Chapter 8
I make it for a half hour.
That’s when I lose it and I hit the fridge like I’m raiding an enemy compound to make two combat sandwiches. Gather up some assorted snacks. And add a few more of those cookies.
The whole room is watching me as I snag some bottled water and carry the food off toward our room.
Our room.
Jade’s still sitting on the kitchen stool staring at the doorway with a cute expression when I return.
“Don’t disturb us until tomorrow,” I tell everyone else as I scoop Jade off the stool and toss her over my shoulder.
She squeals. But it’s a light sound that makes my pulse trip.
“G’night,” she calls to them as we round the corner.
I kick the door shut and lower Jade to the bed—the one away from the window.
“This is much better,” I force out through straining vocal cords that seem to be tied somehow to my raging lust.
“It is. I’ve had enough socializing for a while. I guess I’m just a loner. Unless it comes to being with you. I like that.”
She’s smiling, and I can’t look away. Holy fuck.
It hurts so goddamned good.
Before I think, I sit on the bed next to her, my thigh pressed against hers, overwhelmed by the crowding sensation behind my ribcage.
“Your smile stopped me dead in my tracks.”
“Mine?” She asks, laughing.
“Yeah. You need to tell me if stealing you away over my shoulder can make you this happy every time. I’ll be doing it every day.”
Jade’s whole body softens as she carefully reaches out and strokes her fingers through my hair.
My eyes want to close, my body wants to lean closer.
Whispering, she says, “I don’t know what tomorrow will bring, but right now I feel safe and really happy.”
She deserves to feel safe all the time. That uncertainty makes my brow tense as I catch her hand and kiss the soft curve of her palm.
“We’re going to get to the bottom of what you found on your father’s computer. I’ve got Agile’s intel team looking into some of those names.”
A puzzled look flashes in her gaze. “I didn’t send them to you.”
“You didn’t have to. You didn’t log out of your email. It was still open on my laptop.”
“Oh jeez.” Her eyes widen. “I’m not good at this covert stuff.”
“You don’t have to be. You’ve got us now.”
With a shake of her head, she rubs at her temple. “No one has ever been so good to me.”
“I’m sorry you’ve had to go through so much.”
I lean in and brush my lips over hers because now that I’ve gotten one taste, I’m not going to be able to stop, exactly like I told her.
“I wish I could erase all the pain.”
“You don’t have to erase anything, you can just… be you.”
Can I?
I’ve never felt the possessiveness I feel for Jade. It makes me dangerous. More than just being a trained killing machine.
If anything happened to Jade, I’d lose my fucking mind.
“What are you thinking?” she asks, ranging her fingers down my pecs, touching me in a shy, sexual way for the first time.
“I’m thinking how unrealistically possessive and bossy I’m going to be because of the way you make me feel.”
“Grrr…” she teases, but I’m dead serious.
Jade makes me question everything. How am I going to function with her safety consuming my thoughts.
I could barely operate on the mission tonight. My team deserves better.
“You should eat.” I pull back, standing up.
It’s too much. Too fast for her.
“You tryin’ to thicken me up?”
“I think it’s been a while since you had regular meals. That won’t happen on my guard.”
She nods, turning quiet and I move the plates of food toward the bed. “Here, hold these,” I tell her, then climb onto the bed to rest my back against the headboard, pulling her between my legs so she can relax back onto me.
“Wow, you make a great cushion,” she teases, settling in against me.
Being soft is the last thing on my mind. Jade makes me hard all over.
As my cock goes from half to full mast, I stifle a curse. This is going to be torture.
But my mind can’t help building images of us on a beach in some faraway place. Her sun-kissed skin stretched out before me, as we drink from coconuts.
Fuck. I smother my groan with a cough.
She has to feel the thickening of my cock against her back.
When Jade glances up at me over her shoulder, her cheeks are growing pinker.
Yep. Definitely knows I’m running hot for her.
“Fuck eating. It can wait.” I take the plate from her hand and shove it onto the night stand. “I have to kiss you now.”
Turning her toward me, I tilt her head back, treating myself to her lush, pouty, lower lip.
The easy way she opens to me, makes my pulse throb. All over.
I take my time, exploring, tasting, intoxicated by the shy way her tongue is exploring mine.
When we finally break for air, I cradle her face in my hand, searching those pretty blue eyes.
“I can’t seem to keep my hands off you.”
“Then don’t.”
A feral sound claws out of my throat as I let my other hand skim down her body. From the right over her heart, down until I’m gripping her pussy through her denim.
Her breath catches hard. I take advantage of her parted lips, sweeping in for another attempt to quench my thirst.
She softens, tiny sounds coming from her throat. Stoking, fanning, pouring gasoline on my fire.
My tongue grows more insistent, mimicking the way I want to fuck her with my cock.
With a needy whimper she lifts, grinds harder against my hand. “Yesss. Yes. I need you to touch me,” she breathes against my lips.
I’m already clenching my teeth. Trying to go easy. Not flip her below me when that’s what my body is demanding.
A rough, claiming fuck.
That’s all I can think about.
With my sternum sawing up and down, I find it’s impossible to be gentle. My need is too volatile. And she’s responding hotly. My rough grip on her pussy, shifting lower, exploring her soft, feminine inner thighs through her jeans with forceful grabs.
When her legs spread, an invitation, a river of heat floods my cock.
“I can feel how hot you’re getting through your jeans,” I tell her, my voice gone deep, as I tease my thumb up and down the valley of her sex. The denim grows damp, heating more with every stroke.
Her fingers bump mine as she fumbles to undo her button, but when I see what she wants, I growl against her neck and take over.
“That’s my job.”
I love the way she gasps when I rip open the button, shove down her zipper and dive my hand into that secret, dark heaven.
Slow. Fucking slow down.
Only my hand has found the place it belongs.
Christ, she’s sweet. Bare. Ripe. Tiny in my oversized hand.
“This is dangerous pussy,” I pant into her ear, my tongue finding the curve of her neck for a slow lick. “I won’t be able to get close to you and not be desperate to shove my fat cock into this beauty.”
“Ryker,” she whimpers, arching against my hand. “Put your fingers inside of me.”
Goddamn I want to put every part of me I can inside of her.
Her tempting, slick heat is my weakness. There’s no way I can stop my fingers from dipping in, feeling her clench for the first time.
“Fuck, Jade.”
“T-tell me. What does it feel like?” she asks almost slyly, a needy tremble in her words.
It’s impossible to swallow. I can’t even get a breath in for the clench I’ve got on my core to keep from going off like a rocket.
“Feels so damned good. Hot. Tight.”
“Am I slippery?”
Oh shit. My girl wants me to talk dirty.
Well, hang on, angel.
“You want me to talk you through this, baby?”
“Yes. I d-don’t know why, but the things you say make me feel beautiful. Even sexy. I’ve never felt that.”
“You are so damned beautiful, Jade. I’m an animal when I’m near you. Got me hard as steel.”
“Oh,” she breathes, “oh my god. That makes me ache.”
“You like it when I talk dirty while I fuck this tight little pussy with my fingers?”
“Oh, heavens. Yes. I do. It’s not normal—”
I catch her face, making her look at me as I still my hand with two of my fingers buried deep inside her. “Everything, every fucking freaky thing we want to do is normal. All of it. Nothing is off the table. You want it, I’ll do it.”
The size of her pupils nearly consumes all of the blue in her eyes. She’s trembling, her lips parted as she nods, not hiding how excited that makes her.
“I like that,” she whispers, her gaze falling to my mouth as her lips part.
A groan rattles out of me. “So do I.”
I kiss her as I grip her pussy, my body naturally arching against her back, seeking pressure.
She spreads her thighs wide, leaning back against my chest, hooking her feet over my legs, inviting me to finger her deeper.
Oh. Fuck. Oh. Fuck.
I nearly come on the spot.
Hoarse, I tell her, “You’re tight as a coin-slot. Gonna take all this monster dick inside of you though. You’ll love that won’t you?”
“I… I don’t know. Will you—” she hesitates, her delicate throat tipping back.
“What do you want me to do?”
“Will you want my other place too?”
My throat slams shut, a violent spasm hitting the base of my dick, correspondingly making my hand flex inside her jeans.
It takes a few seconds before I can speak. “Does my angel like anal sex?”
Her pussy clenches around my finger, a stuttering moan coming from her as she pitches her head back against my shoulder.
“You want me to fuck your tight little ass, Jade?”
For a long minute, all she can do is gasp for air, her pussy quivering against my fingers. I don’t push her over the edge. I’ve got her right where I want her. On fire.
“Tell me, sweetheart,” I demand against her ear.
“I’ve n-never done that.”
Keeping one finger in her tight as hell pussy, I slick another fingertip over her delicate back entrance.
She claws at my legs, breath turning hard. Nipples peaked beneath her T-shirt. “Whoa, wow. Do that. That.”
I don’t penetrate her ass, as much as I’d love to. She doesn’t need it to come, and if she’s never done anal play, I want to take it slow.
Teach her right so she can enjoy herself.
“That’s it, Jade.” I use her name intentionally. “Feel me everywhere.”
I grit out a rough curse as my balls throb with a warning.
This game is getting dangerous.
“Let me have your orgasm, right fucking now.”
My words, the rough touch in her pussy are exactly what she needs. Her thighs squeeze closer around my hand, her fingertips digging into my legs, head thrown back against me. “R-ye-ker! Ohhhh, yes.”
Ecstasy rolling her eyes back, she unravels with a long cry of pleasure.
“That’s my beautiful girl.” Husky, quiet, I speak against her ear. “I love how you gave yourself over to me.”
I’m shaking from the extreme pressure inside of my body as I ease her through the last contractions of her orgasm.
When I pull my hand free, I bring my fingers up for a taste.
“You’re so sweet. Here, kiss me.” I drag my tongue all over my fingers as she watches in surprise. Her eyes only widen more when I turn her lips up to mine. “Taste yourself with me.”
She does. Her delicate tongue dancing along mine, along my fingers too, little drunken sounds coming from her the entire time.
I’m in so much trouble.
“You come so hot,” I half-groan, as I wrap my arms around her, grinding my ten inches against her tight little ass cheeks. “Got me throbbing.”
“Don’t you want—”
“No. Not here. I want the house to ourselves when I have you for the first time.”
In a flash, she’s embarrassed. “Oh no! I was too loud.”
“You were exactly perfect. I loved making you lose control, it was epic.”
“But if you wanted to… you could be quiet”
“It’s not about them hearing us when I have you. It’s about me being able to keep you safe. I want to get lost in you, Jade. There’s a lot going on and I can’t let my guard down.”
“Oh goodness,” she says quietly, her fingertips tracing a slow circle on my thigh, somehow electrifying my skin even through my pants. “I understand now. And that’s really honorable of you.”
I kiss her cheek, letting myself soak in the feel of her against me. We’re going to be explosive in bed together.
“Soon,” I rumble, closing my eyes as a dark, possessive monster stirs in my veins, overtaking my body.
“Let’s eat and get some sleep,” I tell her, trying to sound normal and failing.
She yawns, leaning into my shoulder. “I think you knocked me out. Are you going to sleep tonight?”
“I’ll doze.”
“With me?” Her voice is so soft and vulnerable, my heart stops and restarts painfully.
“I’d love that if you want.”
She looks up at me over her shoulder. Smiling and unguarded. Fully open to me. “Your arms would feel so safe.”