27. Ivy
It should have pained me to see my boyfriend on his knees for his best friend, my archnemesis, but the love they clearly had for each other emanated out of every shared glance, every touch. I couldn’t fault Lex for falling in love with Carter, and I’d stopped wondering why anyone felt the same about Lex in return. The truth was that the four of us needed each other. We were always meant to be this way, and I never understood that more than I did while facing down the end of such a tremendous thing.
Lex yanked Carter to his feet, but I continued my ministrations on Miri, and when Lex saw us, splayed out and rubbing against each other, he paused to gaze, twisting his lips into a smile that made me ashamed of how much I liked it.
“I thought Carter would be ashamed,” Lex said, plopping down in the chair Carter had just vacated. Carter sank to his knees at Lex’s feet, and Lex looked down at him, running the back of his knuckles along the side of his cheek. It struck me how tenderly he touched him, even after the aggressive way they’d taken each other in the woods.
“But I only wanted to know what it felt like to break you apart.” Carter licked Lex’s cock from base to tip and sucked it deep in his mouth, making Lex groan and melt into his seat, and Miri writhed against me, bucking into my hand, her pussy so wet. I would miss Miri, too—my first love, my first crush. Our hearts were so inexplicably linked that losing her severed a vital part of my soul. I loved her as much as I loved Carter.
“Remember our first time,” she murmured, running a hand down the side of my face. Perhaps she sensed my desperation, perhaps she wanted to keep me in the present. “Remember how hard you shook.”
“I couldn’t believe someone like you wanted someone like me.” I laughed out a sad noise and kissed her to remind myself that she was real, that she was still with me, after all this time and all we’d done.
“Darling,” she murmured, tears brimming the corners of her eyes, “I’ll want you until I die.”
Miri turned and dropped in front of me, pushing my dress up and snuggling her body in between my legs. She dragged my panties down my legs and off my feet, and then that soft, delicate mouth fluttered against my vulva, kissing and nuzzling and licking at the most sensitive parts of my body.
God, she was so beautiful, and I loved every inch of her. She circled my clit with her lips and curled her fingers inside me, sending jolts of pure pleasure down my legs and up my spine. Somewhere in the distance, Lex sucked Carter off, or perhaps they had moved on by now. Either way, the thought of the four of us together like this overtook my senses, and my climax hit me hard. Unexpectedly. Miri fucked her fingers inside me harder, making it more euphoric and sending chills and tingles to every inch of my skin. It made me weak, and I fell back on the bed where Miri let me ride it out, and after I was a panting mess, she crawled up my body to claim my mouth in a searing kiss.
How I loved her. How it hurt that she’d be leaving. How I hated that it had to happen.
“You’re so fucking beautiful when you come,” she murmured, just low enough for me to hear.
I rolled us so I was on top of her, my hips in between her thighs, and I kissed my way down her body, pushing her dress up and tugging her panties down to her ankles as I went.
“Mmm, so are you,” I said, digging my teeth into the side of her thigh. She still had bruises here from the night in the woods, faded to a dull yellowish purple. I kissed them, relishing in the way her thighs trembled under my touch. She moaned when I brushed my tongue against her clit, and her fingers found my hair when I licked her completely.
“Oh, look, Mr. Fairfax,” Carter said. “I believe we’re being treated to a retelling of what happened that fated night at Mount Oberon.”
“It’s a reimagining,” Miri whimpered, and a giggle burst out of me, blowing hot breath against her skin, which made her gasp and shiver.
Carter moved in behind me, his angry cock cradled at the juncture of my thighs, and dug his fingers to my hips to hold me in place. His chest radiated heat against my back as he leaned over me, kissing Miri’s knees and thighs and the back of my shoulders. Worshipping both of us. Revering our love with his own.
“There is one part we left out,” Lex said, and I perked up to look at him, resting my head on one of Miri’s legs.
“Oh, yeah?” I said.
“Yeah,” Lex sat on the bed next to Miri, shifting her weight so she sat in his lap, her legs on either side of his with Carter and me in between them. He positioned himself at her opening and slid home, her hands going to his legs to support herself. She peered down at me from her perch on top of Lex, truly embodying the princess and her prince. Her pretty pussy was spread open right in front of us, glistening and swollen from abuse, but truly inviting as Lex slowly pumped in and out. “Carter, if you’ll do the honors.”
My husband leaned forward, his body so heavy on top of mine, and he dragged his tongue from Lex’s root all the way over their connection to Miri’s clit, sucking and nursing until Miri moaned and fell back against Lex.
“Fuck,” Lex said, his legs shaking. “I’ll never get over how good you feel.”
“Bleeding hell,” Miri said. “That made my toes curl.”
“Do it again.” Lex pushed inside Miri harder, right in front of my face, and I knew I should have felt ashamed of how much I loved it. Instead, I raged with lust. I wanted to lick her next. I wanted to watch them both fall apart in my mouth.
Carter reached between us and rearranged his cock so he could slide inside of me in one quick thrust, filling me to the brim, sending sparks of energy through my molecules. I moaned and almost collapsed onto the ground. He was so hard and watching Lex fuck Miri was so arousing, I couldn’t help myself. I dragged the flat of my tongue over Lex and up to Miri’s sensitive skin, relishing the taste of both of them, tangy and sweet and mine. Both of them…so incredibly mine.
Carter groaned and dug his nails into my waist deeper, his nails biting into my skin in a deliciously violent assault—hard and rough and dirty. I played with Lex and licked Miri, and in the heat of the moment, I let myself be overcome with this powerful connection between us.
Like we had in those woods, the boundaries between us disappeared. Carter’s pleasure became mine, and Lex’s surged through me at the moment he came, gripping at Miri while he rutted into her. That set off Miri’s orgasm and she rode me through it, her fingers gripping my scalp while she pointed me where she wanted me, her moans a chorus to my own euphoria. When they were spent, Carter pulled me upright, holding me close with a hand around my neck and his teeth on my earlobe.
But Lex wasn’t done with us yet. He grabbed his cock, quickly hardening again, and climbed off the bed.
Oh, no.
“I made you a promise, Chicago,” he said, bending over for his pants, where he pulled a small bottle of lube and a condom out of his back pocket. Carter chuckled and lowered down my body so his mouth could lap at my overheated flesh. I hissed in a breath, my pussy too tender for his warm tongue, but he held me still, that look in his eyes warning me not to move. If Lex was going to fuck him, he wanted his face in my cunt.
“I’ve got an idea,” Miri said, sinking off the bed as well. She kneeled down in front of where Carter leaned over the bed, lining up her face with his cock. From this vantage point, I couldn’t see what she was doing, but when Carter moaned into my pussy, I figured she’d slotted him into her throat.
Lex walked up behind him and opened the bottle of lube with a quiet snick. He squirted some down Carter’s ass, eyeing me over our husband’s body while he lined himself up. He pushed into Carter. Slow. So slow.
Carter moaned and sucked at me, gripping me harder to hold himself steady.
Lex’s thrusts got faster. Stronger. The sick, twisted nature of watching my fiancé fuck my boyfriend while my best friend blew him rocked through me like a sledgehammer. I met Lex’s eyes and when he gave me that wicked little grin, I fell apart again.
* * *
I’ll spare the goodbyes. They were hard enough as it was.
I tried not to cry in front of them. I wanted to be strong. I wanted them to know it was okay to go and that I loved them no matter what, so I held it all inside. Carter and Miri left together, tears in their eyes, kisses on their lips, and promises to call on the wind.
Then Lex and I shared a quiet ride across town to the apartment our parents had rented for us in Crystal City. Movers were unpacking our things by the time we walked in the front door, but something felt different already. Incomplete. Our square broken.
It reminded me of stretching a rubber band so far it almost snapped—that jittery sensation in my stomach, the pounding in my heart, the clenching in my jaw, the anticipation of any second now, any second now, any second now. With each mile Carter and Miri put between us, I sensed the breaking point encroaching and wondered when it would recoil to sting my exposed heart.
On that first night in the new place, as I lay alone in my bed in the dark, listening to Lex move around the apartment outside my door, I finally let my heart crack.
I cried. A lot.
I hated that I had to go through the pain and shame of losing my spouses in front of the world, in front of the one person I sort-of-kind-of hated and loved most. A sob barreled out of my chest, and I slammed a pillow over my face, hoping I could stifle it.
I froze when my door creaked open. “Leave me alone, Lex.”
He didn’t say anything, but the bed shifted as he crawled in next to me and lifted me by the arms. He tugged me closer, resting my head on his chest, and running his fingers through my hair to brush it away from my face.
“Your incessant blubbering is giving me a headache,” he said. “If you won’t shut up, I might as well stay here until you do.”
I wanted to claw his fucking eyes out, but I tucked my head under his chin and held tighter to him, letting the sound of his cold, dead heart lull me to sleep.