Chapter 24 #2
His perky cock caught my attention.
“I want that inside me. Sooner rather than later.”
With infinite care, he removed his fingers. He slathered lube on his cock, then positioned himself at my entrance. “You ready?”
“Of course. I’ll always be ready for you.” Too cheesy? Possibly. But a heartfelt sentiment.
Slowly, he pressed inside me. The burn was expected, as was the relief when his crown was in. Inch by inch, he pushed inside me. Then he’d pull back a bit and thrust forward. After a bit of time, he was fully seated. He leaned forward to press a kiss to my lips. “You. Forever.”
I pressed my thumb to his sweat-slicked brow. “Yes. For both of us.”
He moved.
I adjusted.
He withdrew almost all the way, then pushed back in.
I grunted.
He repeated the action, thrusting harder.
“More, Pumpkin. I can take it. I promise you.”
With clear determination, he increased the intensity—both the timing of the thrusts as well as the force used. He grunted as he continued to push me higher and higher. “Your cock.”
“On it.” I grasped myself and tugged along to the rhythm he set.
We had a game—who could hold off the longest. Because we were each gentlemen and wanted our partner to come first.
He’d once let it slip his ex-husband wasn’t nearly as considerate.
“I need you to come, Daddy.” More sweat broke out across his brow as he nailed my prostate over and over again.
“You first, Pumpkin.” Even as I said the words, though, my balls drew up. “I’m coming.”
“Oh, thank Christ.”
Even as cum erupted from my cock, he thrust once more and then held still.
Our gazes clashed.
The sensation of flying overtook me. Only with him. Only ever with him.
As if he were a marionette and the strings were cut—he collapsed on me.
I held him tight. “I love you, Pumpkin. Lorcan. I love you.”
He nuzzled my neck. “Yeah, same here, Daddy.”
I kept my thighs wrapped around his hips for a long time.
Eventually, though, we had to disentangle.
We went to the guest bathroom, and I drew him a bath.
Although the fit was tight, I held him against me—his back to my chest. I ran my hands through his thick pelt.
“You realize Thursday is pup night at Kink?”
“We’ve got our furbabies.”
“I invited Aunt Genessa over to watch them. She won’t be as likely to do that once she’s in the care home, and she won’t be able to take Mei out. We won’t be gone too long, though. We’ll take her out before we leave, and when we get home. Genessa was tickled by the invitation.”
He stilled. “You didn’t—”
I laughed. “Oh God, no. Would I put it past her to figure out something’s up? No. Which is why our box is going to be up high and out of the way.”
This time, he laughed. And stroked my thigh with his soapy hand. “We’re going to be okay, aren’t we?”
“We’re going to be amazing.” I tweaked his nipple.
He groaned. “I’m not sure. Uh…”
I encircled his cock with my hand. Then whispered into his ear, “Let’s see if we can cut your refractory period.”
And we did.
Much later, when Lorcan held me in his arms, a sense of peace unlike anything I’d ever known settled over me.
I realized what I had to do. “I have a story to tell you. It’s not a nice story. It’s a story I’ve only told a few people. I probably should’ve told you before you moved in—” Slowly, I turned to face him.
We’d added a nightlight to our room so Trifle and Mei could see—if they needed to get up during the night.
Lorcan feathered his fingers through my hair. “You can tell me anything.”
“My first year of counseling patients.” I swallowed. “There was an undergrad. First year. She was away from home and missing everyone.”
“Okay.”
“Now, I wasn’t on my own while doing the counseling. I had a supervisor. A great woman whose competence I never questioned.”
“Sure.” He pressed a hand to my sternum.
His strength helped me to continue. “In the final session before Christmas break, Selene seemed…off.”
“Selene…?”
“Oh, the patient.”
“Got it.” His eyes were nearly black in the low light—but he held my gaze.
This is almost more than I can bear. But he needs to know.
“I spoke to my supervisor after the meeting. Our normal debrief. I said I was concerned.” I swallowed.
“She said she hadn’t seen anything unusual, and that students were often antsy around the holidays.
” I shrugged. “So I took my exam the next morning and didn’t think anything of what I’d seen. ”
“Ah.”
He knows. That this isn’t going to end well.
“My supervisor met me at the door of the exam room. I knew. I just…knew.”
“Oh baby.”
Not Daddy. He understood now wasn’t the time for that.
“She’d killed herself in her dorm room. She’d even left a note.
” I swallowed yet again. “Turns out she’d been molested for years.
She said she was missing everyone from home—but that hadn’t been true.
In the end, she couldn’t’ bear the idea of facing her molester.
She believed herself stronger but, in the end, couldn’t do it. ” I blinked. “If I’d known—” I sighed.
“What could you have done?”
“I would’ve worked with my supervisor—either to sort things out or, more likely, to refer her to a more-experienced counselor. Maybe even one of the psychologists on staff. I wasn’t so arrogant that, I believe, I would’ve realized I was in over my head.”
He stroked my sternum. Rhythmically. Soothingly.
“What did Kennedy say?”
Oh Jesus, he knows me so well. “That she knew of another therapist who’d gone through that.
That these things happened—even to the best of us.
That Selene had gone out of her way, in the suicide note, to say that everyone had been so kind and that, although she felt guilty, she couldn’t put off what she knew she had to do. ”
A tear trickled down my cheek.
“And you’ve been holding this in?”
I nodded. “It’s in the back of my mind when I see patients. Are they suicidal? Am I missing something?”
“So you’re more vigilant.” A statement…not a question.
“Yes.”
“You’re a good man, Cody. Better than anyone I’ve ever met.”
I wanted to point out he’d met Justin—but now wasn’t the time. “I just thought you should know.”
“I’ll always want to know—whatever you can share. You need to know you can trust me. Always.”
I stroked his cheek. “Thank you. I think this is the best present ever.”
Lorcan offered a shy smile. “You haven’t tried the pumpkin spice. I had a cookie made with it. Divine heaven.”
His words warmed me. He wasn’t going to dwell—unless I needed more from him.
I didn’t. “It’s pretty late.”
“Yeah.” He pressed a kiss to my temple.
“It’s still Christmas.”
“Yeah.” Again, he gently feathered my hair.
“Daddy wants to show his Pumpkin how much he means to him.” Is this too hard of a pivot?
Does he need to digest what I’ve said? Do I need a moment?
Except I didn’t. I’d honored Selene and was ready to put her away.
She’d always be part of me. She’d always guide me with my patients.
But I didn’t need to carry the guilt anymore—I had someone to share the burden with.
“Whatever Daddy wants. His Pumpkin is very happy to oblige.”
“Great.” I gazed at his mouth.
He leaned over to kiss me.
I allowed him to pull me into his arms. Despite my worries about whether or not I’d sleep, I drifted off soon.
Secure in the knowledge I’d found my life partner.
I’d found my soulmate.
And thank heavens, he felt the same way.