Chapter 21
Twenty-One
FELIX
T he amount of pride I feel when Ember passes out is ridiculous. Her eyes roll back in her head and then close and she lets out a tiny, quiet gasp and then she's dead weight, arms and legs going slack.
I let her feet down to the floor and scoop her up into my arms and carry her to my bedroom. Settle on the bed with her in my arms and get comfy, holding her on my lap, her head on my chest. My hard-on is at an awkward angle, pinned in place by her hip, but I stay still, accepting the discomfort.
Nothing matters but her.
Less than five minutes later, she stirs, nuzzling my chest with her nose and lips as she rouses. Blinking up at me, she wrinkles her nose. "Wha—? What happened?"
"You passed out."
A slow, hot smirk curves her lips. "You made me come so hard I passed out?"
I can't help a cocky grin. "Seems that way."
She moves her hip against my hard-on. "And you enjoyed yourself, did you?"
"Making you scream my name? Making you come so hard you pass out?" I brush a thumb over her lips. "Yeah, sweetheart, I enjoyed myself." I bend and nip her lower lip. "More to the point, I enjoyed you .”
She grins at this. "I think that means it's my turn to enjoy you .”
She shifts to straddle me, grinding her pussy against my cock, leaning over me so her big soft tits brush my chest in tantalizing, swaying circles as she presses kisses to my breastbone and pecs, pausing to run her tongue over my nipples. Down and down she kisses until she reaches my shorts. Looks up at me. Grins.
Tucks her fingers into the waist at my hips and tugs the shorts down an inch and then another, until the tip of my cock is peeking out. She flicks it with her tongue, making me jerk and gasp. Grinning eagerly up at me, she parts her lips, moving with slow intention toward my erection. Pulling the shorts lower, she fits the tip of my cock inside her mouth, slowly lowering my shorts while taking more of me in her mouth. The shorts reach my knees and I hook them with my toe and kick them off. Her hands slide up my abs, reach my nipples and pinch until I gasp, cock pulsing in her mouth.
"Em," I breathe.
She hums in response, the vibrations shivering through me. Backs away until her lips reach my glans, her tongue sliding against my frenulum; back down until I hear a soft gag, and then her tongue tickles and slides against my length on the way up. Ember's hands scour and carve over my body, exploring me.
When I feel my climax start to rise, I pull her away. "Ember, wait."
She frowns up at me, wiping at her lips. "Why'd you stop me?"
I haul her up my body, settling her astride me—her sex slots against my cock, a soft damp tease of what I need more than anything else in this world. I cup her glorious ass in one hand and palm her cheek with the other. "Because I don’t want to come in your mouth this time,” I say.
Her cheeks go pink. "Felix…" She rests her cheek against mine, lips near my ears. "I'm scared."
"Of what?"
"I don’t know. I just am." A short pause. "Of really and truly falling in love with you," she whispers, her words barely a breath in the golden afternoon light.
I free her hair of the messy, loose, coming-apart braid, feather my fingers through the platinum locks so they curtain in kinky waves around her shoulders. Touch her chin with a fingertip, keeping her face tilted to mine. Kiss her—soft, slow, and gentle. Pull away, touch my lips to her ear. "I'm already really and truly in love with you."
Her arms snake around my neck and cling hard, her face going to my throat. "Fee."
The way she whispers my name like that, a breath, a mewl—as if she doesn't know what to say, so she just says my name…
I love it.
"Say my name again."
"Fee." This time it's breathier.
"I'll wait for you to be ready. You don't have to love me back yet." I cup her cheek, brush her hair away from her eyes. "It's okay. I'm here. I'm not going anywhere. Not ever."
"I…" I hear her swallow hard, feel her twitch her hips, teasing a slide of her sex against my cock. "I'm not on birth control."
I reach to my bedside table and open the top drawer, pull out a brand new box of condoms. She takes the box from me, eying it and then me. "I…"
"Ember, there's no pressure. None. I'm in love with you. I’ll wait." I take the box back and toss it into the drawer.
Her eyes fill with tears. She blinks them away. Shakes her head. "I don't want to wait. But I…I know it's silly, I'm just…I don't know why I'm so scared to do this with you."
"You don't have to. Not if you're afraid."
"It's the last thing. The gateway to fully moving on for real."
"And that's okay. I understand." I sit up all the way, settling her sideways on my lap. "I'm not in a hurry. I fucking want you more than my next breath, Ember." I touch her lips to silence her so I can finish. "But even more, I want to be with you only when you're completely ready for it."
"I don't want to be like this, Felix. I just want to be yours. I'm all over the place. One second I'm thinking about how badly I want you to take me from behind as hard as you can, and the next I’m…like this." She gestures at her tear-streaked face.
I let out a ragged sigh. "Can't say shit like that to me, babe. I'm barely keeping it together here." I lean in and kiss her wet cheeks. "It's okay . You hear me? It's okay . You have to feel what you feel."
She searches my face. "You're in love with me? For real?"
I snort. "Ember. C'mon. Of course I am. What do you think all this is about? I fell in love with you the first time I saw you."
She frowns. "The first time you saw me, all you saw of me was my ass."
I shrug, grinning. "Yep."
She rolls her eyes, huffing. "That's so sweet," she deadpans, sarcasm ripe in her voice.
I grin all the more. "It was love at first sight and only got better the more of you I've gotten to know."
Her expression softens. "Fee, god. That actually is sweet."
Heart pounding, I go for broke. "I fucking love you, Ember James. I'll do anything for you. Including keep waiting."
At my words, she tears up again, but this time it's with a smile. "When you say that, I'm a little less afraid."
"Then I'll say it a thousand times.” I kiss her lips. "I fucking love you." Lips to her left ear. "I love you so fucking much." Right ear. "Ember James, I am so fucking in love with you it's crazy."
She shudders all over, whimpering. "Fee." That breathy utterance of my name again, fraught with emotion. "Again."
She twists on my lap to straddle me, sliding back so my subsiding erection angles between us, pointing at her navel. "Tell me how much you love me, Felix. Please?"
"With all my fucking heart."
She grasps my cock and strokes it. "Yeah?"
“Yeah." I gasp. "It's scary, sometimes. I look at you and I can't remember life without you."
Both hands caress my length. "That's what's so hard, Fee—I sometimes have a hard time remembering life without you, too."
I put my hand over her heart. “He's here, Ember. Always."
She nods, watching her hand slip down my shaft, twist, and slide up again in a slow, sinuous stroke. "Fee, I…"
"You don't have to say anything," I tell her.
"Can you promise me one thing?" she asks.
"Anything."
"Don't hold back." She reaches into the drawer and grabs the box of condoms, opens it, tears one packet free, tosses the box back into the drawer, and rips the foil open with her teeth. Withdraws the ring of latex. Meets my eyes, hers serious and deep and swirling with a universe of complicated emotions. "Don't be sweet all the time. Don't be gentle. I'm not made of glass and I'm not…I won't—"
I clutch her face in my hands, cutting her off, my forehead against hers as she caresses my cock to full erection. "I promise, Ember. I will never hold back."
She rolls the condom onto me hand-over-hand, making me shudder and hunch forward. Rises to sit up tall on her knees in front of me, straddling my thighs. Balancing with one hand on my shoulder, she reaches between her thighs and grasps my cock, guides me to her entrance. Once I'm notched between her lips, she hovers there, touching her forehead to mine, arms locked around my neck.
"Fee?" she breathes.
"Yeah, baby?"
She sinks onto me, impaling herself to the hilt on my cock in one slow, smooth drive. "I love you."
I gasp as her hot wet pussy wraps around me, tight and slick. "Ember—fuck. Oh my god, you feel incredible ."
She pulls back to look into my eyes, her mouth hanging open and trembling, eyes wide. "Fee!" She circles her hips, taking me deeper yet, even though that should be impossible, since I was already so deep inside her it ached. "Fuck! You feel…"
"Tell me," I growl, grabbing a handful of her amazing, perfect, full, round, plump, glorious ass in each hand, pulling the cheeks apart so she settles even lower on me. "Tell me how I feel inside you, honey."
She sinks her teeth into the meat of my shoulder, groaning as she lifts her ass off my thighs, sliding my cock almost out of her. "Fee—fuck! You feel—oh god… so fucking good." She slams back down with a guttural shriek. "Oh my fucking god— FELIX !" My name is a ragged, disbelieving female snarl.
"Talk to me, sweetheart." I dip to suckle her tit into my mouth, biting her nipple hard enough to make her shriek and jerk, slamming down onto me hard. "Tell me what you want. Tell me how it feels."
"Your cock," she whispers, resting her elbows on my shoulders with her hands in my hair, holding me to her chest as she sets a slow, grinding rhythm on me. "It's so fucking big, Felix. It's perfect inside me. Made for me. So big and it hurts so good."
"Your pussy is so fucking tight, Ember," I growl. "Like a vise."
She clenches around me. "Feel that?"
"Oh fuck, yes, I feel it. Do it again."
She squeezes me again, even harder, and I nearly come right then. "Feeling you inside me is…it's so much better than I could ever have imagined or fantasized."
"Did you?" I ask. "Fantasize about me?"
"Of course," she breathes. "What do you think I was thinking about when I was masturbating in the shower every morning? You, Felix."
"Me what? Specifically."
She doesn’t answer immediately, lost in gasps and whimpers as she rides me faster now, my cock slicking through her folds with wet squelches that only fires me up all the more.
"This," she gasps. "Us. I fantasized about all the ways I want to fuck you."
“How, Ember? Tell me everything."
"I want—" she whimpers as her pace stutters, her belly spasming as a climax starts to ripple through her. "I want to…oh fuck, I'm gonna come already. I want to ride you just like this. I want to be beneath you, watching you fuck me. I want you to fuck me from behind and I want you to slap my ass until it hurts. I want to make love in the shower. Out on the deck. In your truck. At the office. In a house you’re building with your workers a floor below. I want to suck your cock when you least expect it. I want you to take my ass—I've never done that and I've always wanted to. I want everything , Fee. Everything with you. All of it." She hooks an arm around my neck and fits the other hand between us to press a finger to her clit, wailing abruptly as her climax ramps up to set her to shaking all over. "Oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck !"
I lean back to give her room for her hand, then lift her so I can get my knees beneath me, giving me better leverage to thrust. Her eyes close and she hangs onto my neck and fingers her clit and rides me as hard as she can, her ass slapping my thighs loudly—but even that sound is drowned out by her screams as she finally lets go.
"FELIX!" My name is a wail, and then it becomes a series of wordless, ecstatic, breathless shrieks as she bounces on me, tits shaking and swaying and jiggling beautifully, her ass slapping my thighs and flattening as she smashes herself down onto me with every thrust.
She comes, and her pussy squeezes my cock so hard it makes it difficult to thrust into her, and still she comes, shrieking and screaming and wailing with sensual, erotic abandon.
I don't dare even blink, wanting to soak up and memorize very second of this, of her, a goddess made flesh fucking me to wild climax, her white-blond hair a long curtain around her waist and shoulders, head thrown back, breasts high and huge and proud and shaking with the vigor of our lovemaking.
She can't even form words as she comes apart, hunching forward over me as her climax rips her to pieces.
Her eyes snap open. "Fee, baby."
“Yeah, Em."
"Come for me." She lifts so I slip out of her, and then she lays backward on the bed. "Come fuck me. Come inside me, Fee."
Her eyes are hot and wild, the conflict and the pain and the fear gone, replaced by need and by desire and by love.
I move over her and she reaches for my cock, eagerly fitting me to her slit and taking me back inside her, eyes rolling back in her head with pure ecstasy as I fill her.
"Oh my fucking god , Fee, the way you feel inside me," she claws both hands into my ass and pulls at me. "So fucking good. You fill me. You complete me. You make me whole again. You make me whole in a way I’ve never been."
I start slow, one hand braced beside her ear, the other caressing her breasts, pulsing slow shallow thrusts into her.
She pulls at me, encouraging me to go faster, to go harder. "More, Fee. Harder. Please."
I dip to kiss her. "Not yet."
She growls in frustration. "I want it, Fee. I need you. I need you to come. I need you to fuck me."
I go slow and sinuous. “Not like this?"
She whimpers. “No! Hard . Fuck me as hard as you can, Felix. Please ."
I cup her cheek, still moving slow and gentle. "Look at me, honey."
Her eyes fly open, wet and fraught. "What?"
"Don't look away, Em. Don't close your eyes. Stay with me."
"I'm with you."
I push deep. "You feel me inside you?"
She shrieks as I thrust again. "Yes! I feel you, Fee. I feel you."
Her eyes start to close. "Keep your eyes on me, honey. Don't look away."
Tears flow. "Fee, I can't. It's too much." She shakes, trembles, weeps.
"Stay with me," I command, moving slowly, still, soft and gentle and smooth and sinuous. "Eyes on mine."
She gazes up at me with fierce determination, tears streaming even as she meets me thrust for thrust, wantonly, desperately, needing me to let loose. "Fee! Oh god, Fee. It's too much. Too much."
"Look at me, baby." I cup the back of her neck and gaze down at her as I move.
"I am," she sobs. "I'm looking, Fee."
"You feel us?"
"I feel us."
"I love you," I whisper.
She lets out a cry, tears flowing freely, spasms overtaking her. "Fee! Oh god, Felix. I love you! I love you!"
"Come for me, sweetheart," I murmur. "Right now."
"I—oh! Oh! Felix! I—I'm coming! Oh god, Felix, come with me, please god, come with me!"
I let myself go, finally. I let my control snap; I give myself to her completely. Burying my face in her throat, her legs wrapped around my ass and pulling me to herself and thrusting into me, I give her everything I have.
"YES!" she screams, clawing my back so hard it burns, definitely leaving marks that I'll be tempted to turn into tattoos. "FELIX!"
I bellow and roar, guttural and going hoarse as I fuck her with all of my strength and passion, driving into her as hard as I can. She takes every ravaging thrust and screams for more, using her legs to pull me deeper.
I feel her coming, and as I come, she squeezes around me and shakes, and then she lets out a raspy, shocked whimper, head thrown back as her orgasm wrenches her to a new peak of ecstasy.
I feel wetness gush out of her and soak both us and the bed beneath us at the same time that I reach my own climax, hunched over her, pounding into her—as my orgasm leaves me shuddering and panting and gasping, she's still coming and coming, spasming and squirting.
Slowly, I float back to earth, sagging to give her some of my weight.
She caresses me everywhere her hands can reach as we breathe together.
"I love you, Ember."
She pushes my face up so she can look at me. "I love you, Felix." She dissolves into giggles. "We made a bit of a mess."