Chapter 10 Eliza
Eliza
“Idated him,” I said, voice sharper than I meant it to be. “Graham. He’s my ex.”
Nate had already slowed, but that stopped him in his tracks. He turned, brows raised, searching my face like he didn’t quite believe it.
I hesitated, bracing myself. It was all out there now—no more half-truths, no more sidestepping the subject.
For a second, we stood in the quiet, the moment filling the air between us.
With so many things unsaid and the faint hope that maybe someone would understand.
That someone could see through the cloak of charm Graham always hid behind.
“I should have figured it out,” he said eventually. “The way he looked at you and the way you looked like you wanted to disappear.”
I let out a breath. “Sorry. I didn’t mean to bark it out like that.
I just—since he got to town, he always shows up at the worst possible time.
He always manages to make everything complicated, even when he’s just passing by.
It’s like he has a radar for my worst moments, and somehow, he always finds me when I least want to be found.
I wish I could say I was over it—that seeing him didn’t bother me—but it’s never that simple, is it? ”
“Things like this rarely are. Believe me, I know.” He stood still for a beat, then gently gestured ahead with his chin. “Wanna walk?”
“Where?”
“The Pennywhistle’s closed. But I’ve got my keys with me. If you don’t mind a dark diner. We could put the cats in my office.”
“Sounds like my kind of night.” I shrugged, pressing my hands into my pockets, searching for the right words.
“Sure. I could use a change of scenery.” Something about the idea of sitting in that familiar diner with Nate made the tightness in my chest loosen, if only a little.
At least there, the ghosts of old arguments and unresolved feelings might seem less sharp, softened by the quiet promise that maybe, for a little while, I wouldn’t have to pretend everything was fine.
We walked in silence down the sidewalk, the sky turning purple above the streetlights. The early evening air had that wintry, cinnamon-tinged chill Honeybrook Hollow always seemed to deliver this time of year—sharp and nostalgic, like a snow globe memory.
I glanced down at Remy and Linguine, the cats weaving impatient circles around my ankles, their leashes taut in my grip.
They seemed to sense the tension in the air, each twitch of their tails mirroring the restlessness I felt inside.
They padded quietly beside me as Nate and I made our way down the sidewalk, their presence oddly comforting in the thick silence between us.
When we reached the Pennywhistle, Nate unlocked the side door and flipped on a couple of lights—soft ones, the kind that made the chrome gleam and the red leather booths glow like something out of a retro pop art print.
He didn’t say anything, guided me to the back, and gestured to his office door.
I took in the quiet space—the faint hum of the fridge, the scent of lingering maple syrup and bacon grease, the cozy hush that wrapped around me like a blanket. The Pennywhistle felt lived-in, loved. And even empty, it was warmer than most places I’d ever called home.
“Be good,” I whispered and unclipped Remy and Linguine’s leashes, grimacing as they ignored me and hauled ass into Nate’s office. Remy darted behind his desk like he owned the place, while Linguini pounced on a box of tissues before darting off to catch up with Remy.
“So,” Nate said as we headed to the front of the diner. “Graham, huh?”
I winced and slid onto a barstool. “Please don’t say it like that. I know.” The words slipped out with a raw honesty I rarely allowed myself to express. Somehow, I trusted Nate. I decided not to question it.
He nodded, pouring us glasses of water and letting the moment settle between us.
He didn’t push, and for once, I didn’t feel the need to fill the silence with excuses or self-deprecation.
Instead, I stared at the swirling patterns in my water glass, tracing the neon reflection on its surface.
Nate remained nearby, steady and unhurried, as if the quiet itself was its own kind of conversation.
I felt the urge to say more—not about Graham, but about the possibility of finding joy in something simple, even if it was only this simple glass of water in the Pennywhistle with the nicest man I’d ever met.
“I’m sorry. I have no reason for it, but I don’t like him.” He finally said as he raised a brow. He wasn’t smug about it, just curious, like he cared about me and was willing to listen. “You don’t owe me an explanation. But if you want to talk about it, I’m here.”
I sipped my water, then set it down. “I was barely out of culinary school. He seemed impressive, confident. I thought he believed in me.”
Nate’s brow furrowed. “Thought?”
“I was his sous chef. I worked for him in Portland. We kept it a secret. He supported me right up until my ideas became inconvenient. I wanted to open something casual and warm, that was my dream. Either that or write a cookbook, start a social media page, I don’t know—I had a lot of thoughts, different things I wanted to try.
He said I was wasting my talent. Said I wasn’t thinking big enough. ”
“He said that? To you? When you were sharing your dreams with him. Huh.” The huh came out dripping with hostility.
My eyes shot to his, and I nodded. “Yeah,” I whispered, wondering why, of all people, I was confiding in him.
“He said that among other things. He never yelled. He wore me down. Compliments with caveats. Support with strings. He was older than me, and everyone loved him. He made me think I was special, and at first, being with him felt like a gift. I didn’t get a lot of, um, that feeling as a kid.
It wasn’t until later that I realized there were way too many strings attached ever to be healthy.
He said no one would understand or approve of our relationship, and I believed him, so I kept quiet. ”
Nate’s jaw clenched. “He hurt you,” he bit out. “I’m rarely wrong about people, Eliza. I was right about him. He’s arrogant, unkind, and careless with people’s feelings. I don’t like the thought of you with someone like that. Tell me everything.”
“He chipped away at me. Questioned everything. My instincts. My cooking. My confidence. Until eventually I stopped trusting myself and let him do the thinking for both of us.”
I swallowed. My chest felt tight now, the truth pressing in from all sides.
“When I left, I told myself I’d lost my passion.
That I’d just grown out of it.” I gestured vaguely toward the Coffee Cabin.
“So, I came here. Made my life smaller. Safer. Coffee. Muffins. Cake pops. A menu that never changes. A space where everything is controlled and predictable and no one gets to tell me I’m doing it wrong. ”
I shook my head, anger creeping in beneath the sadness.
“I never really admitted how much of myself I locked away in that little hut until now. How much I settled. How I let one man convince me that my dreams were impractical, indulgent… replaceable.” My voice wavered, then steadied.
“And the worst part is realizing I helped him do it.” I finally looked at him.
“That’s what scares me. Not him. But the fact that I let it happen. ”
He was quiet for a long moment. Then, softly, he whispered, “You are not even on the same planet as mediocre. And you are enough. Never doubt yourself. You are more than enough.”
I looked up, startled. I let his words linger, feeling their weight settle somewhere deep in my chest. For the first time in ages, I found myself wanting to reach for something more—not success or validation, a small piece of happiness carved out from this moment.
Maybe it was the neon haze of the diner, the quiet between us, or simply the way he looked at me—like I was someone worth rooting for.
“You’re sharp,” he said. “Smart. Funny. And you’ve got this whole I don’t care what you think energy that I know is mostly for show—because you care a hell of a lot more than people realize. I see it.”
My heart lurched in my chest as his words settled over me, warm and unexpected, like a sunrise I didn’t know I needed.
For a moment, the old ache of disappointment loosened its grip, replaced by a cautious hope I barely recognized.
Was it possible to believe in myself again—because someone else finally saw me, truly saw me, without agenda or judgment?
“I’m not saying that to flatter you,” he added. “I’m saying it because you should hear it from someone who actually sees you, and I’ve had my eye on you since before Christmas. You’re incredible, Eliza. I wish you could see yourself the way everyone else does.”
I swallowed. “That’s dangerously nice of you.”
Something in me shifted, a fragile thread of hope weaving through the sorrow I’d carried too long.
The diner’s hum faded into the background as I let myself imagine a future that wasn’t defined by past disappointments.
Maybe I could try again—take a risk, trust my instincts, or even dare to dream without fear.
Nate’s presence made it feel possible, like the world had opened a small window just for me.
His smile was soft. “Danger’s my middle name. Didn’t I mention?”
“Pretty sure it’s something boring like Andrew.
” For a second, I let myself believe him.
Maybe he was right—maybe there was more to me than bruised pride and mediocre muffins.
The weight on my chest eased a little, replaced by a warmth I wasn’t sure I deserved.
I managed a shaky smile, the kind that felt like a first step outside after a long winter.
He huffed a laugh. “Rude. And it’s Joseph. Nathaniel Joseph Winters.”
“Eliza Mae Darlington,” I replied.
We both smiled, and the silence that followed felt different this time—thick with possibility, like something was pulling us together.