Chapter Eleven #5
“Let it all go now, baby. Let go of the stress. Let go of the job. Your one goal right now is to let me take you somewhere only the two of us can go. You take everything I give you, including this plug because I’m going to take that sweet asshole of yours.
And, baby, you should be grateful I only brought regular lube.
If we’d had this conversation before, it would be ginger lube and you would feel the burn.
It might be tomorrow. I might plug your ass before we go to the meeting, and I assure you I will do worse if you bring up your dad again while I’m staring at your asshole. ”
He didn’t understand how open her parents were about sex. She’d discovered a person’s ability to talk about sex was a lot like how they handled blood. The sight for some sent them fainting dead away, but some people could eat a hearty meal while watching an operation.
Ben would need time to adjust since from what she could tell it wasn’t like his parents had him babysit his younger siblings so they could spend time at their sex club. And that was sad for him.
She wasn’t going into that tonight because he seemed serious about the whole lube situation, and it wasn’t like they were in a place where he couldn’t walk outside and ask for some exotic lube and not have twelve tops offer up some.
“Nothing to say? Excellent. You know I like this side of you, you glorious masochist. I like being the one who gives you what you need. And I think you need this.”
She gasped as she felt something hard against her asshole. His finger. He rimmed her and then she felt the lube. Somehow he’d warmed it, or she wouldn’t put it past Ollie to have a warmer of some kind in here since the fucker loved his luxuries.
She shivered as that finger dove deep, lubing her up and stretching her.
Never. She’d never let a Dom do this to her. There was something too intimate about it, but it felt right with him. Everything was right with him.
She gritted her teeth as she felt the hard edge of the plug. Still. She was always in motion, and here it was right and good to be still, to let him do what he wanted, to sink into a part of her soul that had always been hers. Now she found a person to share it with.
He worked the plug in, fucking her with it and lighting her up with sensation after sensation. Then he settled the plug deep inside.
“Damn, that’s pretty. I like discovering this with you. It makes me feel like this can work. Don’t lose the plug,” he commanded before he picked her up and started for the bed.
She clenched down because that sucker was slippery.
She found herself flat on her back with him inside her before she could take another breath. It didn’t matter. She was so wet she could easily handle his cock. That gorgeous monster filled her, stretching her, the plug making her tight.
He felt good. He gripped her like he worried he could lose her, but she wasn’t going anywhere. This was what she’d wanted. To belong to him. To have him belong to her.
“Hold on to me. I want your mark on me, too,” he said, looking down on her as he thrust inside again. He was so big above her, so strong. Her dream lover, and he was saying everything she wanted to hear.
She might be submissive when it came to sex, but she wanted the world to know he was hers and they should back off.
She let her nails find his back, something primal taking over. Pure pleasure swamped her as she watched Ben’s whole body tighten. He worked over her, never taking his eyes off her. The connection felt like it went soul deep.
“You feel so fucking good. Nothing ever felt this good,” he said between clenched teeth.
Because they had been made for each other. They were meant to be together.
She didn’t say it because he wasn’t ready for those words. Despite the afternoon and this evening, she knew he was still thinking, still wondering if she was playing him.
But that didn’t matter in this moment. In this moment, they were connected and together and everything was right in the world.
For now. She held on, giving him everything.
The world seemed to explode in the best way possible, and then Ben was stiffening over her and she felt him come. She tightened her arms around him.
He let himself fall on her, giving her every ounce of his weight.
She took it, loving the way he felt on top of her.
He rubbed his cheek against hers. “I like being your Dom, baby. I think we’re going to play a lot. You know I always want to get through a mission, but we could settle in here for a while. And you’re with me. You stay with me in my room. No staying with Lucy.”
She wouldn’t want to now. As long as he wasn’t cold, she would stay with him even without promises of forever.
“Baby, did you keep the plug?” He whispered the question in her ear.
She had not. It was impossible to keep the damn thing in when she was wrapping her legs around her man and holding on for dear life. “Uhm, no.”
His head came up and he was heartbreakingly handsome with his hair tumbling over his forehead and a grin on his face. He looked younger and happier than he normally did. “Then we have to start all over again. After I clean us up.”
He winked and Kenzie knew she was in for a wild night.
Deep in the night Kenzie was sleeping, having a lovely dream, when she awakened to the sound of a gun being primed.
“What the hell?” Ben was on his feet.
“Dude, do not kill us,” a familiar voice said. “I told you this was a bad idea. He’s not TJ.”
She was groggy, but she knew Cooper’s voice.
“Well, what am I supposed to do?” Her sister was here. “She’s not sleeping with TJ, which would be weird. She’s made her choice and I have to deal with it. At least that’s what Vivi said.”
Then she felt the bed next to her sink as someone crawled on.
Kenzie yawned but didn’t move. “What did Vivi say?”
“She said I’m being a meanie and kind of a bitch, but not in those words.
She used very scholarly words, and there was some stuff about being emotionally dependent, but I don’t care about that.
Babe, I’m going to need a blanket because little sis is almost surely naked and while I love her, that’s weird,” Kala said and Kenzie felt an arm go around her waist as her twin spooned against her, their bodies separated by the thick blanket since she was in fact naked.
A shudder went through Kala’s body and she whispered. “I can’t sleep.”
Tears pierced her eyes, and she squeezed her sister’s hand.
This was something they’d done in childhood.
They’d shared a room almost all of their lives, their twin beds on opposite sides.
When one was scared, the other would climb in.
When Tash joined them they sometimes made a big pallet and slept like puppies in a pile, the sweetness of sleep bonding them as sisters.
Later, Kala would turn to Lou for this comfort.
She hadn’t realized how much she’d missed this until now. “Did Lou lock you out?”
“Seriously, dude, you can’t shoot me,” Cooper was saying. “I know you’re the new guy, but this is something you should get used to.”
“I don’t see why I can’t shoot you. You literally broke into my room,” Ben pointed out. “What is this?”
“Lou isn’t the one I hurt,” Kala whispered. “I love her but she’s not my twin. Kenz, I’m not completely sure what I did. I can be arrogant and selfish and say things that feel like truth to me but it’s hurtful to others, but I love you so much. I want to make it right.”
“Be nice to Ben,” Kenzie replied and held her sister’s hand. “That’s all I ask.”
She didn’t want her sister to change. She loved Kala the way she was but she wanted Ben to have a shot at blending in with her family and friends.
She wanted to feel like everyone welcomed him like they had Dare.
She didn’t need them to love him like they did Cooper.
Coop had been part of their family for a long time, but Dare was doing well. Dare and her dad got along great.
She was almost certain part of the reason Dare had been willing to forgive Tasha had been her family. He’d wanted so much to not be on his own, to have people he could count on. She didn’t know a single human being who could use a nosy, helpful family more than Ben Parker.
She had to prove to him that he was worth more than his guilt, was more important than any vengeance.
Kala groaned. “Fine. I’ll be nice. Scoot over. Coop doesn’t have any room.”
“I’m sorry. What the hell is happening?” Ben asked. “Cooper doesn’t need any room. Cooper is supposed to have his own room.”
“He’s got a nice package,” Kala said with a chuckle. “Very well made, and he keeps a nice grooming routine. I can see where that would be appealing. There. I said a nice thing. About your boyfriend’s dick. It’s handling the cold quite well.”
“Could you put on a robe or something?” Cooper asked. “Also, where’s the… Ah, found the blanket. Scoot over.”
Kenzie yawned and propped herself up on one elbow. There was a thin shaft of moonlight coming from the window and it illuminated her boyfriend’s hot bod and the gun he held. “Babe, this is something we do from time to time when one of us needs comfort.”
“Uhm, she has a husband,” Ben pointed out.
“Yes, that’s why I’m here. Look, man, have you ever dated a twin?
Because it gets weird and I’ve learned to go with it.
” Cooper settled in. “They didn’t talk earlier and Kala gave up her play session for what I think amounted to a therapy session with Vivi and Sophy.
She can’t sleep unless she knows Kenzie is okay.
We don’t have to talk about it now, but she needs the connection.
Kenzie is half her freaking soul and we will never understand their bond, but we can honor it. Also, is there an extra pillow?”
Ben set the gun down and picked up one of the pillows he’d tossed off the bed earlier because Penny apparently loved pillows. He fast balled it Cooper’s way. “I would like everyone to acknowledge that this is weird.”
“It’s weird,” they all said at the same time.
Ben settled in, crawling under the covers again. “And we all sleep together?”
“It gets fun when one of them needs to go to the bathroom,” Cooper complained. “Because they do not want to be on the outside even though they have tiny bladders.”
“We made a deal. If we’re getting murdered in bed, you go first, babe,” Kala said through a yawn. “Did you have fun tonight?”
“Yes.” Kenzie felt a smile go across her face even as the world felt soft again and sleep called. Ben turned on his side. “And I have the marks to prove it.”
She expected her sister to gag and that was okay.
Instead, she rested her head against Kenzie’s. “I’m so glad to hear that. I want to see them tomorrow.”
Likely so she could assess Ben’s performance, but hopefully she would be nice about it since they were a new couple.
“You could put on PJs,” Cooper said quietly.
“You can’t see it but I’m flipping you off, McKay,” Ben murmured. “You crawl into my bed, you deal with all of me. Also, I will be fucking my sub in the morning and if this is the way we’re playing it, I won’t care that you’re here.”
“We’ll be gone by then,” Cooper promised.
“I don’t know, babe. I could give tips,” Kala offered.
Kenzie snorted and elbowed her twin. “You will not. Go to sleep. We have to work tomorrow.”
“I’m so glad you finally got to play,” Kala said quietly. “The one good thing that’s come from that fucker Huisman is my sister finally getting to be herself fully and completely.”
It was enough. More than enough.
Kenzie went to sleep hoping the next few days would go well.