should like that very much—provided the company remains as agreeable as it is now.”
Darcy offered his arm to his cousin with a gravity that required no display to show affection, while Mr. Collins followed close behind, already preparing, Elizabeth suspected, an internal account of the day’s calamities.
Mr. Bennet took his daughter’s arm with the visible satisfaction of a man escaping both social scandal and theological instruction.
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The door to her private chambers clicked shut behind her, and Lady Catherine de Bourgh stood for a moment in the silence it left.
The woman whose very name had for decades served as a fortress of social order, sank into the plush velvet of her armchair.
Her limbs felt strangely heavy, as though the weight of her own pride had at last become a physical burden.
For the first time in her memory, the silence of Rosings was not a sign of peace, but of suffocating isolation.
A sob, jagged and raw, broke from her throat, startling even herself in the stillness.
Lady Catherine was utterly alone. There was no shoulder upon which to lean, no confidant to whom she might whisper the full magnitude of her humiliation.
Her sister, Anne—the only truly reliable soul her life had ever known—was gone, and with her had vanished the last refuge of uncritical loyalty.
She stared into the dying embers of the hearth.
Her nephew Darcy had warned her, with all the solemnity of blood and affection.
Her daughter had recoiled from Wickham from the very moment his shadow crossed the threshold of Rosings.
Yet Lady Catherine had dismissed them all with the careless movement of a hand, blinded by a vanity she had mistaken for discernment.
Her gaze wandered to the door. She thought of Mrs. Fairfax, a woman of kind and steady nature, but a servant nonetheless; Catherine’s own rigid pride forbade such a confession. She thought of Mrs. Jenkinson, whom she had dismissed like a petulant fool in her haste to be alone with her new vicar.
The memory of Mrs. Jenkinson’s gentle intrusion now returned like a physical sting: “It must be a heavy burden, your ladyship, to stand alone at the head of so grand a house. If ever you wish for company, I hope you will call upon me.”
Catherine closed her eyes tightly, hot tears tracing paths through the rouge she had applied so carefully for him.
How she had scoffed at that offer then, treating it as the overreach of a dependent rather than the kindness of an honest heart.
Now it stood before her as a debt of companionship she could never collect without first confessing the full extent of her disgrace.
A fresh wave of remorse washed over her. Accursed was that moment when, instead of driving him away like a rabid dog, she had smiled at Wickham with patient indulgence—less a mistress of the house than an almost willing accomplice to her own undoing.
She could still hear his hushed, honeyed tone, vibrating with false intimacy: “I hope you do not think me forward, but your eyes command attention far more than any sermon I might ever deliver.”
And she—the formidable Lady Catherine de Bourgh—had behaved like a foolish girl.
She had felt that shameful, fluttering embarrassment and had found no strength to rebuke him properly, no coldness sufficient to put him in his place.
Worse still, she had found the comparison amusing.
She had laughed—nothing more, and yet enough.
Wickham, who could scent weakness faster than most men could scent rain, had taken that laughter for silent permission.
He had lowered his voice, leaning into that dangerous space reserved only for equals: “Forgive me, my lady, but I must remark—there is a youthfulness to your laughter that would shame many a debutante.”
The shame of it burned hotter than the fire. The truth was now laid bare, and George Wickham was gone—a common thief, preying upon houses and inheritances—and she would never see him again.
That certainty brought with it a fresh and far more private pain: he was perhaps the only man for whom she had ever permitted herself even the faintest shadow of love.
With Sir Lewis de Bourgh, marriage had been property, consequence, and arrangement.
They had lived together for long years in a state of mutual correctness, but she had never felt loved by him, nor had she ever truly loved him.
She had been a wife, a mother, a chatelaine, a ruler—but never simply a woman desired for herself.
And George Wickham, of all men, had made her believe—if only for one humiliating season—that such a thing might still be possible.
She tried to straighten her spine, to force her breath into the steady cadence of a great lady. She must leave this failure behind. She must return to her senses, to her authority, to the ‘regal bearing’ that had carried her through every other disappointment life had seen fit to offer.
Yet even that dignity now felt like a weapon he had stolen and turned against her.
“Few ladies possess your regal bearing, Lady Catherine; Rosings itself seems to shine more brightly in your presence.”
His words again. Even her pride had become a mockery, reduced to hollow phrases whispered by a lecherous flatterer. What a fool she had been to believe his tender smiles, to mistake practiced admiration for devotion, and calculated caresses for genuine feeling.
“What a fool I was,” she whispered into the empty room, her voice breaking beneath the weight of her own judgement. “What a blind and miserable fool.”
Lady Catherine looked down at her hands, trembling in the firelight. For all her wealth, all her rank, all the formidable dignity of Rosings itself, she sat alone in the dark and understood at last that the walls around her were no longer a fortress, but a prison built partly by her own vanity.
“Enough,” she said at last, forcing herself to stand, though the tears had not yet ceased. Her voice was unsteady, but the command in it was still her own. “Enough of this.”
She rose, smoothed the invisible creases of her skirts with trembling fingers, and rang for the maid to bring tea.