Chapter 25
Lily
I knew opening my mouth would get a reaction from him. It usually does, but the sharp smack on my sensitive pussy was not what I expected. I yelp at the contact, and go to complain, but I’m silenced by Parker’s mouth on mine once again.
I’ve missed kissing him so much.
I’ve missed how he touches me.
He really does know everything about what I need, though I refuse to tell him. I still haven’t wrapped my mind around what he admitted. What I’ve convinced myself for years. The reason I’ve put so much distance between us. The reason I tried to move on.
He’s only ever been with me.
The guilt slaps me that I can’t say the same. I waited years before really attempting to move on, and it wasn’t even worth it. Some people say your first time isn’t even that good, but with Parker it always was. We learned, we adjusted, but it was always perfect with him.
Just like right now.
“You seem pretty pleased with yourself,” he teases.
“Yeah, I mean I’d say I’m pretty pleased in general.” I flick my tongue against his bottom lip. He lurches forward, nipping my lip, but backing away before I can kiss him again.
“Well, now I need to change.” He removes his hand from my pants. I turn around, though I don’t have much room, and it brings us chest to chest.
“Or you could just take these off.” I bite my bottom lip, gripping his pants, popping them open and I’m close to dropping down to my knees right now.
Parker laughs softly, taking my hands in his and stopping me from pushing his pants off completely and I pout.
“We’re going to take it slow. I want to take my time with you this time.” He brings my palm up to his mouth, grazing his lips against it.
“What do you mean this time? Last time we were teenagers and everything was taken slow,” I complain.
“This time will be the same. I waited for years for you…I can wait a little longer.”
“You’re going to kill me,” I groan dramatically.
He chuckles. “Lil, you still got to come.”
“So did you.”
“And it’ll happen again.” He nods.
“I take that as a challenge.” I smile.
“Fuck, I’ve missed you.” He wraps his arms around me, pulling me in for another searing kiss. Yet another one I don’t want to end, but it does, and I whimper in protest.
“Entertain my cat while I get changed.” He nudges my nose with his.
“I was hoping you’d entertain my cat.” I cringe at the words I just said. “You know what, never mind. I think you broke my brain, go change or I’m afraid of what I’ll say next.”
He presses a quick kiss to my lips. I can feel the swoony smile on my face when he pulls back, but I don’t even care to try and hide it.
“Say all the ridiculous things you want with me, I’ve missed it.”
I roll my lips together, watching him walk to his room while I think about that. Aaron would never because when I would say something ridiculous or random he would get annoyed with me.
Franki bumps my hand with her head, purring and I rub her head. “Why’re you mean to your dad?” I ask her quietly.
She looks up at me with big green innocent looking eyes, and I shrug. “Yeah, I guess I’ve been kind of mean to your dad too.”
My shoulders drop at the realization, everything hitting me at once. The years lost because of something I thought I saw. A friendship ruined, a shitty relationship I almost subjected myself to for much longer.
Parker comes back in the living room, and I blurt everything quickly.
“I’m sorry I never said anything. I’m sorry I assumed something from what I saw, but wait…
what did I see?” I question, because I did see something.
My eyes may have turned hazy, and I feel that my memory may be altering things, but I know I saw him with her.
“I don’t remember any specific time. I probably would have if I actually saw you.
” He gives me a pointed look, and I roll my eyes.
“I hung out with a lot of people after you left just trying to distract myself. Some girls would get close, and I wouldn’t push them away, but I also wouldn’t take it further. ”
“Maybe you should have pushed them away,” I grumble.
Parker pulls me into him with a wide smile. “I’ll make sure to do that from this point on.”
“You know, you say you missed me, so you could have come to me and made a big scene of confessing your love to get me back.” I pluck at the fabric of his shirt.
“I could have,” he agrees. “But I really was trying to let you go and didn’t want to force you back here.”
“You wouldn’t have forced me back.”
“I don’t regret how anything happened,” he says firmly. “Except that asshole. You really couldn’t have at least gone with someone nice? You went from me to him?”
“Okay, you know what? Never mind, now I have regrets about coming over here.” I try to pull away, but he doesn’t let me, slamming our chests together.
“No, you don’t.”
I giggle. “No, I don’t.”
He leans down to kiss me, and I eagerly press my mouth to his, loving the feeling as soon as we make contact. I’m about to push it further because I want more already.
“Ow!” Parker yells, breaking our kiss suddenly, and I look down to see Franki latched onto his pants with all four paws and her mouth biting his leg. “Get off me, you demon.”
I laugh, reaching down to try and get her off. “Maybe she doesn’t hate you, she just wants all your attention.”
“If that was the case she should do it in a less violent way.” I manage to get her off his leg, and as soon as she’s in my arms she’s purring at me.
“Maybe animals just hate you, we should test it with Tulips,” I joke.
“She’s met me and likes me.”
“When has she met you without me?” I ask, offended.
“Ethan introduced us when you were sleeping one day.”
“Traitor.” I shake my head.
Franki jumps from my arms, and lunges at a fluffy ball toy of hers and attacks it like it’s a mouse. Parker pulls me back, cupping my face in his hands, forcing my eyes up to his.
“I mean it. I’m not losing you again. I’m going to do this right. I’ll have you in love with me again in no time. If you’re going to be with me, then you’re going to fully be with me. All in or nothing, Lil.”
I roll my lips between my teeth, but then his mouth is on mine again, and I have nothing left to say.
Which is probably for the best because there’s no way I can admit that I don’t think I ever stopped.