Chapter 18 Making Up
It has been about a week since the fight. I would like to say everything is back to normal but it's not. Although Sam has apologies to me I am struggling to be buddy buddy with him. I felt so close and connect to him first. He was the person that I wanted to go to about my problems and out of all my brothers I felt like he was the one I always wanted to talk to. But after what he said I can't look at him the same. I kind of feel alone now. Jere and Wes were attached at the hip so it felt like I was third wheeling. They were always nice and tried to include me but it just didn't feel the same.
We had all just gotten home from school and I went to my room to do my homework. I hadn't been going to the library because I didn't want to be around Sam. I flipped my TV on and found a movie on Disney plus to watch as I worked. I had a big English paper due next week and I wanted to get it out of the way now. As I was working on it I heard a knock on my door.
"Come in." I yell without looking up. I hear the door open and footsteps walk into my room. I can feel who every it was standing behind reading over my shoulder for a minute.
"This is why I teach math. I would hate to grade that." Reuben said.
"Why is it bad?" I finally take my focus away from the computer and turn to look at him.
He shock his head as he backed up to sit on my bed. "No no it's not that. From the little bit I read it sounded very good and like you understand the topic you're arguing very well. However you're on page two and it doesn't sound like you're even close to done. I would hate to have to read a hundred and fifty of those. I would hate to have to read the ones that are really bad too. I don't know how English teachers do it. I feel like after reading about twenty I would throw in the towel and just give everyone an A."
I laugh a little "I guess we should ask Logan how he does it."
"We should." He chuckles. "Speaking of brothers when are you going to talk to Sam again?"
That throw me off guard but it really shouldn't surprise me. Reuben was always the one to get straight to the point and not tip toe around it. "I don't know."
"Well he looks pitiful always sulking around. Plus our family dinner is so awkward now." Reuben sighed.
"He said some pretty mean things Ru."
"I know sweetie but he is family. Plus I can tell it bugs you more not to talk to him then what happened." Reuben said and I sighed. He was right, I was miserable I missed my best friend.
"It's just hard I feel like I have no one now."
"What do you mean sweetie? You have seven brothers I figured you would feel like you had to many people around after being on your own or just around the Smiths."
"I mean that's true but everyone pairs up here. Ben and Bruce, you and Logan, Jere and Wes. You all are partners in crime. Sam was mine and now he's gone." I didn't realize it hurt this much until I said it. I felt the tears well up and pour over.
"Aw sweetie he's not gone he's down stair just as miserable as you if not more. I haven't seen him mope around this much since Mom took you away. He was young but you two have always been attacked at the hip since the day you were born. He cried every night because Dad wouldn't let you sleep with him. It was kind of cute he would swear he would be extra careful in his sleep and not smush you. However Dad always said it wasn't safe. Sometimes we would find him in the morning laying on the floor in your nursery. He said he always wanted a baby sister and when he found out Jere and Wes were boys he cried. It was so cute, he said he was sick of brothers. You had us all wrapped around your finger when you were born but for Sam it was different. Go talk to him it won't be the same for a while but you have can build back to that. But in order to build a building you have to lay down at least one brick."
What will kat do when she is faced with the people she and her brother love. Will she be able to choose who she will be with. Or will she leave them all behind? She neve...
"You're so cheesy." I groan slight laugh through the tears.
"Shhhhh don't tell our brothers I have to keep up my bad boy fa?ade up." He stands up kissing my forehead. "Do you want me to go with you?"
"No I can do it on my own."
"Okay I will see you at dinner. I have test to grade." He smiles and walks out of my room.
I sat there for a few minutes trying to build up the courage to go talk to Sam. I was about to get up when my phone dinged.
Jaz: Hey Kat how's your day been? Meet any cute boys?
Jase: Ugh can you talk about cute boys in your own text not our group text?
I laugh and decided to mess with Jase texting back.
Me: GIRL YES!! I was going to Reubens class today and bumped into a senior and he was HOT!!
Jaz: Tell me more!!!!!!!
Jase: NO DON'T TELL HER MORE.
Me: Well I almost fell and he had to catch me. He has the most gorgeous blue eyes. And the best ass. He asked me out and I totally said yes!!
Jaz: Oooooo girl squeeze that ass for me. How are do you think your brothers will take it?
Me: I am not telling them shit! Fuck that!!
Jase: THATS IT I AM TELLING PA HE IS WAY TO OLD FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Me: Damn Jase calm down.
Jaz: He is such a baby!
I shake my head and just throw my phone in my pocket making my way to the library to find Sam. He was in his usual corner working on a computer typing away fully focused.
I cleared my throat pulling his attention towards me. "Ummm hey Sam."
"Hey Kat everything okay?"
I nod feeling my nerves and anxiety kick into over drive. "Yeah I am fine just wanted to talk to you I guess."
He looked shocked and closed his lap top. "Okay sure.... What's up?"
"I am sorry I have been ignoring you it's just....." I pause taking a deep breath as I feel the tears start to fall. "You said some pretty hurtful things."
"I know and I am so so sorry. I will never forgive myself for saying those things to you. I have no rhyme or reason for why I said those things. I guess it was just all too much change and so fast. We found out you were alive and moving in so quickly even though it's amazing and I love you. I wouldn't wish it to go back it's just my girlfriend was the constant in my life and I guess I didn't want that to change." He starts to cry. "I don't even know why I am babbling. Look Kat I have been so torn up lately and it's not because I lost Tiffany it's because I feel like I lost you all over again." He sobs out breaking my heart.
"Well maybe we can start trying to mend things?"
His eyes light up and he nods. "I would love that." He stands up and pulls me into a bone crushing hug.
"KATHERINE ELIZABETH KENSINGTON!!!" We both jump as we hear Ben yell my name from somewhere in the house.
"What did you do?" Sam looks down at me horrified and I just shrug.
It doesn't take long before Ben and Reuben come storming into the library looking pissed.
"Young lady who the hell is this hot boy with the best ass?" Ben glared at me with his arms crossed.
"What?" I asked lost as all get out.
"Who is this senior that you bumped into today? The one you're going to go behind our backs to see?" Reuben roared.
"You're going to hook up with a senior? I will fight him! That's way too old for you! Who is he?" Sam said in shock then in anger.
"I have no clue what you all are talking about." I shrug.
"This!" Ben held out his phone and I saw screen shots of my text with Jaz and Jase. You have got to be kidding me.
"I can explain. That's just a joke. I was just saying it to annoy Jase. There is no guy." I say shaking my head.
"Don't lie to us. Who did you bump into?" Reuben glared.
I sigh. "Reuben you picked me up at cheer today I never even went to your room."
I watched as his face went from mad to being confused to realization. It's like you could see the gears turning. "She's telling the truth she never came to my room today."
"Fine we can move on to the next topic at hand." Ben said crossing his arms. "That mouth of yours is unacceptable."
"Technically it wasn't my mouth. I didn't say it I texted it." I sass not even thinking about the repercussions.
I knew I messed up when everyone in the room had wide eyes. Ben's changed from shock to anger in a flash. He grabbed my arm swung me around and then landed five hash slaps to my butt. "Well since you texted it how about your phone is now mine." He growled through his teeth.
"That's not fair!" I cried rubbing the sting away from my checks. "If Jace wasn't such a butt you would have never known."
"Well I guess you can blame your brother then. Now go to your room until dinner is ready." Ben pointed to the door and I huff stomping my feet out. As I pass him he slaps my butt one more time. "Loss the attitude Katherine. Now!"