Chapter 46
JESSI
Iwake up wishing last night was a dream. I don’t want to deal with Jack’s unstable emotions, so I text Sonny, and we decide that retail therapy will help.
We spend the day window shopping and getting makeovers at Sephora.
I don’t usually wear makeup, but whatever.
I want a change, a confidence boost and a new beginning.
At lunch, I decide to come clean to Sonny.
She’s been a great friend since I stepped foot in the club, and I don’t want to hide something this big from her.
“So,” I start, “Jack and I might not be just neighbors. I’ve had a thing for him since I moved next door in January. However, when everything went down and I started to stay with him, things started to shift.”
She munches on a burger. “Go on.”
I twist my hands. “Okay, so it started with some flirting, and then we fell asleep on the couch a few times, and then he called me baby.”
“What!” she shrieks. “You have pet names? That’s a lot more than flirting!”
I bury my face in my hands. “I know. I know. Then the night that Natasha blew up, he was turned on by how jealous and territorial I was. He gave me my first orgasm on the side of the club.”
She stares at me with wide eyes and her mouth open. “So you guys had sex?”
“No.” I shield my face. “He gave me an orgasm with his thigh.”
She takes a long pull of her drink. “Okay, wow.”
I bite my cheek. “But right after that, he told me he was too old for me and I needed to be with guys my age. I got pissed, and now here we are. What do I do?” I whine.
She takes another long drink and a bite of her burger, then another long drink.
“Sonny!” I yell.
“OKAY! Well, do you like Kade?”
I throw my head back. “I do. He’s a nice guy, but honestly, I can’t be with anyone seriously if I can’t get Jack out of my head.”
“You need to talk with Jack and put it all on the table. I don’t know how you’ll live together if you aren’t together, but you both like each other, and you’re both jealous. I fucking knew it.”
I lay my head on the table. “This is what I’m scared of.”
For the first time I have a home that I want to return to each night, and I’m terrified to ruin what Jack and I have. I hope I’m not too late.