Chapter Seventeen
B.D.
“Our first time…for everything,” I said, repeating the words Larenz had just said. I caressed his face as we lay next to each other, warm in our pallet of sex-soiled sheets and comforters on the dorm room floor. “My mind is blown.”
“What do you mean?”
“This was good,” I said, kissing Larenz on the side of his face. “I swear I didn’t plan this.”
“Yeah, right. You just happen to have Magnums and lube in your bag. During winter break. With Macy back in California. Unless you’re fucking other people besides me during break.”
“Nunya.” I chuckled.
“You’re silly, B.D. I’m not keeping tabs on who or what you do. As far as I’m concerned, let’s just chalk this up to college curiosity and experimentation.”
“I’d like to think this was more than an experiment,” I said. “But I appreciate you giving me that out. I have a lot to think about.”
“Like?”
“What we did. What it means. What and who I am. It’s not an everyday thing for someone like me to be with a guy. Girls, yeah. But a guy?”
“We can figure it out,” Larenz said. “No pressure. I know you kinda got MVP student status on campus as a basketball player. I know you got Macy, too.”
“ Had Macy.”
“On a break from Macy.”
“Exactly.”
“Anyway, I’m not trying to fuck anything up for you by telling anybody our business.”
“Okay, cool,” I said, pulling Larenz closer. “That’s more what I was worried about. I can’t be open and public about what we did, what we do, or what we might do in the future.”
“I understand, B.D.,” he said as he played with my chain, twirling it in his fingers. “I’m cool with that. We’ll figure it out.”
“Can I ask a question?”
“Sure.”
“Is this how this guy stuff works? Sex first, then see if it turns into anything?”
Larenz paused as he thought. “How can I say it? It can be complicated. Not that I’ve had a lot of experience with sex or relationships.”
“The way you suck dick? And you not even twenty-one yet. Please.”
“What’s age got to do with it? Look at the way you fucked me, and it’s your first time fucking a guy.”
We laughed and I tilted Larenz’s face toward mine to kiss him.
“I’m willing to learn with you,” I said, a tear welling up in the corner of one eye. “If you’re willing to teach and be patient with me.”