Chapter 28
CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
CURTIS
Finn’s awkward as he leaves, like he doesn’t know whether to kiss me goodbye or ask to stay the night, so I take that option out of his hands by kissing him softly on the mouth and telling him that I’ll let him know when I’ve edited the video.
I stay up half the night watching it over and over again—for editing purposes, of course, and not because it’s the hottest video I’ve ever done.
Is it conceited of me to watch myself blowing another guy and think it’s hot?
Probably. For maybe the first time, my subscribers will be getting my whole face in the shot.
But his dick is so perfect I’m not really paying attention to myself at all while watching it, so I assume it will be the same for them.
I also have to make sure I stitch his video and mine together seamlessly while also making sure Finn’s face doesn’t dip into the screen.
There’s one point his chin does, but that’s it, so I mark the time, and when I’m done with editing, I send it to him for approval before climbing into bed and passing out.
It’s only a few hours later that I’m woken by my phone buzzing with notification after notification of messages.
Finn
Holy fuuuuuck.
Is it weird I just jerked off to myself?
It’s weird, isn’t it?
Damn.
I’m going to watch it again.
I laugh. At least we’re in agreement that it was good content.
Curtis
Did you check to see if you’re okay with your chin/mouth being visible?
Finn
Oops. No. But I’ll do that on this rewatch.
Or maybe the next one.
Curtis
The sooner you do it, the sooner I can post it. It would be criminal to keep this amount of hotness to ourselves.
Finn
Okay, skipped to that part, and yeah, I’m good with that. Post it.
His confidence seems like such a shift from the hesitance over doing this at all, but I welcome it. Still, I double-check.
Curtis
Are you sure?
Finn
Fuck yes. I thought it would be weird, and as soon as I heard my voice, I had to mute it, but visually, I’m okay with it.
That’s more like the Finn I know.
Curtis
For what it’s worth, your voice might be the sexiest part about the video. In my opinion anyway. Posting now.
Finn
We’ll see about the voice thing. People will comment with the truth.
Curtis
Try not to read them.
Finn
I want to be you when I grow up. What’s it like to have self-control like that?
Curtis
Can you really grow up to be me when you’re older than I am?
Finn
This conversation took a depressing turn. Can we go back to talking about how hot we are together?
The notifications on Money Shot are already blowing up my phone, and the video’s been live for less than a few minutes. People wouldn’t have even had enough time to watch the whole thing.
There are the usual comments like “I’m going to have to watch this one-handed” and “Yes, new video!” but there are new ones, too, that relate to Finn and it being my first in-person collaboration.
“Looks like he didn’t leave you hanging this time.”
“Who is he? Can we see his face?”
No, no you can’t.
“Is he the guy from the last video? Is he your boyfriend?”
Like I’m going to answer that one.
I don’t respond to comments anyway, so it’s not like these people are going to expect answers to their questions.
As time goes on and more people comment after they watch, it’s safe to say they want more.
“So hot, but I need to see you ride that fat cock next time.”
I screenshot that one and send it to Finn.
Looks like we have our next video idea.
Finn
When can we film that?
Curtis
Whenever the hell you want.
That first video turns into two, and then three.
Because Finn didn’t want to set up his own Money Shot creator account, I still mix it up with solo vids for those who aren’t a fan of Finn.
Unfortunately, there are always going to be vocal creeps—like the one who accuses me of cheating on them when I don’t even know who they are—but Finn assures me he’s okay with them.
They’re mostly comments about being jealous of Finn and wanting to be in his position, so he knows it’s not about him.
At least, I hope he really does know that and isn’t just saying it.
I’m sure the money is helping him with their words not getting in his head. The tips we get on those videos far outweigh the extra tips I get on my solo ones, so I plan to milk—pun intended—this cash cow for all it’s worth.
Finn wanted to film again today, but between the videos with him and my solo ones, I don’t think I have any cum left in me. I’ve had one day off filming in the last six days, so I need today to recover.
Dolcie messaged last night saying she needs to go to brunch, so I’m going to meet her so she can whine about her husband. It’s the only time she asks me to brunch—when she’s feeling bitchy.
And as predicted, as soon as I walk into the cafe and take the seat in front of her, she sighs.
“You know that phrase that there’s proof sexuality isn’t a choice because no one would choose to be attracted to straight men?” She points to herself. “What is my problem, then? I’m bi and still ended up with a straight man.”
“Maybe the phrase should be proof you can’t help who you fall in love with. What’s he done now?”
“Nothing major. Just the usual crap like chew loudly, left the kitchen a mess, and God forbid he change a toilet roll.”
It’s really hard not to laugh. Granted, those things would be annoying, but if that’s all she has to complain about in her relationship, she’s in a good place.
She tucks her black hair behind her ear. “Anyway. I wanted out of the house without him for a morning.”
“Glad to be of assistance.”
“And to see how you and Finn are doing.”
I glare at her. “Sully is the perfect husband, isn’t he? You dragged me out here to gossip, not to complain about him!”
She fakes offense. “Me gossip? Never. But anyway, you two seem really close. Like really close.”
I can’t tell if the emphasis on really is because she has seen our videos or if she’s fishing. “What makes you say that?”
“We all saw it.”
“I still can’t believe you’re watching my videos. I mean, thanks for the money, I guess, but it’s weird to think of you watching me … like that.”
It’s clear by the look on her face that’s not what she meant.
“I was talking about when we went out, not … Are you saying you and him? Together? On Money Shot?” She takes out her phone, and I put my hand on top of hers.
“You’re not opening that app here.”
She pulls out of my grip. “I’m not going to watch. I just want to … Damn. You’ve uploaded a lot this week.”
“I’ve had the inspiration.” When I’m not with Finn, I’m thinking about him to get myself off.
“What does this mean?” Dolcie asks.
“For what?”
“For the two of you. Are you a couple?”
I shift uncomfortably. “No. It’s a business arrangement.”
She raises an eyebrow.
“What’s with that look?” If I sound defensive, good. Because I mean to.
“He’s okay with that?”
“Why wouldn’t he be? He gets to have sex with me and make money from it.”
“What if he wants more?”
“Where is this coming from?”
She lifts one shoulder. “From the few times I’ve spoken with him and from what Melanie has said—”
“What did Melanie say?”
“That he’s a relationship kind of guy. And you’re way too bitter to be one, so I don’t see this working out long-term.”
“It’s not going to be long-term. It’s only until he gets a job in his field, probably. Nurses work long and stupid hours, so he eventually won’t have time for me.”
“Do you kiss him?”
“You’re not going to do the whole kissing is more intimate than sex speech, are you? Because one, that’s not true—at least in my experience it isn’t—and two, it doesn’t matter if I kiss him or don’t kiss him while we’re filming. It’s still only business.”
“So there’s no affection outside of filming. That’s what you’re saying?”
“Yes, that’s what I’m saying.” Though it’s not exactly accurate. I kiss him hello and goodbye, but does that really count? “Why are you on me about this?”
“Because I don’t want to see you get hurt. Or, the more likely situation, I don’t want you to fuck with Finn’s emotions and cause shit between you, David, and Melanie. If it ends badly—”
I don’t need to hear this. “I know. If it ends badly, I may as well end my friendship with David because Finn will be his brother-in-law.”
“I don’t think it’s as easy as ending your relationship with David. You’re as much David’s brother as Finn will be, which means you’re going to be seeing each other a lot.”
These aren’t thoughts I haven’t already told myself, but coming from someone else, they hit harder somehow.
What do I do?
Walk away now and risk nothing?
Keep doing what we’re doing with stricter rules in place?
Or do I push all my commitment issues aside and put my heart on the line again?
If I’m honest with myself, I want to do none of those things. I want to pick the option where I can keep my head buried in the sand.