Chapter 5 Pax
PAX
Aaron is so nice. And he’s a great cook along with baker, but I hate that he was right about my heat.
“Darlin’, you look like shit. How about you go take a shower and get settled?”
“That’s a good idea.” I stumble up from the table.
I have to catch myself on the doorframe of the bathroom, where there’s a nice big shower.
It’s big enough for four people if you ask me, but I don’t care.
I strip off my clothes and get the water temperature I want.
Luke warm. I don’t need anymore heat right now.
I sink into the shower seat and face the shower head in front of me while one rains down from above and the other hits my back.
It’s amazing. I could sit in here for my entire Heat and fuck myself silly on my knotting dildo. If only I knew, I wouldn’t beg.
I squeeze my eyes shut. As nice as Aaron is, why did there have to be a mix up?
Why is there a sexy Alpha sharing my cabin when I need privacy the most?
I hate being around Alphas when I’m in Heat.
They make me feel so… defeated. As if I’m only my Omega status because of how my body reacts.
It’s why I’d rather be alone every time my Heat comes around.
That way, no Alpha can see how pathetic I get.
The water feels too warm now, and I dial it down on the cold scale a little bit, hoping for some relief. A sigh escapes my lips when the icy water hits me. First from above, then my back, and finally my face.
I should have brought my dildo in with me, but I was distracted with the need to cool down. I’m grateful Aaron fed me. His pumpkin loaf is what my pumpkin loving heart loves and I could eat it for every meal.
But I’m not an Omega that needs an Alpha. No, every Alpha I’ve met has told me I’m not what they want.
Except for Aaron.
He’s been nothing but nice to me, plus he’s flirted with me. He thinks I’m attractive. I think.
I let the water cascade over me, soaking in the cold until I can’t feel it anymore.
“Pax? You okay in there?” Aaron asks through the door. “Anything I can help you with?”
I push to my feet and turn off the water. “I’m fine. Thanks.” I swipe a hand through my hair, then grab the towel hanging from the door.
I have the towel around my waist by the time I open the door. Aaron’s there. His eyes go wide as they sweep down my body. Usually, I’d feel gross about it, but there’s something about Aaron that I trust.
“Sorry,” he starts. “I was getting worried. You’d been in there for an hour and a half.”
I blink water from my eyes. “Really? It felt shorter than that. But the shower helped a lot.”
Aaron nods, but there’s worry etched in his brows. “Are you okay?”
I bob my head. “Just…” I take a deep breath. “Nervous about being around an Alpha right now.” My lips feel dry, but I refrain from licking them.
“I won’t touch you without your permission.
I’ll shift and go play in the woods for days if I need to.
But I hate the idea of you being alone. If you’ll allow me, I’d like to check in on you every couple of hours.
Bring you food and water to make sure you’re staying hydrated and nourished. Heat takes a lot out of someone.”
“You’re too good to be true,” I say.
“You’ll let me, then?”
I nod again.
Aaron visibly relaxes. “Thank you. Thank you. Now, is there anything you need right now?”
I swallow and nod to my forgotten bag. “Just my…uh… kit. It’ll be the floral bag in my duffle.” The bathroom is nice and roomy so I’ll hole up here for my Heat. “And if there are more blankets or towels, I’d like to line the tub and make a nest.”
“I’ll be right back!” Aaron turns and races to the closet while I grab my kit and one of the pillows off the bed. Just one, I’m not greedy. But I do take all the decorative throw pillows. Surely he won’t miss those. None of the stuffed animals, though. Those are his, and I don’t want to ruin them.
I toss my spoils into the empty tub. Thank goodness it’s one of those giant spa tubs with the jets, otherwise it wouldn’t be so comfortable. There’s even a nice ledge I can suction a couple of my toys to if I wanted.
“This is what I could find.” Aaron’s arms are full with a bunch of sheets and at least two thick blankets, bath towels, and dishtowels.
“Just toss them in. Thank you.” I don’t meet his gaze, too embarrassed that I’m starting to chub just by him standing here.
Aaron chokes and staggers back. Away from me. “I’ll leave you to it. And don’t worry about anything. Just holler if you need food or something to drink before I’m here. I found a nice little cart. I’m gonna go load it up and bring to you before…”
Before everything really gets started. My insides cramp and it’s almost time I need to deal with the situation.
I keep the towel around my waist while Aaron fetches drinks and food and I arrange my tub nest. It looks so cozy inside that I almost climb in before he arrives.
“Okay, I brought an ice bucket incase you want that. Couple of glasses. Some bottle of sodas and water. Lots and lots of water.”
I laugh because there’s an entire case on the bottom shelf of the cart he found.
“And the rest of the pumpkin loaves, since you loved them so much. And muffins and granola bars. And they aren’t cold, but I brought protein shakes, too.”
“And you’re unmated?” I ask. My face immediately goes red, as does his.
“Haven’t really been looking.” Aaron shrugs.
“But you want a partner?” I look at the cart, then back at him. He’d make someone very happy one day.
“Yes,” he whispers. Aaron wipes a hand through his hair. “I’ll…” He gestures to the door and turns. “Don’t hesitate to call for me for any reason.”
“Thank you. And remember. Pumpkin means I give full consent to whatever I’m asking for.”
He swallows and nods, but doesn’t turn back to me.
Once he closes the door behind him, I drop my towel. I don’t want anything touching me right now. Sweat drips from my brow, and I feel it slide down my spine and into my crack.
One breath. Two. Three. Four. Hold. Out.
I rip my floral bag open and line the toys on the rim of the tub.
I have four I use for my Heat and they go from average to size queen with a knot that rivals an Alpha’s knot or even a fist. I don’t want people knowing how big I like it when I’m begging for a real knot.
When I’m not in Heat, I’m satisfied by my partner, but in Heat, bigger is better.
I have no idea if that’s how most Omegas are or if I have some weird glitch.
A whimper rips from me. I need something or someone in my hole and I need it now.