Bailey - May 30th
I don’t know if Leon sleeps. I woke up last night around two. There was a thunderstorm, it literally shook the house. I tossed and turned for like an hour, until I finally decided to get up and bake some banana bread for everyone to have for breakfast.
I don’t know if it’s stress or this restless energy that I can’t quite tamp down, even though I’ve been going to the gym more than normal.
Reading used to calm me down too, but lately even rereading all my favs isn’t helping.
But, I guess I’m worried about starting classes in the fall.
How Mom and Dad will take care of themselves without me here.
Don’t get me wrong, they’re amazing and I know I’m lucky to have them.
So many of my friends growing up had parents who were a hot mess.
They’re just kind of like too nice, maybe?
Or they work too hard? I don’t know, I’m just worried they won’t remember to turn off the burner, or change the batteries in the smoke alarms, or even simple things like taking their vitamins.
I’m rambling now. Back to the banana bread.
So I got up, went to the kitchen and Leon was there sitting at the table in the dark, besides the light from his laptop.
He scared the shit out of me. I think I scared him too because he jumped when I gasped and we both ended up awkwardly laughing and staring at each other.
I was in my cat pajama shorts, so that was fun.
It’s whatever. He’s been here for a few days now so I’m sure he’s spotted me looking way worse.
He opened up the pantry door and started to grab ingredients!
I mean, he probably just felt bad leaving me alone in the kitchen, but still…
We baked together and I don’t know… it was really nice. Talking to him feels natural, even though I’m nervous and awkward. He kind of is too, which is so funny to me. But by the time we took the loaf out of the oven, he was joking with me more and he’s funny in a quirky way.
I need to get ready for work, I’m closing tonight. Lucky me.
But I told Leon he should come by and I’ll snag him some free food. Whatever he wants, as long as he doesn’t share that info with my brothers because I think I’d get fired if they asked for freebies. Jasper eats more than three grown men.