Chapter Three
Neal had been taken aback by how rickety the stairs in this building were. The smoke from coal fires burned his nostrils, while the smell of ages of cooked meals seemed to have permeated the walls.
This building was so old that it had to have been standing during the time of the Great Fire. It was a pity it hadn’t been burned down. He’d not live here and was surprised anyone did, most of all Lady Thea.
In the dim light of the hallway stairs, she stood tall, her eyes burning with pride. She was still dressed for going out, still in her drab hat, her gloves and her pelisse.
And he remembered her as he last saw her years ago, the memory still fresh in his mind—her hair down around her shoulders, her feet bare because she’d been wading in the stream waiting for him, a chain of bachelor buttons and daisy wildflowers forming a crown on her head.
They’d both been so young.
He’d forgotten what it was like back then. Now, responsibilities, worries, and the weight of not only his country’s future but his family’s were heavy on his shoulders. He’d forgotten how free he’d felt when he’d been around her.
But that was then and this was now. Gone was the blondness of her hair, which had darkened to a honeyed brown.
Maturity had sharpened the lines of her face and given her character.
Her eyes were just as blue, but they were no longer innocent.
Knowledge of the world, of herself, had created shadows in their depth.
“I don’t need this discussion right now, my lord,” she said.
“I’m not here to discuss anything,” he said, suddenly concerned he’d be dismissed. He needed to talk to her. He wanted to.
And then tears came to her eyes. Large, luminous ones that she struggled to hold back.
Like most men, Neal didn’t know what to do in the face of a female’s tears. His sister, Margaret, rarely cried. She was too proud. Considering the set down Thea had given him only an hour ago, Neal had assumed that she was as proud, unless something had broken her spirit.
He didn’t think it was himself . . . or at least he hoped it wasn’t.
Neal took a step up the staircase toward her. “What is the matter?”
“Nothing,” she said, the tension in the word so tight that something had to be wrong.
“Mrs. Gray took all our money,” a voice from her side said.
Neal was startled to realize they weren’t alone. He’d been so focused on Thea that he hadn’t noticed the two small beings who stood on either side of her.
Both had flaxen blonde hair and eyes as blue as their mother’s. The youngest had a death grip on Thea’s skirts, his wary expression telling Neal he wasn’t about to trust him any more than his parent did.
The other was bolder. He was the one who had spoken. He’d stepped forward to make his announcement, his body taut from the top of his head to the fists he clenched at his side.
There was no doubt these were her sons. They shared her refined features and determined chin.
Neal didn’t come in contact with many children.
He had few relatives, and they were all aged.
His day-to-day activities rarely brought him within close proximity of children and, although he saw them on the street or in shops, he rarely talked to them—even if he wanted sons of his own . . . desperately.
His desire to father a child was more than just a need to fulfill the obligations he owed his family name and title. He yearned for children in a way he didn’t understand.
He now found himself both charmed and curious by these two boys. They were more than copies of their mother. They were independent souls, souls created from the spark of a connection and little more.
“Mrs. Gray stole your money?” Neal repeated, addressing the child directly while wondering who this woman was. “Did you see her take the money?”
To his surprise the youngest answered, the words coming out of his mouth so fast they tumbled over each other in his earnestness. “Yes, we did. She took the money. We told her not to, but she didn’t listen to us. Jonny told her.”
“Who is this Mrs. Gray?” Neal demanded, insulted for the boys.
“This isn’t your concern, my lord,” Thea snapped, even as her youngest answered, “The lady. Mrs. Gray. She took all our money. We don’t have any.”
“Chris, quiet,” Jonny ordered.
His brother’s response was to bury his face in his mother’s skirts but not before he explained, “We can’t catch her. She’s gone.”
Jonny was furious that his order had been ignored. He took a step toward his brother, but Thea’s hand on his shoulder stayed him, and Neal was reminded of his own battles with his brother. He and Harry were as close as two brothers could be and as far apart.
“Who is this Mrs. Gray?” Neal asked again, ready to charge after the woman.
Thea said, “I am handling the matter, my lord. This is none of your affair. Is there some outstanding business between us you wished to convey? Although I don’t understand why there should be.
” She’d started down the last of the steps, brushing him aside as she made her way through the open apartment door, shooing her boys in ahead of her.
They obeyed, the oldest taking the youngest’s hand.
Seeing they were safe, she turned, blocking Neal from entering the flat by leaning one hand on the door.
“I thought I made myself very clear this afternoon.”
“You did,” Neal said.
“Then we have nothing else to say to each other,” she informed him crisply.
“Actually, we do. You misunderstood me in Sir James’s office. I am serious in my need for a wife, and you are not in a position to toss aside opportunities,” he said, pointing to the empty wooden box she held in her arms.
Her chin lifted. A flash of new insult lit her eyes.
“A moment of your time,” Neal pressed. “That’s all I ask.”
“A moment is too much,” she answered.
Her tart reply ignited Neal’s own temper. “Every inch the duke’s daughter, aren’t you, Lady Thea? Well, think about your sons and don’t be foolish. I need your help and you need mine. Let’s keep the past behind us.”
The lines of her mouth flattened. “Your request is impossible to honor. That talk about a curse—”
“It’s true.”
She rolled her eyes and reached for the door to close it.
Neal blocked the action with his arm. “I know it sounds impossible,” he said, “but I’m not known for being a frivolous man. Why would I make such a thing up?”
“I haven’t a notion, my lord. Now, if you will please go?”
“Once you’ve heard me out.”
For a long moment they were at a standstill. The set of her mouth told him she would like nothing more than to push him down the stairs and out of her life.
Well, he wasn’t going, and he didn’t know why, but it was now very important that she hear his story.
She sighed her capitulation. “All right. Explain yourself, although I’m not in the mood for explanations. You would be wise to postpone this conversation.” She turned and walked into the apartment.
“Why are you so angry with me, Thea?” he said.
She looked back at him with suspicion and then frowned. “You really don’t know, do you?”
“Know what?” Neal asked, closing the door behind him. Her sons still stood together, the oldest watching him warily. The youngest yawned.
Thea set the box on a wooden table. There were three chairs around the table, an unfortunate-looking settee, a serviceable cupboard.
Everything was clean and neat and, in spite of the scant furnishings, it felt like a home.
There was a stack of books on the cupboard and a slate board with chalk.
Two horses carved out of wood had been placed there as well.
They had leather saddles and bridles and appeared to be cherished toys.
She removed her gloves and started untying the ribbons of her hat as she said, “You disappeared on me years ago. I went to the stream, and you didn’t show—without any explanation, my lord.
You stopped coming, and I didn’t know if it was something I said or did.
I feared you had taken ill, until the servants said they had seen you out and about. ”
“It was the curse,” he said.
“The curse? What, you’ve been cursed so that you cannot act politely to your friends?”
Her barb stung. “You’ve developed a sharp tongue, my lady,” he said.
“It’s the consequence of marriage, my lord,” she shot back. “I’m not as gullible as I was when we were younger.”
“Then hear me out. I don’t ask that your mind is open, Mrs. Martin, but I’d like to finish a thought without your ‘wisdom’ being tossed at me.”
She didn’t like a touch of sharpness tossed right back at her. She placed her hands on her hips, her hat still on her head, the ribbons hanging down. “I don’t have time to dally, my lord.”
“Then let me pay you for your time,” he challenged. “Provided you will let me speak.”
“I don’t think you could afford me,” she answered. “Furthermore, after all this time, I truly am no longer interested in your excuses.”
“For a woman without a shilling to her name, you are very proud.”
“I’m still the daughter of a duke,” she replied tightly.
“I am a wealthy man,” he returned. “I want what I want and will settle for no less.”
“And you must have my help?” she said, her disbelief clear.
His gaze drifted to the boys, who listened attentively to all that was being said. Did they understand? Could children understand the arguments of adults?
Bringing his eyes back to her, he answered, “Yes.”
“Unfortunately, you will be disappointed. I choose not to work with you,” she said, and he could have ground his teeth in frustration.
“You are so foolish,” he said almost under his breath, but of course she heard it.
For a second, Thea appeared ready to breathe fire—
“Mother, I’m hungry,” the youngest boy said.
“Christopher, one moment,” his mother answered.
“No,” Neal countermanded her, seizing upon an idea. “I’m hungry as well. Why don’t we discuss this over dinner?” He’d be moving the lioness from her lair, and then she’d have to listen to him with a reasonable state of mind, all past grudges set aside. “Let me take all of you to dinner.”