Chapter Twenty #2
Did she have any idea what those words did to him?
How did they make him want to possess every inch of her?
“Fuck, you’re never leaving my house,” he rumbled as he placed hard kisses down the column of her throat.
“I’m gonna fucking keep you. Own you, Beth.
You’ll never remember life before I got inside you. ”
Her head hit the wall as she gave him more room to work. “Yes, I want that.”
He stared her in the eye. “No more fucking condoms. Not a goddamn thing between us.” They’d already discussed and decided, shared test results, and she had an IUD. “Every time I fuck you, I will fill you with my cum from now on.”
They weren’t necessary or wanted.
“Please. God, that’s so hot.”
He hooked two fingers in the triangle of her tiny fucking panties and yanked. The material tore with ease. Beth’s eyes flared molten with desire before slamming closed.
No way. An out-of-control need to embed himself in every cell of her body tore through him. When he was through with her, he’d be imprinted on her very existence, and she wouldn’t be able to breathe without thinking of him.
He sank a hand into her hair. “Look at me when I fuck you.”
Her eyelids fluttered, and then those gorgeous green eyes stared into his soul.
He grabbed his dick, running the tip through the wetness at her entrance. Beth gasped and bit her lower lip. The move was so sexy his hips acted of their own accord, propelling him into her with a powerful thrust.
She clutched his shoulders. If it weren’t for his leather cut, he’d have nails cutting into his skin and leaving marks for days. Maybe he should burn the damn garment.
The scorching, wet clasp of her pussy brought such a violent surge of carnal bliss that it took him out of his body and to another plane of existence. He slapped his hand on the wall next to her head, using his other arm to hold her up as he fucked her like it would be the last time.
Beth cried out, he bottomed out over and over. She rode him, hips working furiously to bring them the most pleasure possible.
“Saint…” She whimpered and whipped her head back and forth against the wall. “It’s so good.”
“Keep looking at me, baby,” he said, voice deeper than usual. “Wanna see my favorite eyes when you go over the edge.”
Her gaze softened, mixing affection and care with the lust. “Everything about you makes you my favorite,” she whispered.
He rolled his hips into her, pressing deep and holding there.
They stared at each other for a moment, breathing heavy.
A vortex of emotions he’d never had to define before swirled in him, expanding his chest until it threatened to burst. He peeled his hand off the wall and smoothed his thumb over her swollen lips before cupping the back of her neck.
“We’ll make it work,” he whispered.
She blinked rapidly. “H-how?”
Since he didn’t have an answer, he kissed her, tasting the desperation and worry on her tongue. He might not have a solution yet, but he would.
Nothing and no one would keep him from Beth.
Not jealous women he had no interest in.
Not drug dealers.
Not even an MC president.
As much as it would kill him to walk away from the club, he’d do it for her.
Copper might not like that, but he had to understand. He’d made impossible choices to protect Shell. Choices that changed their entire lives.
With their lips sealed together, the tone of their fucking changed to a more sensual, emotional coupling. Slower. Deeper. The frantic edge smoothed into something that felt dangerously like making love.
Feeling connected to her on every level, knowing she wanted more, changed fucking everything.
Repeatedly sliding into her tight heat had his balls drawing up within minutes. His lower stomach clenched with each jerk of his hips. Before long, his movements grew uncoordinated, and his muscles spasmed.
Saint ripped his mouth from Beth’s. “Eyes on me.”
She nodded, mouth open and panting. “Fuck,” she whispered. Her back arched off the wall, and she shouted his name as she came. Her eyes darkened and glazed over, giving him a view straight to her heart and soul.
At the first rhythmic clench of her channel, he lost the last threat of sanity and came, flooding deep inside her. Their gazes held as he gently fucked her through the orgasm. When her legs went slack, he stopped moving.
Beth tilted her head and gifted him a beaming smile. “We signed a lease,” she said, joy radiating from her.
Saint burst out laughing. “That why you attacked me the second I walked in the door? Lease signing gets you all hot and bothered?”
Her cheeks flushed pink. “No,” she said, slapping his shoulder, then she pursed her lips. “Well, maybe a little.”
“Congrats, baby.” He leaned in and kissed her. “That’s fantastic news.”
“It is!” She did a happy little wiggle, which had intense sensation shooting through his oversensitive cock, making him gasp. “Oh, sorry!” Her laugh negated the apology.
“Sure you are.” Gently as could be, he slipped free of her warmth and lowered her legs to the floor.
Beth frowned. “I liked it better up there in your arms.”
God, she was too damn sweet. “Me too.”
“I should get cleaned up.” She pointed toward the bathroom. “And find some underwear you haven’t shredded.”
He chuckled at that. “If you left any here, I can’t make any promise that I didn’t tear them up.”
“Perv,” she said, laughing as she strode past him toward the bathroom.
Fifteen minutes later, wearing sweatpants she’d left at his place, Beth sat next to him on the couch. He immediately lifted her legs into his lap, turning her to face him, then took her hand and interlaced their fingers. Hers was so much smaller, yet fit like they’d been cut to interlock perfectly.
Beth stared at their joined hands with intense concentration.
“Hey,” he said in a low voice.
She glanced up, and the shimmer in her eyes hit worse than the most brutal gut punch.
“No, baby, don’t…” Fuck, the thought of her crying over him, over them, crushed him.
She blinked and forced a weak laugh. “I’m just being stupid.”
“You aren’t. You couldn’t be stupid if you tried.”
“Ha. You forget how you found me a month ago.”
“Beth, that wasn’t stupidity. That was fucking survival.”
She shrugged. “Yeah, well…”
He tucked a lock of hair behind her ear with his free hand, then smoothed his thumb over her cheek.
“I want this, Beth. I want you. For real. Not just quick, secret fucks or dinners hiding in my house. I want dates. I want to dance with you at club parties. I want you in my lap, wrapped in my arms, when we sit around the bonfire with our family. I want entire nights to explore you. I want to wake up, slide inside you, and hear you moan my name first thing in the morning. I fucking want you in every aspect of my life.”
A tear rolled down her cheek, breaking his heart.
He swiped it away with a gentle brush of his thumb.
“Saint,” she whispered as she nuzzled into his palm.
“I want that too. So much that I can barely breathe because of it. Every time I leave you here by yourself, it feels like a limb is being torn from my body. I ache for you, lying alone in my bed at night. But I don’t know how to move forward without causing chaos. ”
“We’ll make it work. We will find a way. Beth, I’m a stubborn motherfucker when I want something. If I have to, I’ll leav—”
“No!” She pressed her fingertips to his lips, squashing the life-changing words he’d have spoken. “I will not let you do that. I can’t be the reason you lose your family, Lee. That would destroy me. We’ll find another way. Promise me you won’t do that.” Her voice trembled with near panic.
He kissed her fingertips, then gently pulled them from his lips. The words scraped like glass coming out. “All right. I promise.” He’d have done it. In a fucking heartbeat, he’d have walked away from everything for her. But he swallowed that truth and gave her the lie she needed.
He might not have a choice anyway. Once Copper found out, he might be cast out of the family, no matter what he promised Beth. He just hoped they’d let him live.
“Okay. Good. Thank you.” She shifted until she straddled him. After a sweet, desperate kiss, she wrapped her arms around him and lay her head on his chest, clinging to him like a monkey. Saint slipped a hand under her shirt, stroking up and down her back as he stared off into space.
They stayed that way for a long time, taking comfort from touch and enjoying the peace of each other’s presence.
This was worth fighting for.
This was everything, and no matter what happened, he’d find a way to keep Beth by his side.