Chapter 27 Gia
Gia
“Oh, fuck that’s cold.” Goosebumps race across my skin. Then Holt is licking up the line of ice cream he just spread between my breasts. Fire races across my skin, heading straight to my clit.
“Hmm,” Holt hums, the vibrations adding to the overwhelming sensations. “I never want to eat ice cream any other way again.”
He slides the spoon down my belly, ending right above my pubic bone.
The contrast of his warm tongue is just about more than I can bear.
I look down my body, where Holt’s made a home between my thighs.
His eyes are dark with lust. I’ve never been wanted so intensely before.
It’s more than my brain is willing to accept, and yet it’s craving everything from him.
His acceptance of my needs has been playing over and over in my head. I had no idea how he would react to me being up front about not wanting kids. I kept waiting for him to say I was being dramatic or that I was crazy. Instead, he accepted me as I am, without any reservations.
I wanted to jump him right there in the restaurant.
He sucks my clit into his mouth, and I gasp.
“There she is. I lost you for a second.”
“I was actually thinking about how much I want to suck your dick.”
Holt raises an eyebrow, moving back up my body. “I think we can arrange that.”
My giggle turns into a gasp when he wraps his arms around my waist and flips our positions. Our skin sticks together from the ice cream, but I can barely focus on it with the way his thick cock is nestled perfectly in my slit. I roll my hips, making us both moan.
“If you keep that up, I’m not going to be able to stop myself from fucking you until we both explode.”
“Was that supposed to be a deterrent?” I kiss him as I continue to roll my hips.
“Only if you still want to suck my cock.”
I freeze, deliberating my options while Holt laughs. I start to slide down his body, but he grabs my biceps. “Turn around. Let’s see who can make the other come first.”
“You’re on.” I move to straddle Holt’s face. He doesn’t waste a second, diving right in for my clit and momentarily distracting me. “Cheater.” I wrap my fist around his length, taking him as far down my throat as I can in one motion.
“Fuck, Rainbow.” He grunts against my center.
I work him hard, but my hips are grinding against his mouth, and I know I’m going to lose this bet. Instead of conceding, I lift off his face and turn to line his cock up to my entrance. I drop down in one smooth slide, digging my fingers into his chest to keep my balance.
Holt slides his rough palms up my thighs to grip my hips hard enough to bruise.
He thrusts up as I drop down, our skin slapping with each movement.
He hits something deep inside me that no one else ever has before, and I have to bite my lip hard to keep from crying out in ecstasy.
The girls seem to sleep like rocks, but I’m always careful of how much noise I make.
Then his thumb is pressing against my clit, and I’m exploding around him.
Holt continues to pound into me, prolonging my orgasm as he finds his own release.
Aftershocks shoot through me as I start to come down from the high.
Small pulses of pleasure spread from my center until my body finally relaxes.
I melt into his chest, my breath sawing in and out of me.
It’s then that I realize what we did. “Holt.”
“Hmm,” he grunts. His hands move lazily over my skin as if he doesn’t have a care in the world.
“We didn’t use a condom.”
He freezes. “Fuck, Rainbow. I’m so sorry. I wasn’t even thinking. I’m clean, so you don’t have to worry about that.”
“I’m sorry too. I wasn’t thinking past, need cock inside me.”
Holt barks out a laugh.
“I promise I’m clean. I got tested after our one-night stand and haven’t been with anyone else but you. I also have an IUD, so we should be good on that front too.”
“Okay, that’s good. Are you freaking out right now? After what we talked about at dinner, it would be okay.”
I rest my chin on the back of my hand. “I’m actually not. Is that stupid?”
“It’s not stupid at all.”
“I trust you, Holt. With a whole lot more than my body.”
He slides his big hand down the side of my face, tucking some loose hairs behind my ear. “That means more to me than I could ever tell you.”
I push myself off Holt and walk toward his bathroom, ready to set my big emotions aside for the night.
From Holt’s expression, I think he recognizes my tactic. “Anything else on your mind?”
“I was going to ask if you’d be interested in playing with my ass, but if you want to continue talking about other things, be my guest.”
“Now, wait just a second.” Holt springs out of his bed to grab me around my waist, making me squeal with laughter.
“Daddy?” The little voice startles me out of sleep.
I look over to find Leah standing on Holt’s side of the bed with her teddy bear clutched to her chest. It’s actually a little creepy, the way she’s hovering next to the bed. “Lee Lee? You okay?”
“I had a bad dream.”
“Leah.” Holt shoots up, his stiff body melting when he sees her standing next to him. “Hey, baby.”
“I dreamed of Mommy’s crash.”
Well, shit. That’s heartbreaking.
“Aw. I’m sorry, sweetheart. Come here.” Holt reaches out to pull Leah into bed with us.
She snuggles into his chest with a sniff.
I rub her back, wishing I could take away her pain.
Holt looks at me over Leah’s head, and I prepare myself for him to ask me to leave.
This isn’t really my job. I’m not their mom, and I understand why he’d want space to comfort his kid.
Instead, he reaches out to pull me in tighter to the snuggle.
“Daddy?” Lauren’s quiet voice comes from Holt’s doorway.
Holt closes his eyes, a resigned breath falling from his chest. “Come on, Lo Lo.”
She races over and climbs up from the foot of the bed. I move back to give her space between Leah and me.
“I’m glad you’re here, Gia.”
My chest warms at the sweet smile Lauren gives me in the moonlight. I never imagined my life could look like this.
There are days when I still question what the hell I’m doing, dating a single dad with two girls who need stability in their lives.
My friends can attest that I’m the least stable person they can think of, and yet, lying in this bed with this little family makes me wonder if I might be better equipped than I ever believed.
I’m too disillusioned to think that it will always be this easy.
Holt and I are going to fight. The girls will have bad days when they’re not the sweet little babies they usually are.
And while I’m scared of messing something up, the one thing I know I can count on is Holt discussing it with me instead of giving up on me.
For so long, I’ve gone through life with a blasé attitude. If I never cared about anything, I couldn’t get hurt. It allowed me to build this shield between myself and the world.
The first night I stayed at Holt’s house with his girls, that shield started to get heavy. I didn’t want to be the woman who held herself back because she was terrified of the unknown anymore.
But that shield was comfortable. It had molded to my arm, and dropping it wasn’t as easy as I wanted it to be.
I knew the second I set it down, my squishy heart would no longer be protected.
It took some time to trust that Holt wouldn’t take advantage of that vulnerability.
His constant openness and honesty have proven how protective he will be of my heart.
He’s made it easy to trust that I’m safe to open up to him about my emotions.
I’m not going to be perfect, and it’s going to take some time to bare myself completely, but I’m willing to work at it.
At the very least, I want to show these girls that being vulnerable doesn’t mean you’re weak. It’s a lesson I had to learn the hard way. I don’t want them to go through life the same way I did.
“I’m really glad I’m here too, Lo Lo.”
Holt reaches across the girls to put his hand on my arm, connecting all four of us. His gaze meets mine over their heads. The moon reflecting off the snow through the windows gives me enough light to see the love in his eyes.
And for the very first time, I don’t have the urge to run from it.