Chapter 9 Stella #2
He stops pacing and leans over his desk, grumbling to himself. I approach and place my hand on his shoulder, and he immediately stops tensing up. I slowly begin rubbing his shoulders and neck, massaging the muscles into letting go, and after a while, he lets out a bated breath.
“What are you doing?” he asks.
“What does it feel like?” I respond.
He snorts. “Where did you get skills like these, Tesoro? This feels fantastic.”
His compliment makes me snort. “I took a massage class once. Just for fun.”
“So I married a woman with magical hand,” he mutters.
But then he suddenly moans.
Actually moans.
Just from my touch.
And it makes my entire body heat like nothing else.
“To the left,” he groans, and I move my hand toward his left shoulder, which feels like a concrete slab with all its muscles.
The blood caking his shirt makes me queasy, but I do my best to ignore it as I squirm my way between him and the desk and slowly begin to unbutton his shirt. The muscular, tatted slabs underneath make it hard to focus, but I try my best.
Remember, he’s not your friend. He’s your unwanted husband.
An immoral, controlling asshole of a husband who is just so goddamn handsome it hurts to even look away.
“Is my mind playing tricks on me, or is my wife taking off my shirt in a very seductive manner?”
I smirk. “I’m just taking off your shirt for the massage, that’s it.”
The arrogant smile on his face makes my heart pitter-patter as I push the fabric off his skin so I can reach the spot on his shoulder that’s all tensed up, as my eyes gorge on his well-trained muscles.
I squeeze, and he groans out loud as I massage him deeply. “God … that feels good.”
His eyes travel down my face and neck until they reach the edge of the bathrobe that hides my nude body, and I suddenly feel very, very naked underneath.
I glance down at myself, hoping it’s not too revealing, but when my eyes skid past his pants, I notice the bulge clearly growing behind the zipper.
Oh fuck.
He clears his throat, and when my eyes jump back up to his, he grabs my hands. “Stop.”
“I wasn’t—”
“I can’t control myself around you,” he says, peeling my fingers off his shoulders.
Control himself? Does he mean…?
He steps back and sighs out loud, while I stay put near his desk, wondering if what I did didn’t cool him off at all, but only made him more burned up.
“Tell me what you did at the restaurant,” I say. “I deserve to know.”
He shakes his head. “What do you think?” There’s a pause when I don’t answer. “What had to be done.”
That blood was from Lucio’s guys, and I doubt they survived. All that murder because of Lucio’s incessant need to find me.
“How many people did you shoot?” I ask brazenly.
He winces. “One. And he deserved every ounce of my wrath,” Matteo replies, balling his fist. “All of the people working at the restaurant are dead thanks to him.”
I shudder. I know he speaks easily about death, like he’s the devil incarnate.
“They were innocent. They died because they worked for you,” I say.
Suddenly, he’s right in front of my face, growling, “They died because of you, because I took you away from Lucio. Because he’ll stop at nothing to get you back. He’ll kill every last person involved.”
I swallow as the tears begin to well up in my eyes, but I push them aside. “You want to blame this on me?”
He rubs his lips together. “I’m not blaming anyone but myself.” He shakes his head. “I never should have married you.”
Even though he’s right, it still hurts to hear those words, and I don’t understand why it makes a teardrop roll down my cheek.
We’re both angry because his people died, and it’s my fault.
If I had never run into Lucio, if I never accepted his deal, Matteo wouldn’t have seen me by his side, would never have tried to take me away from him…
And then all those people in that restaurant would have lived.
They died because of me.
I suck in a breath as Matteo walks off again and rubs his forehead, clearly affected by the scene he witnessed. “God … They’re all dead,” he repeats.
“What about the girl?” I ask.
He sighs out loud, lowering his head, glancing at the floor beneath him. “I couldn’t save her.”
I shake my head, feeling the guilt etch its way into my heart, scratching away at it until there’s nothing left but scars.
I can’t. I can’t deal with this. It’s my fault. It’s all my fault.
I turn around, open the door, and immediately storm off.
“Stella!” Matteo calls after me, but I ignore him as I run all the way through the hallway back to my room and wait until the guard locks me inside.
The ring on my finger shimmers in the light, so I rip it off my finger and cast it aside, then fall onto my bed and cry out loud.
Not for the loss of my freedom but for the loss of the innocent lives taken too early … taken because of me.
“Stella.” His voice echoes outside the door.
“Leave me alone.”
I don’t want to talk to him. I don’t want to talk to anyone right now except my mom, but she isn’t here. I have no one.
God, I can’t stay here, not another minute.
I wait until his footsteps disappear, and I’m finally alone again. With stained cheeks, I lean up from the bed and gaze at the door, trying to decipher if the guard is still there watching over me. I get up and walk closer, listening in.
Nothing.
I crawl to the floor and peek underneath.
No shoes. Nothing.
He’s really gone.
Maybe Matteo wanted me to have some time to myself, in peace.
I climb back to my feet, staring at the door with shuddering lips, then turn my head to look at the small window in my adjacent bathroom.
This is my only shot.
Without thinking it through, I bolt to my cabinet and pull out any short wire I can find, along with something to pry open a window—a spoon from my cup of coffee. I hurry to the bathroom, grab the stool in the corner, and scoot it up underneath the window.
When I sat in the bathtub, I noticed that this window was the only one in my room that wasn’t barred. It’s small and barely noticeable behind the curtain, but I saw.
And I don’t think they realized it might be big enough for a person like me to fit through.
I shove the big metal spoon I have into the space between the window and the opening, and then bend the wire until it’s got the handle. I push it through the window and curl it up until it hooks under the handle from the outside.
Sweat droplets roll down my back as I twist and push it farther up until the handle is far enough.
Click.
A smile slowly forms on my face.
It worked. It worked!
I nearly giggle, but then slam my hand in front of my mouth before any sound escapes.
I shove the window open fully and suck in the breath of fresh air I’ve longed for. Then I wriggle my way through the window like it’s a goddamn escape hatch, scrunching up my body in my small bathrobe until I fit through.
I crawl onto the small windowsill and gaze out onto the grass down below. It’s steep and terrifying. Sweat rolls down my skin as I clutch the walls, while I consider my options. There’s an awning to my right that I might be able to jump onto and use as a cushion … but I might just fall through.
It’s risky. It’s insane.
But there’s no way in hell I’m going back in there either.
So I swallow away the fear and make the jump.