Chapter 30
Parker
“Where are we going? You really like to kidnap me and take me to random places, you know that?” Lily rambles.
“Kidnapping would be against your will, and you have always been very willing.”
She huffs, dropping back against the seat while I continue to drive us to our destination.
We’re staying along the coastline Amity sits on, but I want to make sure we’re far enough out that we won’t be disturbed.
There’s a spot near one of the cliffs that we can drive onto the beach and set up a private movie night.
It’s a spot I found while Lily was away when I was searching for new places that weren’t covered in memories of her. I wanted somewhere to be able to sit with my thoughts and not have them be consumed by Lily.
Of course, it didn’t work because whenever it was quiet my mind would always go back to her. I would wonder what it would be like if she was with me. What she would think, what she would say?
Not that I can ever predict what she’s going to say.
“This isn’t our normal spot,” she comments as I turn us off the road and onto the sand.
“Wow, you’re so perceptive, Lil. What else do you see?”
She shoves my shoulder and I laugh, making sure to keep the car straight.
I reach over to her, hooking my arm around her middle and pulling her up against my side.
Keeping my arm around to hold her close.
I expect her to fight me at least a little bit, maybe shove me.
But she doesn’t. Instead, she leans into me, resting her head on my shoulder and I relax.
We get to the spot; once I turn off my truck the only sound around us is the waves crashing against the shore. We’re far enough back that even when the tide comes in it won’t come close to us.
“Come on,” I encourage. I’m not wanting to let go of her yet, so I drag her out of the truck with me to get the bed set up.
Grabbing the large blankets from the back of the cab, pillows, and laptop, I start to set up. I’m nothing if not prepared.
It doesn’t take long to get the cab full and comfy enough for us to lay in.
Lily climbs up; she arranges the pillows how she likes and curls up in her favorite blanket I have.
It’s the same one she favored years ago, and I smirk.
She’s curled up with just the top of her head peeking out.
She looks totally adorable cuddled up like that.
The only thing that would make it better would be her cuddled up in my arms.
I hop up to join her, opening my laptop to pull up the movie I downloaded. As it starts, I settle into the blankets with Lily and do what I wanted by pulling her into my arms. She settles against my chest and I smile. I’ve missed this so much.
“You remembered?” she gasps when the intro credits start.
“Of course. I remember everything there is to know about you.”
“Parker,” she whispers.
“Lil.”
“I’m sorry we lost out on so much time.” Her voice is so low; if I wasn’t right here, I wouldn’t be able to hear her.
I lean back to look at her, hooking a finger under her chin so she’ll look up at me. Her blue eyes shine. They remind me of the color of the ocean in front of us. The moon makes her glow even more than she already does.
“I’m not,” I tell her honestly. “Have I wished that we were never apart? Of course, but I wouldn’t change anything either.
You got to do what you wanted, you got to leave and experience more of the world.
Even if you didn’t come back to me that would’ve been okay.
As long as you were happy, that’s all that mattered to me. ”
It’s one of the rare times I think I’ve rendered Lily speechless.
I feel proud of these moments because they’re so few and far between.
Her mouth opens, then shuts as her eyes search mine.
The three words I want to say are on the tip of my tongue.
I’ve never stopped loving her, and I want her to know that.
But I won’t want to risk ruining the perfect moment we’ve found ourselves in.
“Parker,” she says softly again. “Kiss me.”
I don’t waste another second. I refuse to waste any more time.
I know I said slow but that’s been for her, and at this moment nothing feels slow.
The second my lips meet hers there’s no slow.
She’s made it clear how she feels about going slow, and part of me did it because I knew how it would drive her crazy.
But that’s flown out the window as her tongue meets mine and all I can think about is being with her. Right now, tomorrow, the next day, and every day for the rest of our lives. I want to show her that. If I can’t say the words yet, I can show her in other ways.
Lily swings her leg over me, and I quickly move my computer away, so it doesn’t go flying somewhere into the sand. She straddles my hips, our mouths never separating as she settles onto my lap. I never got to come earlier and have been fighting an erection ever since.
When she moans as she rubs against me, I’m rock solid, and thrusting up instinctively trying to get closer. Her hands bury into my hair, pulling the strands like she did earlier in the tack room. My tongue shoves into her mouth roughly as I think about how she tasted when she came for me.
She’s rubbing herself against me, and my cock strains against the zipper; it’s almost painful. I want to feel more of her. But the way she’s rubbing herself against me while kissing me like her life depends on it, I’m not about to ruin a single second of this.
I sit up, keeping a hold on her, but wanting to have a better grip to guide her hips on me. Her teeth sink into my bottom lip, sucking it into her mouth roughly and I groan, tightening my hold on her, and pulling her harder into my lap.
She moans, and I swear I could come just from the single sound alone. Her hips surge forward again. I hold onto her as she continues to move on me again, riding my lap while kissing me deeply.
I’m worried I’m going to come in my pants again, as much as I want to give her what she wants, I feel like I should save myself another embarrassment.
Though, she doesn’t seem to care because the way she’s moving, I know it feels good to her.
And with how she’s moaning, I know she’s about to get there.
“You going to come for me again, Lil?” I growl against her mouth, nipping her bottom lip when she whimpers.
“Are you?” she breathes.
I hum, kissing her roughly before my hand buries in the hair on the back of her head, yanking the strands enough that it breaks our kiss. She tries to chase my mouth, but I hold her just out of reach.
“Not yet. I’ll wait until I’m buried inside your sweet little pussy.”
Lily swivels her hips and I grunt, my dick painfully hard inside my jeans, dying to be free, to be closer to her. Shit, to just relieve some of the ache.
“Think you can even wait that long?” she taunts.
I pull her mouth back down onto mine in a vicious kiss, tangling her tongue with mine as we battle. She continues to rub herself against me, and I encourage it. Wanting her to get what she needs. I have to use every distraction technique I can think of that isn’t how good she feels.
Lily cries out my name, nails digging into the back of my neck as her thighs tighten around mine.
“Let go, Lil, no one can hear you out here. Let go, then I can give us both what we really want,” I encourage.
She lets go with a sharp cry. Moaning loudly as the orgasm racks through her. I wrap my arm around her back, holding her tightly against me as she comes down.
I don’t let her recover before I’m pulling her shirt off, then quickly unhooking her bra, and tossing it to the side. She claws at my shirt, and I help her get it off before I’m flipping her onto her back and covering her body with mine.
“Please tell me you’re actually going to fuck me this time,” she practically pleads.
I run my nose along hers, teasingly. “Maybe if you ask nicely.”
Lily reaches down between us, unbuttoning my jeans, our breath mingling in the small amount of open air between us. She reaches her hand in, wrapping it around my length and I grunt as her cold delicate fingers tighten.
“Please fuck me, Parker,” she breathes and it takes me right back to the very first night we had sex. The night we lost our virginities to each other. I was so nervous, I didn’t want to hurt her or mess anything up. I wanted it to be completely perfect for her.
This feels a lot like that, though we aren’t going to be interrupted by her mom this time. No one is going to ruin this moment for us. We get to start over. We get to have new firsts, and this time we don’t have to worry about the lasts. This time we have forever.
I take her mouth with mine again because I’m about to lay my entire soul out to her if my mouth doesn’t have something to do. She pumps her fist over me, and I thrust into her hand, but I need more.
I guide her hand out of my pants, pinning it up by her head.
“If you want that you’re going to have to get naked,” I tell her. I don’t think she’s moved faster to take off her shorts with her one free hand.
“You too.” She nudges me with her foot, and I join her in the haste to get my jeans off. I have to set her hand free when I sit up to be able to remove both my jeans and boxers at once.
We’re both in a frenzy to get naked, and despite the cool coastal air around us I’m burning up. As soon as I manage to kick my pants off, I’m dropping my body back onto hers. Lily looks up at me, wrapping her arms around the back of my neck.
Neither of us say anything, the weight of this moment is heavy. It’s momentous, and I want to savor every single second of it.
“Parker, please,” she pleads, hooking a leg around my hip.
“Hold on.” I rest my elbows to frame her face, and move the hair from her face to make sure she’s looking at me when I say what I’m about to.
“Please don’t tell me you already finished, I know it’s been a while but at least put it in first. I mean jeez, at least before you could actually—”
I cut her off with a punishing kiss that I end quickly. “I’m going to get you back for that, you know?”
“Mhm,” she hums. “Could you get back at me by putting us both out of our misery?”
I chuckle. “Yeah, but you’re going to watch.”
“Watch what?”
I angle her head to look down between us, where we’re almost connected as the tip of my dick is poised at her entrance. “Watch me remind you why it’s always been me. Us. Watch you become mine again.”
We both watch as I push inside her, instantly enveloped in her perfectly wet, warm pussy. Lily moans and I tense trying to hold myself steady. It’s the best feeling I’ve had in such a long time. It’s everything I wanted and more.
It’s Lily, and me. How it should always be.
“Parker,” she whimpers.
“Yeah?”
“Not to rush you, but if you don’t move soon, I may lose it.”
I drop my head onto her shoulder, pushing in to the hilt in a solid thrust that has us both groaning.
Her nails dig into the skin on my back, and I turn to suck her earlobe into my mouth before speaking.
“You don’t tell me how to fuck you. You may have forgotten what it’s like to have a man know what you need, but trust me, I remember every single thing when it comes to your body. ”
I move my hips back, withdrawing almost completely before thrusting forward roughly once again. “And if you keep going with your smart mouth, I’ll make sure to give it something else to do.”
“Promises, prom—”
I cut her off with another sharp thrust that has her gasping and digging her nails even deeper in my back. She wraps her legs around me, and I lose all sense of taking things slow or gentle because she’s holding onto me for dear life.
She keeps her eyes locked on me while crying out for more. I keep my hands on the top of her head, her soft blonde hair feels like silk between my fingers as I thrust once again. She tightens around me. Everything is tight, hot, soft, mind blowing. Fucking. Perfect.
Lily’s cries get louder as I angle my hips to rub against her clit with every thrust.
“Yeah, baby, scream my name just like you used to,” I grind out as she gasps and moans. “I’ve thought about how you sound with my cock buried in your cunt every time I’ve touched my dick the last seven years.”
And she does. She screams my name so loud it doesn’t matter how far out we are, or how loud the ocean is. I’m sure someone is hearing us, but it doesn’t matter. The only thing that matters is giving my girl what she needs.
I cover her body with mine, completely, fucking her at a punishing pace while my mouth consumes hers. Our tongues battle for dominance while she claws at my back and when I taste her gasp and feel her squeeze my dick so tightly that I see stars, I know she’s right there.
“Let go, Lil. Give it to me. Give it all to me.”
I’m not just talking about her orgasm. I’m talking about everything. Give me her, her future, her love, her everything.
She comes, so hard she’s practically convulsing in my arms and the way my dick is in a vice inside her I can’t hold back any longer. My own release barrels through me. I push in as deep as possible, filling her completely.
Our skin sticks together while we catch our breath; I kiss her softly as we come down.
“Worth the wait?” she asks smugly.
I chuckle against her lips. “I’d do it all again if I had to.”