Chapter 11
Chapter Eleven
Alton
Wow.
I.
That.
Wait.
“You… you said you like having a mate, right?” Some of our conversation was fuzzy because my brain was slow on the uptake but I was pretty sure that was what he’d said. “I didn’t ask if you wanted one—because I didn’t know it was a thing—but you have limits too.”
Malik raised one eyebrow. “Is that a reasonable worry at all?”
Maybe?
“Um, you have limits.” Yes. I could stick with that being reasonable. “And I kind of blew past them.”
Possibly.
The way he rolled his eyes said he disagreed with it.
When he finally stopped letting them spin and sighed, he looked cute and slightly frustrated.
“The fates would’ve been the ones to blow past my limits but that’s not even a thing.
What kind of moron would I be for the designers of our world to give me a perfect man to love and care for and I walk away because of limits? ”
Well, when he put it that way.
“Emotions aren’t always logical.” Yes. That was a good response. A good start at the very least. “And you’re very smart.”
Was that part of why he was frustrated? He was highly intelligent but sometimes that didn’t help in real-life situations.
Smarts seemed to make real life worse from what I’d seen.
“Take a breath and think back about what I said about wanting a mate.” Malik reached up and started stroking his hand over my head, the large spread of his fingers making me feel tiny. “I know this has been a lot to take in when you were already at capacity, but I couldn’t hide it from you.”
“No. That wouldn’t have worked out well.” I’d have felt… no, that wouldn’t have been good to spring on me later. “You made the right call even if it is entirely too early to function.”
Malik tried not to smile but not very hard. “I bet when you’ve been getting enough sleep that you have a terrible schedule and stay up working half the night.”
Agreeing with him seemed like a bad idea, so I rocked closer to give him a kiss instead of answering verbally. It made him chuckle but he wasn’t frustrated with me. “Brat.”
Sometimes but it got me more kisses and he even nibbled on my lower lip as I rocked my dick against his sexy body. My cock appreciated the direction our conversation had taken, but before we could get too distracted, Malik released my lips.
Shoot.
“You’re a very sexy distraction but we’re going to work out one or two more things now that I know your brain is active.” His tone was sweet but there was a hint of no nonsense, so I gave up and pouted. “You’re adorable but you’re not going to distract me yet.”
Hmm.
“Does that mean I get to distract you soon?” He was my mate, so that seemed to mean our timeline could be adjusted.
“If you would like to distract me, I would love to hear what you’d like.” Still running his hand over my head, he used the slightly rougher pads of his fingertips to massage my scalp and sent tingly pleasure through me.
His smile said he knew what he was doing to me but he stayed on target. “Do you understand that we’re mates and that means we belong together? We’re going to need time to learn about each other and figure out the practical side of things, but I want to make sure we’re both on the same page.”
Logical was sweet but I really shouldn’t have climbed on him because having him under me was incredibly distracting.
Oops.
A hand coming down on my bottom said I hadn’t been subtle about how distracted I was.
“Focus.”
Ugh.
“Yes, Sir.” What had he asked? Mates. Yes. “I understand we’re mates and what that means. I wasn’t expecting to have one but I’m not uninformed.”
That seemed to help the situation because he rubbed over the spot he’d just spanked and gave it a squeeze as I moaned softly. “Good boy. Do you want another? Keep talking and let me hear what you’re thinking and I’ll give you another.”
Rewards.
Yes
Resting my face against his chest, I nodded and soaked up the warmth from his body as I tried to think. “It means we’re designed to complement each other and we’re… we’re basically given our perfect match as long as we don’t fuck it up with free will.”
That was a bitch sometimes.
Malik chuckled but he brought his hand down again sending sparks of pleasure showering through me. “Good boy. No free will fuckups here. We’re going to communicate and do our best to help our relationship grow. We’ve been given a great gift and we’re not going to ignore that.”
With great gifts come great homework.
“Yes. We’re going to talk about things like limits and figure out what we want our future to look like.
Needs. Wants. Practical things.” The hard work bits that made relationships work in the long run.
“But I like knowing why I was so drawn to you and why I kept imagining living with you and just assuming we’d have a life together. I’m not usually that pushy.”
His chest jerked in silent laughter but he kissed the top of my head and gave me another spank. “I agree. It’s nice to understand where those slightly irrational desires came from, but I knew you were going to fit into my life the first time you were Little.”
That memory made me giggle which had his chest jerking again. “You did a good job pushing me on the swings and talking to me about stuff. You’re a good Daddy.”
He was a good catcher too, but I had to push back that thought so I could stay big.
My current goals required big me, not Little me.
“Thank you, sweetie.” Being good had my bottom tingling again and I got another kiss as Malik massaged my cheeks with his wonderfully big hand. “What’s one other thing you think I need to know? Hmm? What’s something else you should share?”
That was hard because his brain was still working faster than mine.
“I…” Taking a breath, I nuzzled against him and wiggled higher so I could press my face against his neck. “I wasn’t kidding when I was talking about the second date stuff… you know… before when we first met. I don’t need slow. You were. I was.”
Amazing.
He was amazing and I was distracted as fuck.
“You were sweet and needy.” Malik’s voice dropped lower as he squeezed just hard enough to make pleasure wash over me like a wave that wanted to pull me under. “You needed your mate to show you how special you were and how wanted.”
Yes.
Relief quickly followed the pleasure as I nodded. “I kept imagining things, but then I was Little and we were playing and then there was my nap.”
We hadn’t exactly come back around to the showing me how special I was in a grown-up way part of our plans.
“I bet you were picturing being bent over the table and being spanked before I took you hard.” Malik knew me so well, I couldn’t be embarrassed as he spanked me again and I moaned. “What about being held up against the wall and fucked?”
Wow.
The jolt that raced through me was impossible to hide and got a wicked laugh from my mate.
My mate.
My naughty mate.
“You… you’re so strong.” I loved how big he was and how solid. “You… you can carry me and you’re so good at taking care of me.”
“There are a lot of ways that I can take care of my mate, aren’t there?
” He paused long enough for me to nod against him, but before I could think about how to ask what I wanted, he sat up on the bed.
He moved me around like I weighed nothing and had me straddling his lap before I knew what was happening. “There. That’s better.”
His hands caressed over my back, one dipping low over my ass to tease down the center. “Now I can play with all of my boy.”
I couldn’t help blushing or the squeak that escaped as he teased over my hole and around the tight ring of muscles, but it just got a sexy, pleased sound from my naughty mate. “I think that’s what he wants too. Is your mate making love to you for the first time or is your mate claiming you?”
Oh wow.
“Hmm… What about you claiming your mate?” Malik’s sexy tone made it clear he wasn’t asking out of jest and the idea pleased something deep in me. “You could make love to me or ride me. And that’s just the start of what we could do to help my needy boy.”
All the possibilities flashed through my imagination, one wonderfully dirty scene at a time. It had me tightening around him, rocking faster as I tried to find the right answer. There had to be one he wanted to hear but they were all so good I couldn’t decide.
My chaotic mind earned me another spank, right over my hole, and his teeth nibbled on my neck where it met my shoulders. It didn’t help my ability to think in any way but it had words jumping out of me. “Please. Yes. That’s.”
They weren’t logical or helpful, really, but they spurred him on and probably made him realize how badly my brain was working at the moment because he chuckled again as he nibbled and teased. “My sexy, needy boy.”
Nodding, I made sure not to dislodge him as I rocked and whined for more. “For… for my mate.”
That had relief flooding through me again and I knew it would be a while before saying that felt normal. I had a mate. I wasn’t crazy or filled with useless wanderlust. I hadn’t been insane. I’d been looking for Malik.
And I’d finally found him.
I could stay right there forever and never leave.
I could stay wrapped in his arms and never feel alone.
I could stay curled up in his lap and always have my Daddy to take care of me.
I could discover all the little things he needed and wanted, even if he didn’t realize it.
I could show him how important he was and give him the mate he’d always wanted.
He’d been looking for me.
Rocking against him, I shifted my arms so I could hold him tight as I kissed his neck. “What… what do you want?”
Pushing back on his we need to talk stuff was automatic, but I knew he was right when I realized he hadn’t said if he was top, bottom, or vers.
He must’ve heard that in my voice because he chuckled and squeezed my ass again.
“I’m vers if that’s what you’re trying to figure out, and no, you didn’t forget that point, we just hadn’t gotten to it yet.
I wasn’t worried because I like both, so I figured we’d get around to addressing that point too. ”
Most guys expected me to bottom and I liked that, so I didn’t mind, but the idea of sinking into Malik the first time was pushing at me. It was the same urge that had kept me rambling around the country, sometimes living in my car and sometimes in hotels.
This wasn’t chasing me toward some imaginary need, though.
This was for my mate.
So many things had fallen neatly into place and I felt like I could float away I was so light, but only if my mate came with me.
My Malik.
My Daddy.
“You’re my Daddy as well as my mate.” I wasn’t sure if that changed things. He said vers but sometimes that wasn’t how a Dom felt in the moment.
Malik huffed.
Oops.
“Would you like to explain what one thing has to do with another?” Malik’s voice said I needed to be careful even if the deep tone was sexy.
“Nothing.” No questioning Daddy’s honesty, got it. “You said you were vers and you gave me wonderful options to choose from for us to be together.”
Not wanting to fuck things up and make him question what I wanted, I kissed his neck again and focused on my mate. “You’re my mate. That means we’re right together.”
We could still unfortunately fuck things up, but we weren’t going to do that.
Before he could start to push on the we need to talk topic again, because I could hear the wheels in his head moving in that direction, I rocked over him again and started nibbling up his neck and nuzzling against his soft hair.
“That means you want me to claim you as much as I want to be claimed later.”
He wanted a mate and everything that came along with it, and I wasn’t going to question that.
Playing with his ear, I marveled at the softness and the way it was almost smooth. “You’re going to be pleased to know that my knowledge of important bits of your anatomy is more extensive than what it means to be Caladrius.”
That got a bark of laughter from him and another smack to my ass. “I was wondering when you were going to ask where my dick was.”
Hidden.
It was in an internal sheath, protected in his body until he was ready to be with his partner.
It was a fun evolutionary adaptation that I’d actually drawn a couple of times because penises were fun no matter what shape and size they came in.
The fact that it was self-lubricating because of it was a wonderful thing too.
But we’d explore that part next time.
“Don’t worry. I’d have asked questions about that if I’d been confused.” It’d have probably been Little me asking odd questions but it would’ve come out eventually.
He chuckled again, stroking his hands back up my back and pushing my shirt higher. “I’m glad. You wouldn’t need to have wondered for much longer, though. Just having you wiggling over me is sexy as fuck.”
“You’re so soft and hard and…” I lost my train of thought as he eased me back and quickly pulled my pajama shirt over my head. “Fast.”
He snickered, looking pleased with himself. “And ready to have my mate naked in my arms.”
Well, I couldn’t argue with that since I’d been thinking along those same lines. “What about you?”
Malik shrugged. “I wasn’t going to surprise you with the whole hidden dick thing, just in case.”
Good point… but I had to tease him.
“So you’ll surprise me by looking human but not with a missing cock? It’s good to see you have priorities even if I don’t understand them.” I laughed as Malik growled and flipped us over to pin me to the bed.
“You were saying?” He was trying to glare and look stern but it was sexy and just made me want to laugh as I wrapped my arms and legs around him.
“I was saying that if you want me to make love to you then this isn’t going to work.” I didn’t do stern nearly as well as he did but I did snarky better. “Unless you’ve changed your mind?”
His smirk came back along with a desire-filled fire in his eyes that made me shiver. “No. I’m well prepared too. Getting up early has its advantages.”
“Hopeful much?”
He shook his head, grin getting wider. “I was just pretty sure you’d find a way to explain that yesterday was at least two dates.”
I wasn’t sure if him knowing me that well already was a good thing or not.
“Breakfast would’ve been the second date and I’d have started my seduction after food and caffeine.” His priorities were sweet but food and caffeine were usually at the top of mine.
Malik’s eyes twinkled. “I’ll remember that next time.”
I had the type of Daddy to never forget anything… and that was definitely going to come back to bite me in the ass on a regular basis.